Been doing a bit of thinking...the last few days especially in the evening i have been craving carbs, so i am going to stop with the carbs restricting...i do wanna take some focus of the scales...what i really need to do is work out other measurements of success...ive lost 26 kilos this year...which is a damn good effort...i am reverting to simply counting points and eating a wide variety of food....one thing they do say on diet doctors is eat carbs and protein each meal. Count my points. But i want the next 12 months focus to be more on fitness and reshaping my body. I do wanna do the 7.2km walk for the mothers day classic, the 12km in the city to bay. But within that i wanna start living more...swimming, biking just healthy living...not to say im not gonna lose more weight jsut wanna change the focus and with that i think the weight loss will come along too.

Wednesday December 2

MAN i feel sooooooooooooo rested today :) Amazing what a nice early nite can do for you.

Last nite after dilly dallying about whether to go to the gym or go for a walk i mapped out a 5.94km walk which i will do tonite after dinner. Get some nice fresh air into me as sam pointed out!

Foodwise...managed to save 1 point yesterday...and dropped 300 grams (still above mondays weigh in by 600 grams tho - oops!)

Have decided 16th december to 31st december putting the gym membership onhold...fiona is on leave from 18th onwards for 10 days...i am working the 7 days prior to xmas and the gym is on restricted hours plus all the days its closed on public holidays...i pay $170 a fortnight...so seemed to be silly to pay that for a fortnight ill barely go. I will do lots of walking then....plus once i get my xmas money gonna buy a wii fit plus so im sure i can survive 2 weeks without the gym lol

Next week i am going dress shopping! Oh yes and xmas present shopping too lol but im super excited to think i am going clothes shopping...prolly wont find any dresses that suit me but gotta try...if not ive seen some nice pants and top at katies i like.

Not too much else going on...have a good day all !

Tuesday December 1

Well yesterday i was a lil bad lol (ok a lot bad) but whats done is done...i went to PT last nite...and told fiona i had gained 300 grams and she was like...but what happened with your body fat percentage? I was like i dunno...i dont have body fat scales....so her recommendation is i maybe look at getting some and focus more on that then the number on the scales. First thing fiona said was i have prolly gained muscle. When we started PT last nite shes like we will do more "bag" work so when u randomly come to my kickboxing class you are comfortable and know all the moves...i was like is that a hint? lol...big hint i am thinking lol

Today i am having a rest day...ive exercised the last 5 days...and my body feels a lil tired...prolly due to eating crap food yesterday admittedly!

Yesterday i did a bit of thinking...and yanno i think the doctors have had enuff goes with sorting out with whats wrong with me...so i rang a naturopath yesterday and have a appointment on 4/1/10 i told him that i ahve PCOS, low iron and apparantly hepatitis and he was all like...oh id love to work with u haha...anyway...he seems to think i prolly would just need to take some chinese herbal teas and that should sort me out...so ill put up with everything till then, I will still go see the specialist next week and see what he says about the surgery for the endoablasion.

Not much else going on...have a good day all!

Monday November 29

i bloody well gained hehe :) And yep im not perturbed by it....two reasons...the gain was only 300 grams...when i look back on last month on november 3 i gained 900 grams...so i think in the 10 days leading up to TOM i just seem to gain a lil...and thats okay...thats life ! I did everything right last week...i earnt 52 exercise points...i ate NO crap food...im soooooo in the "zone" so its all good !

I didnt go for the blood test today....seriously it would be the second blood test in 3 days...so next week on my days off i will get it done.

Back to work tomorrow...and 7 days straight! Ack! LOL bloody hell christmas day can bloody well hurry up and get here i am so looking forward to my 3 weeks off.

Tonite off to the gym tonite for PT with boxing and then some treadmill work

Have a good day all !

Todays Walk November 29

Sunday November 29

A couple of photos from last nite. Had a very enjoyable time. I had bruschetta and then grilled whiting...was very yummii - the scales have jumped up a bit today but could be some water retention from the bruschetta. I was talking to my friend helen last nite (Who i hadnt seen since may 2008) and she said "the girls said you were doing really well at the gym but i told them that cant be right cos you hate to sweat" hahahahha :) and she is so right...told her i still friggin hate sweating but u gotta do what u gotta do.

This morning i walked 5.94km! Took 1 hour and 8 minutes and 7 seconds and burnt 709 calories...pretty awesome huh? Fiona told me the aim would be to walk 12km in under 2 hours...so since its only my second long walk i dont think thats too bad at all. Normally on a good week i burn 2200 calories...this week i have burnt 3690 calories! The last day of the week is today...and im thoroughly impressed...funnily there has been very lil movement on the scales (i am sitting the same weight as last week) it could be muscle building...it could also be im not eating enough given the increase in exercise.

I am having pasta for dinner tonite! I feel a bit lacklustre so will see if that perks me up a bit...just making the spaghetti bolognaise out of the week 1 book. Hummm well i was till i just thought i dont think i have spaghetti sauce in the house! Mite have to make something else.

I went back to the docs today...heres wats going on...my iron stores increased from 8 to 12 (normal range starts at 15) so he said i am only mildly iron deficcient now YAY for high protein diet :) My ESR And c-protein were both up which basically means "something" is wrong but he went back thru all the blood tests ive had this year...my last liver test was in june and he was like "you have hepatitis" which basically means liver disease...the healthy range is 30-120....in february mine was 353 - oops! In november-january i had been out drinking a bit...june it was down to 161 and so now i need another test...which i will go for tomorrow morning...he expects it will have reduced again. On reading up on all this i think the answer is what ive been doing...no alcohol, no painkillers, organic food where possible, drinking my water, eating healthily and exercising...whilst its prolly not a big deal at the moment it is something i need to look after. And at least i have a answer after feeling sluggish for most of the year ! I know there is a book on the "liver cleansing diet" but if anyone runs across any sites with info especially on natural remedies to help the liver please please pass them on to me...i'd be very grateful.

My sunburn still hurts :( i need some sexii woman to come and rub lots of moisturiser into it for me haha !

Okies off i go to try and find something for dinner - enjoy all !

Saturday November 28

Last nite after dinner...i put on my gym shoes...and walked into north adelaide! 4.8km walked in just under a hour! Thoroughly impressed with myself...i told Fiona about it today and she was like...i think you should start training towards 12km city to bay run...u got 10 months to train for it...excluding any injuries theres no reason you shouldnt be able to do it....ummm okay LOL

Then fiona is giving me a massage and her best friend whose a trainer at the gym and had just been teaching a body pump class comes up and this was the conversation...
sarah : there was a poor girl in the class who had no technique
Fiona : we need to start running the technique classes agin
Me : see this is why i am scared of the classes
Sarah : no you would be fine you have fine technique....i would glance at u but that is all...so when are you coming to body pump karyn?
Fiona : can you get in here 5.30pm on thrusday for pump
Sarah : theres no thursday class till next year
Me : Oh maybe ill come and do a class in the new year
Sarah : So that means by the end of next year?
Fiona : Dont give her such long term goals....she can do the class now
Me : Okies ill do it early january

CRAP! haha ! At least i would know the instructor tho! lol

We started a new weights program today...man i feel pain coming on me tomorrow lol Anyway we are doing leg press and i am pressing 55.5 kilos ! And fiona goes...whats ur current weight...im like 125 kilos....and she is like...well we will take into consideration your knees and ankles but we are gonna aim for you pressing your own body weight ! lmfaoooooooooooooooo holy crap the woman is insane ! lol

I dropped in and got my blood results...some improvements and some got worse...i will post more about it on monday after i have been to the doc to see what he says!

Tonite out for dinner...i am looking forward to getting dressed up...mite even take a pic...have a fab day/nite all !

Friday November 27

Went in for my blood test this morning. Was waiting a hour in the waiting room...boredom saved by what must be the cutest baby ... this lil girl all of like 9 months spotted this young guy and was just a lil bit obsessed with him was cute as hell to watch. I finally got in and they had to take bloomin 4 tubes of blood and then she sticks the needle in and goes "oh no the vein moved" hahah ffs!! to say it killed is the understatement of the year..its still a lil sore when i stretch it out and got a lil bit of swelling. Hopefully i can go back and get the results tomorrow arvo. I will be very impressed if the iron has gone up.

I then went and did the grocery shopping...came home and relaxed YAY. Then i FINALLY moved my mattress upstairs (and omg what work that was) and then i did day 1 of the 30 day program...man was only 20 minutes...but i was sweating and it burnt 330 calories....awesome dude!

Just found out when i go back to work after this 5 days off..i dont have 2 days off together until xmas ! That said...they are actually making xmas day one of my RDO's which means i get paid double time to have the day off! haha i rawk! bring that money on babeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Specially good cos im working the 3 weekends before as well...so plenty of money for presents, nice xmas day outfit :)

Okies off to watch diet doctors - enjoy all !

Thursday November 26

I had every intention of going to the gym last nite and doing body balance, i walked out of work and the minute i did i got a headache...needless to say i didnt go....in the back of my mind i wonder if the headache is related to the class. When i was a kid i would stress about stuff...but i never was overly conscious i would stress...it would lead to headaches, fainting and even hives...so its possible we will have to wait and see. The issue is if thats the case i dont understand why i am so friggin scared of them. ANYWAY today i had PT...and during PT we were doing boxing and fiona is like...when ur on holidays u can come to my kickboxing class...im like your taking a class? Shes like yeh and tells me the time...and then says we will work on some of the moves in the class so u can come in and do the class...lol..im guessing she wants me to do the class...whilst i havent told her about the headache she knew i was intending to do the class and may have checked on the computer this morning to see if i came to the gym or not. Maybe i just need to suck it up for a few weeks and keep making myself go...cos yanno the cardio machines get boring...and doing a hour of them a day is boring so i need to either throw myself into the cardio machines or get over this "class phobia"

I went to meet mum for lunch today...had a yummi meal of veal scallopini and some garlic bread lol oopsie! Was very delish tho...and in the process scored me some sunurn! On my shoulders and back...i came home fell asleep (very unlike me during the day) reached up to scratch my back and owsie...bloomin hurt...i am rather red...so the moisturiser is being worked out overtime today.

