Sunday, March 12, 2017

March 12 2017

So last night I walked home from work and had a rice bowl for dinner (so yummy) and ate 1465 calories and the fluctuating continues lol....this morning I was back up to 120.1 kilos.

So i still woke early today and decided to walk into work (a hour walk)...I got into work...sat down for a bit...then went to walk to the kitchen and noticed the toe next to my lil toe on both feet was hurting. So i took off my shoes to investigate and i have a blister on both those toes on the underside of my toes ugh...so frustrating. I am guessing its just my feet adapting to the walking. I wear bonds socks but dont think they are the issue.

Thankfully someone from work has offered to drop me off at home tonight so i dont need to walk to the bus stop or anything. I am hoping they dont burst before i get home.

So the rest of today and tomorrow will be a rest day. I am still hopeful that the additional cardio will help to get the scales moving....I am giving it this week to see if that helps...if not....i will need to alter somethings (much to my trainers disgust, she think I am not giving my body enough time and changing things too often....ive been in this plateau since basically january 18....and in that time...ive added the cardio, cut out soy, cut calories and tried calorie cycling) yes its some changes but come on....this is now nearly 8 weeks. And i dont think when you have 40-50 kilos to lose thats really acce

One of the trainers at the gym has used a company called equalution, they follow a IIFYM thought process and he has become really shredded...my trainer tried it as well for 6 weeks...i believe she was losing each week but she thought it was too high in sugar (which i have heard other people say too) but yanno im not anti sugar lol i just want the results....and i suspect my calorie range combined with the balance of carbs vs fat vs protein may be the issue....it would be good to have guidance in this area.

If that doesnt happen and the losses dont start soon my other thought process is to do 7 days at 2000 calories and then do a slow cut back on calories....doing a refeed like that can sometimes help to get your metabolism, The strange thing is i am eating the same calories now as i was when i was around 80-85 kilos. The big difference is i am not exercising anywhere near as much....and i do think the exercise for me is a big factor but my trainer is not keen on me increasing my exercise (i have done more this weekend then she wanted me to do...but seriously something needs to change)

So there it is with all my frustrations lol. Something has to change cos it makes no sense when my calories are so low that the weight isnt dropping of me.

Anyway....a few more hours of work and then im going home to put my feet up (quite literally) and tomorrow will be a rest day (its a public holiday) most at this stage i am planning to do is washing (the joys of it all! lol)

Have a good day/night all :)

Saturday, March 11, 2017

Weigh in day :)

Weighed in and was exactly the same as last week - so 119.5 kilos.

Last night after work i went to amart sports and bought some new gym shoes..and then had a early night (and slept super good!) I then was starting work today at 8.30am so I set my alarm for 6.30am and left the house at 6.50am and walked to work. It took exactly one hour and was a 4.87km walk and burnt 752 calories. I was hoping to walk home tonight too...but we are due rain and possible thunderstorms so will see how it is when I leave.

I really think the cardio is what is missing. When i think about it when i lost the weight before i walked a LOT. On the treadmill between classes/PT sessions....i use to walk 60-90 minutes every sunday...would walk around to mums. Since work moved to the city as well I walk less to bus stops etc so I think upping the cardio is what is needed (even if my trainer doesnt really agree lol) So I am going to try to walk to work most days (weather permitting)

Not much else is really going on...I did book flights to Sydney for July....currently debating whether to stay in the CBD or Bondi...really tempted to stay at Bondi.

Working today and tomorrow and then a couple of days off work :)

Friday, March 10, 2017

Update and where things are at

Ive decided to really return to my blog...mostly for the reason I find it helpful to write things out...it helps me get things straight in my head :)

I got back on track properly on boxing day. Over the previous few months I had lost about 5 kilos and since boxing day i have lost about another 8-9 kilos which sounds awesome right? Most of that was lost in the first few weeks following christmas (water weight) since late january I have lost a whole 1.5 kilos (approximately). Have i been on track? Yep totally lol...ive made numerous changes to try and get the weight loss happening again....eating clean....omitting soy...only eating 1 grain meal per day....Ive tried some low calorie days and some high calorie days...regardless....one day im in the low 119's the next day im around 120 kilos....then the following day back in the low 119's again. To say this is getting frustrating is the understatement of the year.

Ive been doing the Goodlife 12 week challenge...today is the last day of week 3. I go on the facebook group and see so many people saying...ive lost 6 kilos, ive lost 8 kilos....and there i am not having even managed 2 kilos :(

There is definitely a part of me that wonders if i am too old for this. I am 49....maybe i need to settle into this weight. I gave up the diet coke in december (havent had it for 3 months tomorrow)...I drink a minimum of 3 litres of water EVERY day...i sleep well...i eat 1700 calories currently (might be time to cut it back) and i exercise 5 days a week. Starting this week I added in a extra session on mondays of running....and my 5th session which was weights and cardio....we are now changing to just some steady state cardio (walking). So four sessions per week are a mix of weights and cardio (a lot of intervals/circuit training and i would classify them for me very intensive workouts)

Currently my sessions look like this:

monday : PT session in the AM
                Running session with Fiona in the PM
tuesday: PT session in the AM
wednesday: 60 minute bootcamp
thursday: rest day
friday: Weight/cardio session
Saturday: walk 5km
Sunday: rest day

So currently here is my options:

Lower my calories
Get some guidance on my macros/calories
Increase exercise (especially cardio - maybe some cycle classes)
See a naturopath (maybe the issue is related back to my PCOS)

So thats where things are at....that said I am not giving up....altho there is a part of me that thinks i need to accept this...but not quite ready to accept that just yet.