OH and so im in PT and i had put a link to a jillian article on facebook and fiona is like oh i read that article...and i may have mentioned that Jillian is awesome LOL and fiona was like out of all the circus out of the biggest loser...if what you get out of it is using her as a role model i think its good...everything about her is logical...which then led to a bit of chit chat about her latest book that i am reading. I can see after reading this book i will change some things...its amazing the info in it...its all on hormones and how they affect our metabolism and also how chemicals, growth hormones etc affect it too...very full on book to read but definitely helpful i really think "clean living" is the way to go.

Okies with that i am off to sleep...have a good day tomorrow all !

Wednesday November 25

I am nearly on five days off ! YAY! i have like 2 hours to go and i am soooooooooooooo looking forward to it. Tonite i am gymming it ... gonna do 30 minutes of of the interval training then the body balance class. Different instructor tonite so will be interesting to see the difference.

Tomorrow morning i have to go for a blood test for them to check the blood count and iron levels. Then off to the gym for PT and then lunch time i am meeting mum for lunch...so a really nice day planned.

On monday nite i was at the bus stop sitting on the seat which faces a window which i could see my reflection in...and i was amazed at how small i look across the shoulders...they look COMPLETELY normal! Now rest of the body is another story but wow i was pretty impressed and couldnt stop looking at myself ! LOL i noticed my wrists are thinner now too...theyve always been pretty slim but previously if i tried to put my thumb and lil finger around them they couldnt quite reach...now they overlap ! freaking hell ! I love this...its like all of a sudden lots of realisations of how far i have come and i LOVE IT

I also must say a huge thank you for all the comments...they truly give me such a buzz...whilst we dont need other peoples acceptance or feedback its still bloody damn nice ! haha ! Okies nearly time to go home...time for me to go nag Ryan to play some miley cyrus on our ride home haha enjoy all !

Tuesday November 24

Well i "unofficially" hit 45 kilos today - ME!!! 45 kilos holy hell...feels like I am talking about someone else. But quite obviously the cutting back on carbs is definitely working. I am not being ridiculous about it...today i am having 2 carb meals...breakfast & lunch but thats it. So now i am resetting my goal for next mondays weigh in! I wanna go under 125 kilos...i wanna bust my ass and by xmas day try to not only reach my 50 kilos lost but also be under 120 kilos...that would make me so damn happy ! and would mean in 12 months i lost in excess of 31.8 kilos...so we will see how i go. Its all very exciting tho...by 100 grams i have less then 50 kilos to lose now....another 2 kilos i am at the half way mark of this journey...and i have now lost over 25% of my initial body weight...hell something is going right eh?

Tonite i am planning to do body step...i spoke to fiona about it last nite...said i was concerned about the cardio factor of it...she was like u are fitter then you realise i dont think that will be a issue...but cos of ur knee...use one step only and i am only to do the steps at "single time" not "double time" so we will see how i go. Last nite we did the final week of the current program and when doing the chest press and LAT pull down she kept saying...oh you are hardcore lol...she reckons only 3 others she know about at the gym do the same weight as me on the LAT pull down -rawr-

Only tomorrow then 5 days off...YAY friggin YAY ! i cannot wait...i am completely over work this week LOL

Okies this girl with the 45 kilos lost is off to do some work ! lol

1.9 Kilos babeeeeeeeeeeeee!

1.9 kilos babeeeeeeeeeee! Yes since friday i have lost another 1.9 kilos! I am now down to 126.6 kilos and my total loss is 44.3 kilos! omg seriously...so close to 45 kilos it aint funny. I even went looking online at city chic last nite at their dresses...debating whether to buy a dress for xmas day or not...one i could dress up for going out in...we will see!

Tania asked me how often i go to the gym...its generally 4-5 times per week altho my aim is 90 minutes 5-6 times per week...i think exercise is a huge key to the weight loss for me. Plus i actually enjoy it...as much as i grumble at times lol

And today...i am sitting here in a size 18 top and a pair of size 20 jeans...i am MIGHTY impressed with me!

Tonite it is gym...decided 15 minute treadmill warm up...PT of weights then 45 minutes on the treadmill with my walk/run thing

Okies off i go..have a great day all !

Sunday November 22

I did body balance! OMGoodness! I thought this would be a "easy" class to do hehe some bits of it i found easy like the tai chi part (prolly cos of my ballet/dance training i loved the tai chi!) But getting into poses like dog down or whatever they are called were hard! But i did my best and i will be back there for the wednesday class! The trainer was good too...i have seen her around the gym before but didnt know who she was (and yeh ok she is a bit of a hottie! haha) Anyway so the class went for a hour...then i jumped on the treadmill for 5 minutes then Fiona came and got me for PT of boxing then i got back on the treadmill i did 30 minutes of 2 minutes walking and 1 minute running....i even thru in a 2 minute run at one point ... so over 2 hours of exercise! And honestly...my feet ached at the end (my feet suck) but i wasnt too tired or anything i prolly coulda even done more but i thought that was taking things too far ! LOL

Tomorrow nite i have PT at 6.30pm...my plan is either ...a 15 minute warm up on the treadmill of just walking...then my PT session then 45 minutes of walking/running...or do a 30 minute boxing class...45 minute casual walk on the treadmill...followed by my PT session....the problem is as my PT session is so late i would prefer not to do too much before my PT Session so i can go as hard as i can during PT but once PT is over i will only have about 45 minutes after the session...so decisions decisions

I did decide to do a mini weigh in tomorrow then every monday after that...mostly cos whilst i always do PT thursday nite we dont always do weights...and i wanna have a bit of stability on the day beforehand. Yesterday i only had one carb meal...yes ME lol amazing! But i didnt feel i was missing out...and it wont be something i do every day...it was simply that i ate eggs for breakfast instead of cereal.

I must admit i am even thinking about doing the body step class! I know its not a beginners class...i use to do step classes a trillion years ago...and always liked them...and really it would be a awesome cardio workout...and i figure if i take the easy options i could prolly cope...its only 45 minutes long too.

Okies off i go...off to finish watching UK biggest loser

Progress Pics

Figured a photo update was overdue and since i was wearing a SIZE SIXTEEN top today what better time to do it? I will be be back later with a actual post...heres the pics from oldest to today
April 2006:

December 30 2008:



Today November 21:

BIt of thinking...

I had a moment. Over the last 3 weeks or so i have not eaten processed foods...kept to two carb meals per day and never felt better. Last nite while shopping...i saw ww garlic bread...so i bought it...i then saw ww creamy pasta sauce.... so i bought it ... then ww icecreams .... so i bought them...i came home tonite...the garlic bread is digested all the icecreams digested and one serve of the pasta is gone...i then started to feel miserable...about not only my eating and the scales...i started to question when did the scales become so important ... when did weight loss become so important ... THEN I went and lifted my arm...the underside hurt so i reached for it and was massaging it when i suddenly realised...holy crap theres muscle there! My bicep muscle has developed a lot whilst training with fiona its quite obvious now and firm and toned but my underarms ... not so the underarms...but there is a distinct muscle there that wasnt there before...doesnt compare to the bicep muscle but omg its awesome i cant stop touching it ! LOL it is so much more about the scales...sure tonite i stuffed up a bit..but its yet another lesson on not having the processed food crap in my house. The other thing i was thinking is how...i havent done both exercise and food together...ive either been all into exercise ... or all into food...imagine how good i mite be able to do if i did both together??? SO the plan is....soon as i finish posting this i am off to sleep...i have been staying up late playing online this week which is never a good option...so a good solid sleep tonite...tomorrow...back to the normal food plan...with the only difference being my non carb meal is going to be ar nite not lunch time...11.30am i am planning to do body balance followed by PT and followed by trying the C25k program...its a lot yes..is it doable? yes...do i have time to fit it in? YES i am single for gawds sake...there is not reason at all why i cannot be at the gym 90 minutes per day...time to up the ante people...food plus exercise....then we will see what those scales say on monday week - can i get close to 125.9 and reach my 45 kilos? Prolly not but its a goal i plan on striving for...and with that...nite nite people - time to get this body rested so its in tip top condition!

Friday November 20

I weighed in this morning and lost 400 grams, i am satisfied with that altho not necessarily happy with it. I am wondering tho...as i had some stomach pains yesterday..that felt like constipation pains...i also did my weight program last nite and wondering if i shouldnt weigh in the day after doing weights. So what i have decided is i will weigh in on monday too...then every monday...sunday is rest day..so theres no "exercise" or muscle transformation that could effect a monday morning weigh in. So i am now 128.5 kilos...annoying this is wednesday morning i was 127.7 kils lol oh well thems the breaks right?

Its cooler today and i looking forward to a nice relaxing weekend. I have PT tomorrow at 12.30pm and i am CONSIDERING doing a class beforehand...there is body balance at 11.30am and body pump...i have been blabbing about doing classes for so long and even done the occassional class...i dont think its the class itself that scares me its the walking into the room...where a bunch of people i dont know are...where if equipment is required i gotta work out the equipment for me...and hang around looking like a nigel no friends cos i dont know anyone who does the classes..lol...pisses me off that im like that and im sure its a hangover affect of getting so big and always being so conscious of myself...but i think working up to classes like body attack, combat and step would ultimately really push me along with my weight loss, its like i want someone (and i have no idea who that someone is...maybe God?) but someone to tell me...you arent out of place in these classes kazz...you belong here as much as anyone else....and i know i do...but still...i still dont feel i have the right to be there if that makes any sense.

Ok enuff blabbing time to do some work enjoy all

Thrusday November 19

Part of my self talk i have done for the last few years is tell myself "food is a fuel not a luxury" dunno if i have believed it but its the philosophy i have tried to follow. Suddenly its clicked i am sure its the change to my eating i have made recently...i dont crave carb foods at all...i am always feeling full and i know i am putting so many good nutrients in my body...i love it! Thats the what i deserve...good food that gives me results! Not horrid saturated fats and carbilicious food ;)

I love love love that show on the you channel "diet doctor" its great...i love it.

43 degrees here today altho everyone is saying it wont reach that...the gym is on the 7th floor so i hope its not too bloody hot up there. I have PT with resistance tonite

Weigh in tomorrow...unless something crazy happens between now and tomorrow i will definitely have a loss

Have a good day everyone

Loose Jeans

i KNEW there was something else to post. I am wearing my size 20 be me jeans today...and they are getting loose! Around the waist they are prolly a inch too big or more...and i can feel them especially today looser around my hips and tops of legs...yay! That is so exciting Can't believe how much closer to 45 kilos being lost i am getting :)

Wednesday 18 November

Monday night when I got home i noticed my left ankle was sore. Last nite was sore again and it appeared a lil swollen today it seems fine...if its still ok tonite...ill do a lil bit of kickboxing of the "workout" show on foxtel.

Had the appraisal last night and it all went really well...the agent told me my land agent thinks very highly of me (chit i have them fooled eh! lol) anyway he did the appraisal said they would be in touch with me soon...so now we just have to wait i guess. He did seem to focus on the fact there is no /c upstairs so if they do decide to sell maybe they will install a/c up there...that would be fabulous.

Not much else going on...still finding the limit of 2 meals with carbs per day is working really well for me...looking forward to friday mornings weigh in!

Tuesday November 17

Went to the gym last nite...did 35 minutes on the treadmill..ending up upping the speed to 5.4 (never done that before) bloody hell that speed makes my legs have to move bloody fast! The funny thing was when i went back to a slow speed that was still a speed of 4 not so long ago 4 was a fast speed for me LOL anyway it damn well tuckered me out...then i went and did PT session of boxing...man she is way to keen on hving me do these lil spurts of running lol...while in PT fiona asked me how my cardio workouts are going UMMMM!!!! They havent been? lol i really have to pull my finger out...and started to really up it.

The appraisal is tonite...just got a few things left to do and then TA DA everything is ready...i should have a hour or so once i get home tonite. I left all the windows open today to let in the heat so they can get a gist of how friggin hot it gets.

I am LOVING the new you channel in foxtel. I recorded "my workout" this morning mite give it a whirl after the appraisal tonite.

Not really too much else to say...hope everyones having a good week !

Monday November 16

I must say i am glad i have "figured out" that it was bread holding me back, admittedly i prolly always knew it would be carbs that would get me in the end. My issue now...is two things...one egg/cheese/chicken and salad for lunch is prolly gonna get boring quite quickly and lately i am not even hungry at lunch time. I am guessing i am getting less cravings and being less hungry due to the less amount of carbs. I mean its 12.20pm and i am not hungry at all...in fact the thought of food is a bit blah....i could easily not have lunch and i dont think i would have a issue getting thru to dinner...of course thats not exactly healthy. The other thing i am considering a few days per week (and i realise this isnt a popular decision...but my journey my choice etc) i am thinking of having a protein drink at lunch time. That way i would at least get the calories in...the one i am looking at is iso whey....it uses the sweetener that Jillian recommends...and its low fat, low carb and very high protein and is suppose to encourage muscle building. That said i am not about to go on a shake diet...its ww all the way for me...and what i am doing at the moment is working...but i dont see the real harm in having a protein shake once per day 3-4 times per week.

The good news is the scales have gone down again...this morning for the second day running they were under 128 kilos...YAY the thing is i dont think i can expect to be able to eat processed foods and lose weight. I read the ww forum at times and people say oh i have a ww icecream each nite or whatever....but i know if i was to do that the losses will slow...its only since i adopted the theory of only zero point foods after dinner and no carbs at lunch time im getting losses. I am guessing that all relates back to my PCOS and when i do go to the doc next i am going to ask him about that...as i am very concerned about having too strict a diet cos i know they dont work and i am not being too strict...that said i am eating about 21.5 points per day and i am on 24 points...and thats not taking into account my exercise points i earn.

Tonite i am back to the gym...30-45 minute warm up on the treadmill (while watching the simpsons lol) then PT session of boxing and i am hoping i am not too tired after to do first session of the C25K...so wish me luck ( i may be simply too tired ) so we will see.

The house is pretty much all ready for the appraisal...tonite after the gym i will mop the kitchen floor and vaccuum...and then tomorrow nite just make the bed from the morning do any last minute things and sweep the stairs and it should be fine.

Not too much else going on...have a good day all!

Friday November 13

Weighed in and lost 500 grams! YAY i would prefer to lose 500 grams every week and not have the fluctuations my body seems to do...so i am now 128.9 kilos...i think i have truly broken the 130 kilos barrier :) The other thing is I have TOM too so a loss during TOM is always a blessing.

At the gym last nite they were giving out free passes for friends to attend the gym for free and do classes...so Jaimee is coming wednesday nite and we are doing RPM...my gawd!!!! Ive only done RPM a few times and it is a killer...but i wanted to do more classes and having someone to do them with is great. With luck Jaimee mite really like the gym and join (fingers crossed)

Tonite gonna go do some grocery shopping then have a quiet nite...will do a lil bit of cleaning then when i wake tomorrow morning do a hour or two that should get msot apart from the back yard done (and the backyard is small and will take all of 20 minutes lol)

The really surprising thing too is how well i am coping with the heat. Thes days of 39 degrees have really been no drama...another bonus to losing weight!

Have a good day all

Just a bit of thinking

Well so far its been a day of thinking...i got thinking about how when i cut out 2 lousy slices of bread per day and suddenly the scales started moving...and it reminded me that i DO have PCOS...i have known for a trillion years...that as i have PCOS i should be eating a low GI diet...primarily the way i am eating now...with a small amount of "good" carbs and more protein is what i need...this may need further tweaking as I go down but its what I need. When i got diagnosed with PCOS like 11 years ago...i had a hysteroscopy & D&C at the time and i have never given it much more thought....now my appointment on the 8/12 at the hospital is at the womens centre and i am sure PCOS is gonna become part of that chat...so i may bring up about PCOS and see if i am doing everything i should be doing...and maybe bring up about metformin and also about my struggles with my weight. That said...i am gonna cut bread out...completely...ill still have pasta (60 grams per nite) and still have my uncle toby cereal each day...but no other carbs on a daily basis. Altho my weight has fluctuated a bit today and yesterday...i think thats all completely related to TOM (and was 300 grams down on yesterday this morning) I was having a whinge at Jody this morning via facebook about the gym and i was saying...yanno im not at the gym and im losing better then for ages...lets be honest tho...its not likely the gym having the negative effect...its the bloomin carbs. So i am going to the gym tonite...and going to go in the right frame of mind...i will see how hot the gym is but i think i will say to fiona lets just do the wellness plan...a bit of focusing on my goals may be a good thing...then next week...time to really get stuck into things. There is no reason why i wont get to my 3 PT sessions next week....so thats the focus...i do have the appraisal to get the unit ready for too so i will be a lil busy...but monday, thursday and saturday is the GYM. I think for me the answer is ww....but kinda tweaking the points so it works for me...may have to continually do lots of rethinking and testing out what does and doesnt work....instead of sulking and not changing anything for 6 months when i sit at 130 kilos...i mean seriously how der am i sometimes????

Good news just arrived tho! My IPOD has been dispatched..so exciting! I told Jaimee i will start C25K once i get it so that may just be next week :)

Okies enuff blabbing...off i go

Thursday November 12

Well...TOM did arrive yesterday...so delightfully i have cramps...no doubt my iron will go down over the next few days...and i really dont wanna go to the gym tonite ! I will go to the gym (but trust me i seriously contemplated not going) but will do the wellness plan so no exercise lol Seriously i dunno whats going on with me and the gym...well partly i do..in the lst 10 days ive gone under 130 kilos and i seem to be staying under there...mostly i think thats due to the "no bread rule" (which i am breaking today as someone left her lunch at home ugh) but anyway part of me wonders whether the losses have been due to not exercising. That said i know i need to get over this slump with the gym...partly i think its cos the gym is on the SEVENTH floor with only evaporative airconditioning and we all know heat rises...even when it hasnt been warm its warm up there...needless to say why im only doing the wellness work today...what fiona will say about the fact i havent worked out with her for a week i dunno lol (well actually i pretty much do know and it will be something along the lines of "your punishing yourself") It shows you how when you back off the exercise a lil its easy to fall out of the habits...specially with this damn heat...have i mentioned its HOT????

I forgot my bloody lunch today...gawd...so no breakfast or lunch here...i bought 2 pieces of raisin toast for breakfast (uh oh bread) and ive ordered half a bread wrap for lunch hopefully the bread doesnt affect me too badly.