Also, that said...I am losing centimetres....and I know people think...well if you are losing centimetres it is working....and to a point I agree....BUT when you have 40-50 kilos to lose...and in deficit...you should be losing on the scales regardless (thats my opinion...maybe wrong but still my opinion)

Weigh in day tomorrow...I was up last week...and as of this morning i was up another 400 grams...will see where things stand tomorrow morning :)

Friday, February 24, 2017

First update for 2017!

So...last year around September I hit my highest weight for a lot of years. After being 173.1 kilos in August 2006 and then getting down to 79 kilos in 2012 I was back up to 133.6 kilos. So what happened? Oh I could give lots of reasons (ie excuses) but the plain truth is I didnt keep my eye on the prize...didnt stay goal orientated...got lazy....and spent too many nights on the couch eating pizza. Recently I was asked what is it that got me to turn things around. It was a very gradual thing...no huge lightbulb moment. Last september I started to eat better (I was already still doing 2 PT sessions a week at the gym) and then in the second week of October I decided to join my gyms 8 week challenge. Whilst I did it I didnt committ fully. There was weekly bootcamp sessions which I only attended one of. I never followed the eating plan completely (and my trainer wanted me to do that) I did tho lose some weight. When I started that challenge I was 129.9 kilos and by week 6 of it I was down to 122.6 kilos. I then lost my focus. I had set a goal to lose 10 kilos and while i was going to be within a few kilos of that goal I knew I wasnt going to hit it. It was also late nov/early december so I was starting to get in xmas mode. Needless to say I didnt finish the challenge and I gained most of the weight back. Then in December a HUGE part of the transition happened. For the last few years my carb cravings had been out of control. So as last ditch effort on December 17 I decided to give up diet coke. Now let me explain...I drank a LOT of diet coke (3 litres a day) so I decided to go cold turkey just cut it out...I knew I might feel crap for a month or so but decided this needed to be attempted. So I drank my last one on December 17 and then about 4 days later I had a real low moment lol. I felt crappy....I wanted the diet coke....I didnt want to do this weight loss anymore and wanted to stop PT/the gym. So I messaged my trainer and said "I wont be in for the rest of the year Ill message you when I am ready to come back" (with no intention of going back lol) Well my trainer replied and was like...come in tonight and lets talk. So I went in and she asked me what was going on. I explained about the diet coke....she kinda laughed and said no wonder you feel crappy. She agreed it was prolly what was causing the cravings and thought it was super important I do this. She made me promise to stick to it...to not replace it with another bad habit (ie juice, cordial etc) and if i felt i was about to have a diet coke no matter what time of day I was to message her lol.At that point we also discussed what I wanted out of 2017 and that I was tired of coming to the gym on my own and not knowing what to do. So by the end of the conversation candice had decided she would send me a weekly workout every week (i have gathered quite a collection of them now) and we also decided I would do weigh ins with her for accountability. The first week of giving up the diet coke I wasnt perfect. It was the week before xmas and my real focus was just not to drink diet coke. Xmas day I didnt eat as much as I expected and then when I woke on Boxing day I had no interest in food. I was like wtf!! I thought maybe I had a stomach bug...but (10 weeks tomorrow since i gave up the diet coke) ive not had one of those carb cravings. When the new year rolled around I knew this was it and 2017 was going to be the year I got back to the me of 2010-2012. I started attending the gym 5 days a week. And started losing weight fairly consistently (often not big losses but I was pretty consistent on the scales) I started the gyms 12 week challenge this past saturday and I plan to do weekly updates here. My starting weight of the challenge was 121.2 kilos (by my scales). I have set 4 goals..... 1. to attend 1 bootcamp session per week for 12 weeks 2. to lose 12 kilos 3. To do 6 assisted pull ups (on the pullup machine i come nowhere near doing even one currently) 4. To do 6 commandos on my toes The week the challenge started I also had a body scan done by sa body analysis. I will be getting another one done at the 6 week mark and again at the 12 week mark. If I attend all 12 bootcamps and lose 12 kilos a week my trainer has told me at the end of the challenge she is going to pay for me to see her nutritionist so I can build a eating plan to go on with after the challenge I have many goals this year.....this 12 week challenge is just the first bunch of them! Till next time :)

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

27 December 2016

So I am back....I was posting in another blog address as I didnt have access to this blog (as I had closed the email attached to it down) but I have since reactivated it so I could et this blog up and running .... it didnt feel right writing in a different blog.