Not really too much else going on...fingers crossed for tomorrows weigh in

Wednesday November 11

Well yesterday at work we have platters of food delivered during our team meeting as we had won team of the month. So we had one platter with all these different types of cheeses (including swiss yummm) and another platter with cheese and cold meats. So yeh i had some....had some ham, chicken loaf, salami and swiss cheese...and this morning i was up on my scales by 1.5 kilos! Quite possibly its sodium related but i also have cramps today so i am expecting TOM to arrive by the weekend so its possibly related to that as well (that dream of getting under 127.5 kilos on friday is now appearing very unlikely!) Of course if this is TOM related it will mean a HUGE loss next week...but i am sitting here chugging the water down hopefully i can get it down so i still have a loss this week (even tho its gone up 1.5 kilos i am only 100 grams over last weeks weigh in ;))

I have been super slack about the gym the last few weeks...i havent been since last thursday...i am going tomorrow nite for a PT session...saturdays PT session has been cancelled due to the pageant...but the timing of that is pretty good...since i have plenty to do with getting the place ready for the appraisal.

Have decided if it is still hot on tuesday I will leave the mattress down in the living room...i mean they can still do their friggin appraisal and to be honest i kinda hope it still is so they can see how friggin hot it gets in summer up there and what i have been putting up with ! Tonite im gonna pick up in my bedroom and dust and sort out the book case which seems to have gathered quite the assortment of crap in it LOL

Okies off i go...have a good day all !

Tuesday November 10

Well just got off the phone from the land agents a bit ago. Basically they dont know the landlords intentions...but they have said even if they do sell prolly wont impact me as it would be sold as a investment property and I would just get a new landlord. Bit of a shame cos my current land agent is awesome...lovely lovely girl and she only does inspections every 7 months or so which works perfectly for me ! lol

Food wise good so far again today...i realised this morning that i hadnt bought my container for my salad home...and i was thinking...chit...will have to buy a sandwich...but no...bought my egg and cheese and will just asked the cafeteria to make me up a lil container of salad ;)

I am really gunning for getting under 127.5 by friday....im not there yet...but will say it is doable...so we will see what happens on friday ;

The appraisal is being done next tuesday nite at about 6.30pm...so will do a bit of housework over the next week doing all those bloody chores i normally avoid like the plague lol will do a bit each nite so i dont have to spend my whole weekend cleaning.

Not much else to say...have a good day all !

Monday November 9

I am not gonna say what my scales currently say but I will say I cant wait for fridays weigh in! I feel like this change of carbs to protein has given me the key to unlocking this journey..the thing is i am so much more content i am eating less points...today i have eaten 19.5 points...i am on 24 points...i havent purposely avoided points...i simply forgot to eat this afternoon (truly!) and one of the rules i am following is only zero point food after dinner. I feel so good tho and that i am "truly" on my journey again!

Got a email this arvo...the landlord wants a agent to come over and do a "appraisal" of the unit...so im preparing myself for being told they are looking at selling....so will ring them tomorrow and book a time for the appraisal next week...clean the place and hopefully i can swing a couple of hours off work so i can be here. Fingers crossed even if they do decide to sell that they market it as a investment property.

I must admit everything else in life is pretty good...the annoying thing is if it turns out i have to move...i'd prolly move out to salisbury (close to work...cheaper rental prices) the drama would be about the gym...but we will cross this issue once I know whats going on!

Okies off i go...btw this heat sucks !

Sunday November 8

Well its yet another good day! Last nite out at dinner i had one piece of bruschetta...a creamy pasta (oops!) and a hot chocolate made with low fat milk...and STILL the scales made another slight move this morning...so while its not huge...the scales have dropped 300 grams since friday...so i think i am FINALLY gonna start moving towards 125 kilos...i think the no bread thing is having a huge impact on my body and i am ecstatic about it. I feel like i have a completely different mind set...and i am back to think...hell yeh i could possibly be close or under 120 kilos by xmas. TOnite for dinner i am making Jo's "big bucket in the sky chicken" and then gonna make some home made fries to go with it...yummmmo...so by the end of the day i will have had 22 points...so thats 2 points saved...really a good day all round.

Tomorrow nite i have gym but as i am working till 6pm will prolly only be at the gym for 45 minutes or so. So will be 30 minutes of PT with boxing and then 20 minutes or so on the treadmill.

I broke my bloody fan! THe other nite i kicked it while sleeping and now it makes a attrocious noise so mite have to buy a new one this week. Thankfully i have the air conditioner downstairs...i am contemplating bringing the mattress downstairs maybe just leave it down here till summer is over LOL not a great look in the middle of the living room but the upstairs gets so friggin warm its disgusting. And wow think of that exercise when i finally drag it back up the stairs ! In fact ... pretty much decided that is what i will do!

Okies off i go...have a good nite all

Saturday November 7

Yesterday jo's post about how she doesnt always say on her journal what she wants to say made me realise i am the same. I have seen things said on the ww forum that i have rolled my eyes about and thought whatever...i do ww but i do think it is the be all and end all...i think its a good program but i dont think its a perfect program. There is only person who has the true knowledge of weiight loss as far as i am concerned and that is Jillian...so so often on the forums i really have to watch myself and cos i dont truly know everyone who reads this journal i have to watch my mouth...i realise there are prolly quite a few readers from that specific forum. But also with other stuff...i still get worried about offending others and still get concerned that people will see me as a "failure" Im not a perfectionist...so thats not part of it....but most things i tend to do i tend to do pretty good without too much effort, work i am a high performer yet im sure there are plenty others at work who bust their butt and still i out perform...pretty much been the same with every job ive had,,,,whether its graphics, crafty stuff...whatever i just seem to breeze thru things....but weight loss is a different kettle of fish...it is hard work...it is a struggle...and so there is always that chance of failure ,,,, which sucks !

Anyway that was a post I wrote last nite...its SATURDAY today...at work right now...finish at 5pm then off to dinner with the ww gurlies.

Jumped on the scales and went down another 200 grams...so i feel quietly confident the missing the carbs at lunch is working

Not too much else to say...have a good weekend all!

Friday November 6

Well I am one happy girl today ! I went under 130 kilos by my scales...they have been permanantly stuck on 130 kilos...and one day of cutting out carbs and lunch and i seem to have gone down on the scales...i am just hoping its not a fluke and goes up tomorrow or next week. But i do have my yummii salad for lunch again...and it did keep me full...and in fact i saved 3.5 points yesterday LOL

Last nite at the gym fiona killed me...jeepers my legs thought they would die...but that said its my thighs and hips that need lots of work so i guess i will suffer and accept them LOL

I work tomorrow then saturday nite out for dinner...sunday its a day at home catching up on house work and washing (way overdue) hope everyone has a fab friday

Thursday November 5

Well i made a yummy salad for lunch today last nite. Boiled egg, low fat cheese, lettuce, cucumber, tomato, beetroot...6 points...and no carbs in sight ! Lets see if it keeps me satisfied i do love eggs and cheese so it should and a big dose of protein...which is what im gonna try and do over the next few weeks...still gonna eat my normal dinner and breakfast...but have just a salad at lunchtime and my snacks be fruit...and we will see what the scales do.

I am gonna go to the gym and do the weights tonite and see how my knee handles it all...if its no good ill just ask fiona to do upper body stuff only. It feels not too bad just has a "strange" feeling kinda a slight burning sensation at times. It seems to be mostly when I get up from sitting...weird...but after tonite...ill rest it till monday and then hopefully it will be full steam ahead with the exercise.

I have organised 5 days off at the end of November! Unfortunately it means the week after i work 7 days...but man...bliss 5 days off in a row sounds glorious then then ill only have 4 weeks or so till i have my 3 weeks holiday, so think ill survive the 7 days of working straight! lol

Saturday I am working but then saturday nite i am going out with a bunch of ww girls...out to the strathmore it looks at this point...and they have pasta on their menu so i am all set !

Anyone watch money for jam last nite? I joined the website www.lottos.com.au for $15 after seeing it...it is full of links for online competitions...and the person they interviewd on the story said she wins at least $50,000 worth a year...they had a guy test it out for a month....and he won a bloody plasma screen tv! They reckon when u first begin u win about 1 out of 100 competitions...so ive been doing it of course with my bloody luck ill prolly win a bottle of deoderant ! haha !

Okies its lunch time and i am off to have my yummy salad ! Enjoy peeps !

Wednesday November 4

I swear i have found the yummiest cereal. It is uncle tobys plus with omega...its the yummies and i am not really a cereal person but that one i love.

Gonna stop at coles tonite and pick up some groceries...gonna get all the salad ingredients to start having egg and cheese salad at lunch time and cut back on the carbs...see if that will kick everything into action. I am resting my knee again today then i am sure it will be fine...its been perfect so far today but ill err on the side of caution.

Tomorrow nite is weights tho and then FINALLY i will try and do 45 minutes of the 2 minutes walking/1 minute running...hopefully i can make it to 45 minutes. I did ask a few ww girls last nite and consensus seems to be if i am earning around 20 exercise points...which i am...i need to be eating approximately half. So I need to work this in on the days i exercise. On those days i think the way ill increase my points is have larger quantities of protein which is good for muscle development etc. Well gawd damn i just crossed my legs and felt my bloomin knee again...not happy! Okies off i go...

Tuesday November 3

Yesterday i got up from the sofa and as I did for some reason I hurt my knee. Did go to the gym last nite and did do a hour of boxing. My knee was very sore by the time i got home...and today when i go for long walks i can feel it...its not sore...just doesnt feel right. So today i have rested it and will tomorrow too. The scale is back at what it was last week...sitting spot on 130 kilos...friggin annoying....i have made some decisions, i think this getting under 130 kilos is stressing me out and seriously paying another $21.95 for them to tell me AGAIN i have stayed the same seems ridiculous. So ive decided to not go...and really focus on exercise not the scales and then reweigh myself on december 1. I will periodically weigh myself at home, I think maybe if i dont stress then i may get under the 130 kilos...then come december 1 i will reevaluate things. I am also starting tomorrow going to drop 1 point...will go down to 24 points and see if that helps. I am also gonna change my lunches to some tuna salad and egg salad at lunch time.

Me and Jaimee have also decided next year we are going to do some fun runs...so its not a case of throwing things away...just taking the emphasis of the scales and more about being a wholly healthy person.

I made the homemade sausage rolls from the weight watchers site today...super duper yummy...1.5 points...3 was plenty! so not bad 4.5 points.

Okies...i am off glad i put this all down in writing...have a good nite all!

Monday November 2

I woke up bright and early at 6am this morning...my scales were up 900 grams...and i was pissed but i am realising they were prolly up as i am getting PMT as i have some stomach cramps...so at least i have a explaination for it. I was really hoping to go to the gym this morning...but 9.15am and still waiting for the mobile phone to be delivered...hope it arrives before i have to head out for lunch. SO far its a relaxing day tho...load of washing on...got some dishes soaking...I am beyond relieved to realise that gain this morning is from PMT this whole getting under 130 kilos really does my head in...i just wanna get under it and move on...so i feel a weight has been lifted.

Hopefully we will go to fasta pasta for lunch today and i can just get a tomato based pasta dish. Tonite for dinner ill just make a omelette after the gym.

Well i went for lunch and of course thats when the phone was delivered ! gawd damn it...they are redelivering it tomorrow. Went to fasta pasta for lunch...had ravioli mona liza...bit of a splurge but thats ok not like i wont be working my ass off at the gym tonite...dinner tonite will be a omlette on grainy bread....yum yum

Okies off i go!

Saturday October 31

My legs hurt today and the more the day is going on the more they are hurting...definitely reminding me how old i am LOL. But im sure in a day or two it will have settled down. This arvo after work will go for a 45 minute walk then gonna make home made hamburger for dinner...yum yum!!!

Just had the funniest thing happen....firstly i am wearign cargo pants today! YAY i bought these like 2 years ago and they finally fit...anyways they have a zipper down the front of them and i am out for a walk with Ryan i look down see the zipper and for a insect i think i have a dragon fly or some sort of insect on me and scream lol ryan is like wtf? im like oh no matter its just my zipper lol

Okies not much else to say...roll on 5pm tomorrow nite when my weekend starts :)

Empowering...

For the past 3 months or so i have felt down on myself...and pissy that im not further along in the journey then i am. What fiona said yesterday has been on my mind a lil...anyway after work tonite...i went to the gym...i only had 40 minutes or so before i had to head off to weigh in. So i got on that treadmill..walked for 2 minutes...ran for 1 minute...walked for 2 miute...ran for 1 minute etc etc...as most know the treadmills have petrified me i have always worried i would roll my ankle or something...and i always hold on to the handle bars...anyway about 20 minutes into it...i thought...im gonna remove my hands next time i run...OMG not leaning over to hold a bar and suddenly i am breathing better and i feel light...im really running...35 minutes later i finally finish...all sweaty...547 caloires burnt...and just amazed...sure i mite be a lil big (ok a lot big lol) but i can run on those treadmills just like everyone else...for the first time ever i felt confident at the gymand that i belonged...i loved it...it was so liberating.

I then headed over to weigh in...and i stayed exactly the same....after 2 weeks of losing 6.6 kilos...i am guessing my body is just settling so i am not concerned. BUT i am going to get under 130 kilos this week...i am FRIGGIN determined....which means i need to lose 1.3 kilos...so i am gonna bust my ass this week...here is the plan exercise wise:

saturday : 45 minute walk
sunday : 45 minute walk
Monday AM : Minimum 40 minutes of walk/run
Monday PM : 1 hour PT - boxing/weights
Tuesday AM : 30 minutes PT - boxing
Tuesday PM : body pump followed by 20 minutes walk/run
Wednesday PM : body balance followed by 20 minutes walk/run
Thursday : PT boxing or core followed by minimum 30 minutes walk/run
Friday : 40 minutes walk/run

Now its a lot of exercise...but the only real difference...is doing quite a bit more running and going twice a day to the gym on my days off...now that said often when u up the exercise the expected big loss doesnt follow thru...but i am so friggin determined...wats done is done...its now time to truly move on and to work towards getting under 120 kilos by xmas.

Moving on...mwuahahahahhaha life is great ;)

Thursday October 29

Day off...about bloody time! I had PT this morning i really didnt want to go...i have been thinking too much...thinking about how 3 years later and i still have over 50 kilos to lose and it pisses me off...granted ive done good to lose and keep off 39 kilos...but to be honest....in my mind its not good enuff. Anyway i went in...did my PT session...at the end fiona asked me if id still been thinking about the fact i think i should be further along then i am....i was like...ummm yeh...she basically told me i need to stop being so hard on myself...and start to think about how far i have come in the last 6 months...she also was saying....that sitting here thinking how far i feel should be along in this journey is like thinking about another parallel universe...that the fact is...i am where i am...because of a whole range of reasons and i just need to accept this. (Yeh she says exactly what she is thinking at times lol) Anyways my butt hurts...we were doing these horrid exercises and my butt is so sore right now...

Came home and there was a letter from royal adelaide hospital for a appointment...so i go to see the specialist on december 8 (just gotta try and organise a day off now)

Everything else is good...decided to organise a nite out for my birthday on January 17...Jaimee was like make it a Jillian Michaels theme lol but yes hopefully i will have a good nite out then...and MAYBE i mite have lost a bit by then and be able to wear a dress.

Funny writing down that stuff i wrote in the first paragraph makes me feel a lil better...

Okies off i go...need to go and get organised so i can do my grocery shopping

Wednesday October 28

How glorious is this Adelaide weather? Last nite after work went down to the park...which is a lot closer to my house then i realised...its a real nice park...lots of lovely shady trees...so tomorrow on my day off after the gym i am gonna go there with my book and a towel and relax out in the sunshine :) Anyway went for my walk/run...completely exhausted my self. Tonite i am not gonna run just gonna go for a 40 minute walk.

Tomorrow i am off YAY only one day off this week...but i have monday and tuesday off. Have gym at 11am for delightful PT *smirks* It may be for a hour...if not mondays session will be for a hour (god help me...and seriously i mean that! God please help me survive it hehe) I asked for a hour as i am working saturday morning but just a case whether fiona can fit it in or not...and as i still dont have a mobile phone (it died when it got water damaged) Fiona has prolly forgotten and sent me a text if she can do 1 hour we will find out tomorrow i guess ! lol

Free bbq at work today...ill be steering clear of the sausages...but will have some and work it into my points today.

Okies...toodles !

Tuesday October 27

Went off to the gym last nite...firstly i did 45 minutes on the treadmill...25 minutes at 4.5k and a incline of 2% i was finding when i increased the incline too much my toes would get pains in them (have i ever mentioned how annoyed i get that i let myself get to 170+ kilos cos im sure half my aches and pains are related to that) i then did 20 minutes at a slower speed as i didnt want to be stuffed by the time i went into PT. Went into PT and must admit i was hitting harder then normal and fiona had me running way more...by the end i wasnt feeling the greatest and she even asked me if i was gonna throw up haha !

Today i have a bit of gut ache which i think may be related to the iron tablets..im drinking a ton of water so hopefully it settles down shortly...hopefully it does and then that way tonite ill go to the park and do half laps...half walking...half running...for 30 minutes.

I made a off hand comment to fiona last nite...i said....i soemtimes think 130 kilos is the natural and proper weight for my body as i never seem to get under it and stay under it...fiona was like..thats your defense mechanish fearing failure...ugh hate when she is right....she sure shut me up lol

Everything else is going good altho my scales are showing a gain but im not sure how accurate they are. But i am not concerned...im eating good...exercising.

Have a good day all

Monday October 26

Its Monday...altho really my wednesday ;) as I have a holw day off this week and thursday is it lol

I really came to a couple of conclusions this week...exercise is my medication ! Yes exercise is needed for weight loss etc but im discoverring if i skip it for a couple of days i start to get moody and negative...so it really comes down to i need to do at least 30 minutes every day. Who honestly ever thought I would get so much out of exercising...and its even taken this long for me to suddenly click about all it does.

I am also going to stop saying...no going out on weekends i work...i need to live more..I work so going out for dinner or the movies once or twice a week should certainly be worked in.

Tonite i am off to the gym...after my PT session of boxing gonna do the whole interval training thing again...ill do it at the same speed and incline but try and do 30 minutes instead of just 25 minutes.

Not a lot else going on...hope everyoen has a good day

Saturday October 24

So i am working this weekend which explains why I am home on a saturday nite. But i am debating...our work xmas show is coming up...i have worked there for 8.5 years and never been...Jaimee wants me to go this year...the only dilema...its themed *rolls eyes* so what is the theme? "Disco Studio 54" so being a plus size girl...seriously people what on earth could i wear? Does anyone have any type of ideas? I was trying to think of maybe a tv character or something...but something that it wouldnt be ridicuously hard to put a costume together for...otherwise...i skip the xmas show altogether...or simply buy a dress (i did see one at myers yesterday) and dress up as "kazz" for something novel. If i go...i am staying in town as getting a taxi that nite would be a nitemare...so i could simply buy a dress...but...i think most will be dressing up altho it seems a hard theme to dress up for ! The dress i saw at myers was a peach/light orange colour with a gathered waist which as i got smaller i could add a belt too..it was really nice and on special for $89.95 so its a thought.