So how am I going? Pretty good. Over the last few months.....here is the upate. I did the goodlife 8 week challenge. In the first 6 weeks I did awesome and lost 7.1 kilos and then lost the plot. I think this was a combo of realising I wouldnt hit my goal of 10 kilos (ive always had a very bad habit of instead of risking failure...just dropping out of whatever it was) or if it was too low calories (I was doing 1600 calories), and at the same time as all this I also discovered I had anaemia and also hurt my back!

Since then initially I struggled to get back on track. Then about 10 days ago I decided if I wanted to get on track for good....i needed to control my cravings and cut out the diet coke. Today is day 10....Ive been drinking 4 litres of water most days and didnt have much of a headache or anything and have coped with it quite easily. Im at the point now where my cravings really have subsided....and I have noticed I am desiring foods like fruit, yoghurt, nuts, seeds etc....the thought of rich foods or processed foods just is not tempting to me at all.

So just over a week ago I had a chat with my trainer...I told her I needed more accountability and told her about the diet coke. So we decided that I would do weigh ins with her...so I did my initial one just over a week ago and will be weighing in again on friday. As well as my PT sessions she is also going to be sending me weekly workouts (just got this weeks one today)

In the new year I am looking at using a company called "equalution" my trainer is looking into it and if she is happy with it then a few of her clients (including me) will start with them. Basically they are online nutrition but they work with your trainer. They are expensive...but I have always been of the belief without health you have nothing. It is basically "flexible dieting" with a real focus on balance.

Not much else to say but I will be back by the new year for a post about my 2017 goals :)

Saturday, November 12, 2016

Believe it or not...I am back :)

Wow .... well where to begin? This journal has been neglected for sooooooooo long!

So how am I going? Ridiculously well! :)

The highest weight I got up to this year....was 133.6 kilos. That was about 3-4 months ago. I then played around for a while...a few days of track a few days off track....the only really consistency was i was attending my 2 PT sessions a week without fail.

Then on October 15 I started a 8 week challenge with my gym. It involved initially being weighed, measured, body fat tested by my skin folds with calipers and progress photo taken (in just legging and a crop top!lol) The challenge goes for 8 weeks....and I weighed in on their scales at 129.5 kilos, and on my scales at home I weighed in at 129.9 kilos.

This morning when I weighed in at home I was 124.8 kilos so today is the 4 week mark and I have lost 5.1 kilos. My goal by December 10 is to lose at least 8 kilos but preferably 10 kilos. This week I did actually gain 200 grams and surprisingly I am okay with that! The first 3 weeks I lost each week (varying between 700 grams and 3.7 kilos), whilst the scales went slightly up this week my waist measurement has dropped close to 1 centimetre this week and my tops are becoming looser :)

Foodwise I am sticking to 1600 calories and I have only gone over this i think 3 times (and I havent for the last 10 days or so) each time i went over it it was a extra about 500-600 calories i ate but it obviously did me no harm. I am also aiming to eat more protein and have 1 grain free meal most days (generally saturdays I dont fuss over this too much. I am eating very clean with very minimal processed foods.

Currently the only exercise I am doing is 2 sessions a week. These are my PT sessions and I kid you not they are very intensive....but this slight gain this week may be the indication I need to start to increase the exercise. This week I will leave my food and exercise as it is....if I maintain or gain again this week then I will add 1 extra day of exercise in, but things are going so well at the moment I dont want to mess with things and change a whole pile or do insane amounts of exercise...knowing me I am sure they will come LOL

What else has been happening? My work office is moving to the City come early february! YAY i am so excited for this! I will have a branch of my gym around the corner from work and travel times will reduce hugely for me! I went and got my hair chopped. It was well below my waist and now its at my shoulders and i struggle to put it into a ponytail lol. But i love the length, it is so much more manageble. I also had it done like i think its called "baylage" so its dark brown at the top with red down the bottom....I love the red colour. Nothing else of real note happening.

Below I have posted the photos i had taken at the start of the goodlife challenge...not attractive but just putting my starting point out there!...cannot wait for another 4 weeks to have more photos taken to see the progress,,,,here is to a good week!


Monday, October 03, 2016

A new book.

After a discussion with a friend last night (Thanks Steph!) i realised i needed a fresh start with this journey and totally disconnecting with my previous weight loss success. Instead of being complacent and riding on the tail coats of my previous success I need to accept this is a completely separate journey which I am only on day 1 off.

So i woke this morning....and got my official starting weight for my new journey. So I weighed in at 131.1 kilos. My goal is to lose at least 52 kilos. So i am starting fresh. I want to look at this like...my previous success...that book has been written...edit...finished and published. This is now a new book. And really right now I am just starting to write the first draft...and planning how Ill go about to create the new book....does that make sense?

Today funnily enough i havent been that hungry. I had greek yoghurt, granola and a few blueberries for breakfast, then during the day ive had a 13 gram bag of plain popcorn and a quest bar. I am planning to have shortcut bacon, eggs and avocado on toast for dinner which puts me just under 1300 calories. After dinner i might just have some nut and seed mix....i also have a sample of mint green tea which i might try after dinner.

Not a lot else going on....we are about to get more bad weather then tomorrow i have PT and i might also go out for lunch after it and to the movies to see bridget jones :)