Didnt exercise today,,,,i have only one day off in 9 days...so decided ill rest tonite and tomorrow nite...and then back into the gym during the week...i am very excited tho to do the interval training again Monday...cant wait till i get my ipod and cant start the C25k program...never know by the time i go to streaky i mite be able to say to my sister "heading out for a run back in 30 minutes" hehe ok no thats not gonna happen that would be just absurb !

But yes...i will be going over to streaky relatively soonish. I have 3 weeks off starting december 30 (my birthday) so i dont wanna really land in streaky on my bday but think i will the next day and spend 7 or so days there....then head back and throw myself into a couple of weeks of the gym and relaxation before heading back to work. Then my holidays over the next 18 months are pretty set...next september to streaky for Danielles dance concert and then wooo hooo June 2011 ... of to the US and to new mexico for pride...wo0ot how much fun !

Okies off i go...enjoy all!

Friday October 23

yay blogger is back and finally working!

Well my goodness i have a VERY busy couple of days off. Lets see..went for the blood test yesterday morning...then dashed home for breakfast before heading off to the gym...did 20 minutes of the fat burner program on the treadmill and then 30 minutes of boxing. I left it at that yesterday as I had been for the blood test and i am usually a bit woozy after them. I then headed out for some lunch and then headed to "my budget". I suck at saving...i spend every damn cent i have LOL so i went there...told them i wanna save for a holiday...and tada i now have a budget ! I should have $5500 saved by March 2011...so the holiday to the US will be shortly after that...Im starting to think June as thats when Gay Pride is in New Mexico. I then came home and relaxed. Today i got to sleep in YAY I then went into the gym...i did 25 minutes of the fat burner again and then did weights and then me and fiona had a bit of a chat...i was explaining that i feel 15 months into the gym i think i should be doing more...and that after 3 years i feel i should have better results...anyway so fionas first concern is i stay motivated enuff to continually come in but she wants me to be more "knackered" when i leave...her recommendation was to start walking 2 minutes followed by running for 1 minutes on a incline. So i then got on the treadmill for another 25 minutes...i was at a 4.5k speed and a incline of 2% (which she later said was real good for the first time) and i did it...and yes completely knackered...as i walked out fiona saw me and was like...i like that red face...she then asked me what i did ... and she seemed impressed...we are going to watch it carefully to ensure the running doesnt give me any pain...but funnily enuff...i dont feel any pain at all when running...just bloody puffed ! LOL

I then went to weigh in and lost 1.2 kilos ! YAY so glad. Lia my leader wants me to start being quite thorough with my tracking of exercise points in case i plateau down the track as it could be related to exercise (i earnt 7 bloody points today lol)

Okies time to go relax...work tomorrow....enjoy ur friday nite all

I was talking to a friend a few days ago and she asked how the dating is going...i said...well...its not...i think it would be a distraction...and she said something that kinda stopped me in my tracks and that was something along the lines of "no it would give you more to work towards" and that she thought i would be like a butterfly coming out of a cocoon (not too sure about that last part!) anyway it then got me to thinking about max...on saturday nite...my friend max said to me "i have a friend...a single friend" and thats all she managed to say before i said i dont do blind dates max...she still kept going on and i was again...i dont do blind dates...so i do wonder why i put up such a wall when it comes to this stuff. It surely cant be related to Ang as its like 5 years since we split...shes dead and buried in the land of kazz (not literally but u get my drift haha) it really makes me wonder why i would be so scared of this even tho i know its one of my goals of this weight loss journey...maybe its that i feel thats a "reward" i get at the end of the journey not during it...its a real puzzler...maybe next time someone says "i have a single friend" i may actually listen...and take them up on meeting the person...

Wednesday October 21

YAY my last day doing a 7am start...next two days off then 8am starts (amazing the difference that 1 hour makes)

Last nite me and ryan went out to bloomin Gawler while his car was getting fixed we didnt walk into town as planned as it was a lot furher away...instead we stopped at michels and i bought a scone and a skinny hot chocolate...not the greatest choice but it worked at the time. As we had a hour or so of hanging around at this guys place. Then we headed home..i was very tired last nite. Had a ww meal plus a choc sundae after dinner. Jumped on the scales this morning...i had lost about 300 grams since yesterday...im now adjusted to no loss this week unless i suddenly lose a pile of fluid ! I was thinking at first it was fluid retention and prolly partly is but i think that huge loss has something to do with it too..so im not getting into a tizz about it.

I am trying to decide about todays exercise...there is a oval a few streets from me...kinda hidden so its not very busy...was thinking about maybe walking around it a few times then trying to jog a bit of it too...or going to do a body balance class later tonite. Decisions decisions i kinda cant be bothered going to the gym (lazy ass i am!lol) and i have PT in the morning...so will be there 10.30am tomorrow morning anyway...tomorrow i wanna do 30 minutes on the treadmill..PT....then 30 minutes on the treadmill...i cant do a hour straight on the treadmill...but if i break it up like this i am fine.

Okies 3pm NEEDS to hurry up and come ! 10.30am and only 15 minutes no wonder im so bloody hungry in the afternoon ! hate these shifts! lol okies off i go...i have to go attend to facebook...ooops i mean gotta go do some work ! HAHA!

Tuesday October 20

Well i am one sleepy princess this morning ! Started work at 7am and also have a 7am start tomorrow. UGH thursday and friday i am off tho so really looking forward to sleeping in (altho wont be that late as i need to go get the blood test and i have PT)

Last nite at the gym...i did 20 minutes of the fat burner on the treadmill...then did 30 minutes of weights followed by 30 minutes on the treadmill...only issue with this was the last 30 minutes i was watching two and a half men...and i would be laughing at the show and get a bit fiduddled on the treadmill lol But worked out for 1 hour and 23 minutes and burnt 747 calories which is about 5-6 points...so i was rather impressed. In the PT session fiona got me to do this ABSURB exercise...lemme see if i can explain it...you balance against a fitball with just the top of your shoulders and head on it...feet on the ground and legs bent at the knee at a right angle you then lift one leg up and cross it over the other leg...you then lower your hips and then raise them to the bridge position...and repeat aahhahah OMGOODNESS crazy..i was like i cant do that...and she was like...okay before u start hypervntilating just try lol and then she got very excited cos i managed to do it and declared it would be in the next program. Then she was like..anything u wanna do in ur next program...anything ur curious about etc? I was like ummmm no lol she was like you are too scared to open your mouth in case u make it worse for yourself lol - no chit !

Anyway the scales were up this morning grrrr but its prolly fluid retention...whilst i didnt go over points on the weekend i did have a few wines and that chicken burger woulda been high in sodium...hopefully it all settles down before next weigh in....(that said i did have a huge loss and a gain may be just to balance everything out) okies off i go to do some more of this thing called work - enjoy all !

Fitness Classes

My mind is whirring today ;) i was jsut reading on the ww forum about someone who does 4 pump classes a week...damn i am envious! I really really wish i felt comfortable enuff to do classes...i know u should have the attitude that I am doing best for me so who cares what others think about it...but u know i do care! Im not miss confident in the gym and maybe i never will be but i really really wish i could feel comfortable and not out of place at them...i would go to the gym more often. I know i simply should not care what others think...but when ur my size and also when u have been 171 kilos and dont think u really have that ability...its hard to get my head around it. I know people think i exercise a lot (and i guess in essence i do) but i still doubt my ability to do stuff...whenever fiona gives me new stuff im always like what? are you serious? On saturday fiona had me do a squat against a wall...while doing boxing jabs and uppercuts...sounds easy enuff eh? oh did i mention one leg has to be off the ground while doing it? She showed me and i just looked at her like she was a mad woman (which i think she is ! lol) but i was like...i cant do that...and it took me a bit to get use to it but i did manage...but it just makes me realise how much self doubt i have especially when in the gym. I really just wish i could say f*** it and just get on with it...

Monday October 19

Well first lesson of the day is if you have to leave for work at 6.10am DO NOT set your alarm for 6.45am lol...thankfully i woke up at 6am by myself and then ran around madly. Early start today which means a early finish YAY...3pm and i am out of here. When i woke this morning i was dying of thirst so i think saturday nites wines and chicken burger have caught up with me so shoving the water down today ! lol

Tonight i have gym (surprise, surprise) - I have PT so weights tonite and then i will do the fat burner on the treadmill again for 30 minutes. The gym just sent out a email saying they have some new "express classes" including a orbit class (fitball exercises) as usual i am pondering doing classes LOL

Not much else going on today...beautiful weather today so will sneak in a couple of 10 minute walks during my breaks too. Okies off i go...enjoy all :)

Sunday October 18

Well my goodness this has been a fun weekend ! And my brain is telling me this is how weekends should be. okies...back we go....friday nite i weighed in and lost 5.4 kilos! Was it a huge surprise? no LOL my scales were showing around the 5 kilo mark so i was quietly confident of losing at losing 4 kilos. So ta-da ! My scales werent wrong...and i left a happy girl lol (phew no tantrums in the myer centre this week)

Saturday morning i was up at 7am *yawns* and at the gym by 9am. Did a PT session of boxing followed by 30 minutes of the fat burner program on the treadmill..which shows u how much more confident i am slowly getting with the treadmill cos the fat burner program changes the speed/gradients every minute but i survived it quite nicely ! Then I left the gym...spilt water all thru my gym bag ARGH! my new book damaged (thankfully wasnt my Jillian book hehe) and my phone dripping with water and doesnt appear to be working :( Then saturday nite i was in town by 6.30pm meeting the girls for Daynes bday...we went to the sportsmans bar...i had saved 11 points and i had 5 exercise points...i had a chicken burger (no fries) for dinner followed by 2 wines later in the evening. Then we headed over to the crazy horse...which is a strip bar...was a bloody interesting nite hahah but honestly...after a couple of hours of boobage it all starts looking the same ;) My friend Robyn was hilarious tho...like a kid at disneyland...i think she entertained me more then the naked girls did ! lol But i had a relatively early nite (this lack of iron makes me sooooo tired) so was home by 11.30pm. Today I went out for lunch with Tania, Dee and Sonya...went to cafe bocca and again i think i did very well...me and tania shared a bruschette, had a raviolli in a tomato based sauce with spinach and sun dried tomatos followed by a hot chocolate. Possibly going out for dinner with mum and her hubby tonite...waiting for a reply to a email...lets see if i get one lol

Anyway its been a great weekend i have loved it and i am one very happy girl...this is what living is all about...off I go...enjoy all !

Friday october 16

I am feeling very lucky and priviledged today. Lets see...yesterday i logged into my "wishlist points" these are points we earn at work for different awards etc...anyway i had enuff points for a 4GB Ipod...so i ordered a silver one...only problem is it wont be here till december 3 :( But so happy cos it cost me ZILCH...then i went into town after work wanting to buy some summer sandals that work would allow me to wear...seeing as last year i only just squeezed into a size 10 i had no luck buying any....so i walked into the shoe store went to the size 10's saw a nice pair of tan sandals...tried them on ... too large ! woot! So found the size 9.5 ones and they fitted (maybe a lil too big on my right foot but they will do) so was very impressed with that...then went to dymocks to buy the first book in the millenium trilogy series...so i bought it but the good news was i had $16 credit on my dymocks booklovers card so only cost me $8.95!!! I then went to the gym...25 minutes on the treadmill watching that hot seat show and the simpsons hahahha i love having tv on the treadmills (shame the chick next to me had her volume up so loud) Then i did PT...which was weights...let fiona know whats going on about the iron thing...so all went good there. Then headed off to the shops...did the grocery shopping...very minimal treats bought (think the only treats were 2 ww choc sundaes, soma snakatas and some ww fruit biscuits) and then headed home...and my JILLIAN MICHAELS book had arrived ! SO EXCITING! Then i got a message from Airlie (who reads my journal) and she is dropping into work today to drop off some clothes for me! YAY! Some more new clothes...tomorrow im off to buy some new very girlie bras yay yay

And tonite of course is weigh in nite...busting to get my result...im expecting a loss of around 3 kilos...so fingers crossed people i really dont wanna throw a tanty fit in the myer centre LOL

Tuesday me and ryan are taking a road trip ! LOL He has to go get his car repaired out at gawler and leave it there for a hour or so while the work is done...so we are gonna go out to Gawler East...walk the kilometre or so into town for a coffee or drink and then walk the kilometre back lol ive never wandered around Gawler so should be interesting and get a couple of kilometres walk in as well ! Okies off i go...toodles

What I forgot!

I forgot! Those size 20 jeans i got yesterday i tried them on and they FIT! Admittedly they are stretch jeans...but they fit..and fit perfectly admittedly. I was gonna go buy some new jeans this week but no need to now. And i am wearing a new top too..size 22 and i could easily have got into a size 20..tomorrow i plan on wearing my size 18 top wo0ot! VERY exciting !

Wednesday October 14

Well some decisions have been partly made (not that i wanted these decisions to be made but such is life) anyway went to my doc...and basically next thursday i need to go for another blood test to check my iron levels, then presuming the iron levels have not improved (he seems to think they will be worse) then they will put me on a public hospital waiting list for some surgery, i will be having a D & C and then presuming that goes well (and all in the same operation) they will do a endometrial ablasion. Apparantly this scars the tissue and stops you having a period...i would eventually have a period again but it gives the body a chance to build up my iron stores properly and not build them up for a few weeks and then lose those iron stores when i have TOM. At the moment he said i am just chasing my tail. Today i do feel better...did have a bit of a dizzy spell in the shower but i feel like i have a lot more energy thankfully (musta been all that spinach last nite LOL)

Foodwise i have been perfect still (go me) altho i havent done any exercise since saturday obviously, tonite when i get home i mite try and do even 15 or 20 minutes of my EA active wanna be a bit careful so i am fine for PT tomorrow nite. Anyway not much else going on...enjoy all

Tuesday October 13

I am still home..i went to bed at 9pm last nite woke up quite often (as i tend to do when i have TOM) but woke still exhausted and with a headache but i bloody AM going to work tomorrow...BUT i got my things i bought of oztion....so happy with them! They are all size 18-22 and one or two are a lil firm around the hips but the rest fit great...and one size 18 FITS me ! Admittedly its a autograph brand but hell...its a size 18 no number two in that size wooo hooo! I am very very impressed. So i now have 6 new tops hanging in my wardrobe and a new pair of jeans (size 20) the jeans will be a while before they fit me im sure (i didnt even bother to try them on lol) So now i am just waiting for my Jillian Michaels book to arrive...so very very happy about all that.

Food is still going perfectly...and cannot wait for Friday nites weigh in.

Not much else going on...off i go for another nap!

Monday October 12

Last night i made the spaghetti bolognaise out of the ww fast start book u get in week one - omg people! its the yummiest..either that or im a damn kick ass cook (and i am NOT lol)

TOM is making itself known....i can tell my iron levels have dropped this morning i had no energy and was having some dizzy spells...i spent the day in bed till about 1.30pm and feel so much better for it.

I am headed for a HUGE loss this week ! OMG keep your eyes on this journal come friday nite (hopefully i havent now jinxed myself lol) So not much else to report since ive done not much but lie in bed today lol altho i did text fiona this morning and say "i wont be in tonite" and the response was "whats wrong? are you okay?" lol think she thought id had another moment hehe oh and the quote i now have up the top of the page under "kazzs journey" thats a quote of something she recently sent to my mobile phone when i was having one of my moments lol...enjoy all =]

Sunday October 11

Well yay TOM arrived (said incredibly sarcasticly lol) Yesterday I was spot on with 21.5 points YAY...2 days down the track (i stuck to my points friday even tho i didnt weigh in till friday nite) and so far my scales have dropped about 1.8 kilos...so my goal of 3 kilos is quite doable (what i normally lose when i get back on track after eating fatty foods) So yesterday going by my normal points i saved 3.5 points plus i earned 5 exercise points...not a bad damn effort. I have cramps at the moment but hopefully my stomach will settle down by this afternoon and i can get out there for a walk or do my EA active.

I stayed home last nite and i am really glad i did. If i had gone out for dinner i know i woulda had bruschetta and carbonara..and would have blown my points...and i feel so accomplished that i not only stayed under the fast track points...i was under by .5 (which meant altogether i saved 3.5 points from my normal points)

Next weekend should be a good one tho...its my friend Daynes birthday and she is planning for us all to go out to dinner then the crazy horse (strip joint) i have never been to a strip show so should be bloody educational ! LOL Then sunday i *think* some of us ww girls are meeting for lunch...so should be good.

Not much else going on...today i am relaxing...watching mad about you then some friends,,,enjoy all !

Psyched!

^^^^ That is the one word to describe me today! Last nite i went to my appointment at the ww lifestyle centre...saw a lovely girl named Leah...she was so good. We talked quite a bit...altho she discovered i have been at this awhile and kept off most off my weight she didnt talk to me as if i knew everything yet she didnt go thru unnecessary basics. So after chatting i decided i will do fast start for this week...after that 2.5 kilos gain...i think a good solid loss would get my confidence back. I then told her how I am a very fussy eater...SO she suggested a plan. She told me to do some planning (thats not exactly new ive just never done it before) and anyway...set my meals so 5 points for breakfast, 6 points for lunch, 7 points for dinner, a 2 point snack in the morning a 2 point snack in the evening and after dinner a 0 point snack (so prolly diet cordial or a jelly) The reason she said this is cos i do eat carbs like they are going out of fashion and 0 point snacks are carbs free. She then said...to plan 2 different breakfasts for 5 points, 3 different lunches for 6 points and 4 different dinners for 7 points. I have sat down and done this morning. She believes keeping it simple is the key, she said i dont have to keep to just those 4 dinners or whatever but if i introduce a new one remove one dinner...as she explained not only will this save me money...i know my meals "i picked" are all 7 points...theres no drama with my point counting. And this way i know i will be spot on my points everyday. Of course i still will track (and she wants me bringing in my tracker next week lol) SO i have all the meals organised and now i will buy ONLY what i need YAY this feels good...i did kinda get stuck on the 2 point snacks tho...but i posted a thread on the forums so hopefully i get some decent ideas there. I have sat there and read all the books...and i will focus on exercising 5 times this week and drinking all my water. I am so determined to have a good loss next week. Of course the unfortunate thing is Leah was only filling in last nite :( she only works 9-5 so next week i am seeing someone called catherine but the week after i have friday off and made a appointment with Leah for that day at 1.40pm YAY

This morning i am shortly going to go and have my breakfast of scrambled egg on toast and then head off to the gym for a PT session of boxing.

Hope everyone has as fab a saturday as I am planning - enjoy all !

On the way to the gym last nite i stopped at mcdonalds - oops ! When i went to the gym feeling heavy as...i told fiona i had maccas...and then she said...ok i am gonna make you exercise till u throw up lol...anyway we were then talking about the chemicals etc in those type of foods and how they make u addicted cos i was telling her i was having some issues stopping eating all this crap food. After leaving the gym i came to some conclusions...one i am gonna keep my appointment with ww tonite and rejoin BUT i am also going to keep seeing the dietician...a couple of reasons...by keeping the dieticians appointments its another day i HAVE to attend the gym, it will also keep their plan in my mind about eating mostly unprocessed foods, also they do measurements once a month. WW on the other hand i like the point system like i can work it into life...so my main focus will be ww but ill take the advantage of the dietican too. And after talking to fiona i think i just need to break this bad eating...so have decided this weekend no going out...gonna tell my friends i am sick hehe and jsut "detoxise" from all the crap food. I know i can working eating out etc into the ww plan but i need to get rid of the cravings first. And to be honest i am looking forward to a weekend at home...tomorrow morning i have the gym but apart from that lots of relaxing, reading, foxtel watching and DECLUTTERING.

Before the gym last nite and after maccas lol i went into borders (bookstore) and saw this book which was part of the "millenium trilogy" and written by this swedish guy who died before they were published anyway they have sold like 13 million copies of this book...so came home checked out the first book in the series...looks rather good...so mite have to go purchase it.

Anyway off i go,...enjoy

Thursday October 8

Well last night i wrote out a long post then someone clicked delete and lost the whole post LOL

Lets see...whats been going on...hmmm...well my eating has been crap :( really really bad indeeed! Today is the first time where i havent filled my gob with crappy food. This whole eating plan thing has confused the crap out of me part of me thinks go back to ww and the other part thinks stop being a quitter and stick to the gyms plan. I think tho what I am going to do is actually keep tuesdays appointment with my dietician...and tell her i dont wanna weigh again before November 1. I am gonna really up the exercise and jsut eat as i have been. I think this week ive prolly gained like 3 kilos or so. And then come November 1 see what the scales say (with the aim being to be under 131 kilos). Whilst the scales are important i dont think i wanna weigh every week on them...i wanna weigh once a month even if only for a few months on the same day i get measured. And stop letting the scales do my head in.

Went to the gym at the NEW premises last nite...all i can say is WOW i am in love with the new treadmills. They have colour screens which show u all the stats and u can watch tv on the lil screens...they also have lil fans on them which will be great for summer and they move so smoothly it seemed rather easy on them last nite. But the place is so nice and spacious I really love it. So last nite i did weights and i have very tired upper arms today :( tonite im planning to do 45 minutes on the treadmill followed by a boxing session. So getting back into it properly.

Saturday nite I am off out to dinner at the hackney hotel with friends i went to school with...already sussed out the menu...gonna have bruschetta and a beef salad yum yum and ONLY diet coke...lol i was a lil bad last weekend with the champagne lol

Felicity deleted me from Facebook suspect leigh musta said something to her that i keep her hidden...no loss...for the best i think...that said...i think for the best is no contact with either...i think they are both to drama filled.

Nothing else going on that I can think off except YAY its friday tomorrow !

OK i been a bit quiet lately eh?

Firstly to anyone who reads the 30 + boards i have been asked several times if i was ok after the threads by "lee" and i am perfectly fine :)

This past week i have stuffed around, eaten badly, not exercised. Enuff wasting o f time. I have made a appointment for friday nite at the myer centre...my plan is to do a mix up of myer centre sessions and meeting sessions as they work in with my days. I want to still primarily follow the slimplicity plan but work it in with the points to make sure i am not eating too much

Tonite i am off to the NEW gym...a new place for me to lose myself in ;) lol anyway got PT so will be doing a weights session, what i have decided is to only do a maximum of one weights session with fiona per week the rest of the PT sessions need to be cardio. Time to get serious again and the focus to be back on ME.

I bought Jillians latest book! I got it online...hopefully get it sometime this week its called "master your metabolism" exciting stuff...i also bought 7 items of clothing off oztion - 6 items from one person and the total cost for 6 items with postage was only $33! YAY bonus....they were brands like rockmans, beme, autograph, millers so looking forward to getting them too.

Okies time to do some work enjoy all !

Sunday October 4

Mwuahahahhaha !

Okies lets back track ! 2 weeks ago...i was going from a morning to a evening weigh in...i checked the scales in the morning and had gained around 600 grams on my scales which i put down to fluid retention from being sick i also knew as i was going to weigh in the evening i would prolly gain another kilo...so i weigh in at the gym...says ive lost 1.1 kilos and 8% body fat....now who am i to argue with a loss? I was very dubious off it tho. I then decided to throw my scales out...i weighed in last week after a week of perfect eating, drinking 3 litres of water most days and also did my exercise and in all honest expecting a minimum loss of 1 kilos but expecting i could go as high as 3 kilos...and i gained 2.5 kilos. This made NO sense to me...i knew it wasnt TOM, i knew it wasnt fluid retention, i knew it wasnt from muscle...there was no logical reason for that. Also the body fat jumped up 6% and my dietician said "last weeks weigh in must have been a anomoly" At this point my scales were still in my bin...i was still very confused...and so i commenced to eat...and eat....and eat....then this morning i was watching the US biggest loser episode i just downloaded and one of the guys said "the one thing i have learnt here is to finish" so at 2.20pm in the afternoon i dragged myself out of bed and thought right thats what i need to do...to FINISH! So i went down stairs grabbed the scales out of the bin...wiped them down...and what was the weight? 130.6 kilos! (My kilos are usually only about 300 grams from the gyms scales) so after eating sodium like the world was running out of it...im down on my scales by 1.4 kilos from 10 days ago...hmmmmm...u all thinking what im thinking? Well what i am thinking is i dont trust the gyms scales one iota. SO. I am gonna go to my dietican appointment on tuesday and get weighed and then i am gonna say i dont wanna be weighed again for another 3 weeks. In the meantime i plan to weigh in daily at home as i have done for the last 3 years. I plan to follow the diet plan i was on (cos i worked out once i take into account of my activity i should be on around 1700 calories) and i am just gonna see how i go. Im not gonna change my game play at all. The other thing i am gonna do for the next 3 weeks is i am gonna do 2 classes per week. Doesnt matter which two...but two a week for just a lousy 3 weeks. So what I will try and attend this week is one body pump class and one body balance class...that shouldnt strain me too much.

Ofest on friday afternoon (the work function) was great...they had jessica mauboy perform, tiffani wood from bardot and her band, plus they had a couple of other lil acts. I did discover the best mash and snags at it tho...ate 3 serves ! LOL the last serve i made my friend david go get it for me so they didnt think i was a pig hahhahahah :) Then i left there and went into town and met Jaimee for a few drinks which was nice..just sat back and chatted a bit. Saturday got my eyebrows waxed, did the grocery shopping and bought the cute lil red top in the pics in my previous post - which brings me to something else! How i dress! When i met Jaimee on friday nite she was like...your body shape has changed so much your top half is like a "normal" size...i then came home and looked at the pics on this post which were taken friday afternoon and thought oh she is just being nice thats not the case...then i saw this red top i bought at target...its not the type id normally wear...for one thing its red...another is its tight fitting and then sits at my hips...its not loose or baggy...but its the only top i could see that i even half liked...so i picked up a size 20 and went and tried it on - PERFECT fit ! And i looked at my self and was like wow...Jaimee is right...i do look rather small in it...i can see my waist and my shoulders look so normal it aint funny...so i have also come to the conclusion that maybe not skin tight but more fitted tops up top suit me better then baggy tshirts. I even emailed fiona a link to my progress pics so she can see...since she does half of the work ! LOL

Anyway then saturday night went out to dinner with Jaimee and Leigh....and all i gotta say is i am convinced Leigh is drama...she turns up...first thing she says to me is come to the wheaty next friday nite...im like why? Shes like im getting a group together...im like who? She rattles of some names...and i say is felicity going? Shes like yeh...OMG seriously you want me to go out on a nite and socialise with her? You have GOT to be friggin kidding me...so this morning i texted her and said...sorry wont be going ;) Anyway dinner was nice...i had a scotch fillet...was divine so got me a good dose of iron into me.

So the plan for the rest of the day is a pasta dish from the lil italian cafe down the road from me then a hour long walk after dinner...off to do some chores around the house.

Progress Pics

Before:



October 3 2009




Super quick update with progress pics...will do a proper update tomorrow - I promise !

Thursday October 1

Well 24 hours and things change LOL after yesterdays post i did suspend my membership...then told fiona to cancel last nites session...anyway following a few texts back and forwards between me and fiona and my membership is unsuspended and i was at the gym last nite ;) Im still not happy...and i am still concerned about what the bloody scales will show next week. I am gonna change my plan a lil...on the weekend i am gonna make some bircher muesli and see how i like that cos im bored to death with weetbix...and prolly have had fruit toast too often lately. I am also gonna cut my pasta down from 90 grams to 60 grams with my evening meal...everything else i am gonna keep as is...cos i fail to believe i am eating enuff to put on. This morning...i walked into the kitchen at work...and i am wearing this tshirt that says "yes it is all about me" and Dan says..."it might be all about you but theres becoming less and less of you for it to be about" lol I know the centimetres are coming off and with my being pissy about my weight gain this week i did omit that i lost 9 centimetres from my body during september including 2 centimetres of my thighs, i will see how things go...it is tempting to say...lets go back to weighing once a month.

Tomorrow is going to be a awesome day...we work 9am till 12.15pm then we jump in the car and head out to the showgrounds...where there will be free drinks, food, and we just get the afternoon to spend with our work mates (while being paid!) may be a bit of a dangerous day food wise but oh well...if i do have some bad food at least if i have a gain next week i can explain it LOL THEN its the long weekend! YAY Dinner saturday nite with Jaimee and Leigh and sunday i am off to lunch with tania...so should be good.

I also bidded on some clothes on oztion.com.au all from one girl so only one postage cost ... 3 tops won so far...oen lost...3 left to go lol so i mite have some new clothes in a few weeks...am gonna go looking for some new jeans tonite too YAY

Okay off i go all...enjoy!