Figured a photo update was overdue and since i was wearing a SIZE SIXTEEN top today what better time to do it? I will be be back later with a actual post...heres the pics from oldest to today
April 2006:
December 30 2008:
Today November 21:
I had a moment. Over the last 3 weeks or so i have not eaten processed foods...kept to two carb meals per day and never felt better. Last nite while shopping...i saw ww garlic bread...so i bought it...i then saw ww creamy pasta sauce.... so i bought it ... then ww icecreams .... so i bought them...i came home tonite...the garlic bread is digested all the icecreams digested and one serve of the pasta is gone...i then started to feel miserable...about not only my eating and the scales...i started to question when did the scales become so important ... when did weight loss become so important ... THEN I went and lifted my arm...the underside hurt so i reached for it and was massaging it when i suddenly realised...holy crap theres muscle there! My bicep muscle has developed a lot whilst training with fiona its quite obvious now and firm and toned but my underarms ... not so the underarms...but there is a distinct muscle there that wasnt there before...doesnt compare to the bicep muscle but omg its awesome i cant stop touching it ! LOL it is so much more about the scales...sure tonite i stuffed up a bit..but its yet another lesson on not having the processed food crap in my house. The other thing i was thinking is how...i havent done both exercise and food together...ive either been all into exercise ... or all into food...imagine how good i mite be able to do if i did both together??? SO the plan is....soon as i finish posting this i am off to sleep...i have been staying up late playing online this week which is never a good option...so a good solid sleep tonite...tomorrow...back to the normal food plan...with the only difference being my non carb meal is going to be ar nite not lunch time...11.30am i am planning to do body balance followed by PT and followed by trying the C25k program...its a lot yes..is it doable? yes...do i have time to fit it in? YES i am single for gawds sake...there is not reason at all why i cannot be at the gym 90 minutes per day...time to up the ante people...food plus exercise....then we will see what those scales say on monday week - can i get close to 125.9 and reach my 45 kilos? Prolly not but its a goal i plan on striving for...and with that...nite nite people - time to get this body rested so its in tip top condition!
I weighed in this morning and lost 400 grams, i am satisfied with that altho not necessarily happy with it. I am wondering tho...as i had some stomach pains yesterday..that felt like constipation pains...i also did my weight program last nite and wondering if i shouldnt weigh in the day after doing weights. So what i have decided is i will weigh in on monday too...then every monday...sunday is rest day..so theres no "exercise" or muscle transformation that could effect a monday morning weigh in. So i am now 128.5 kilos...annoying this is wednesday morning i was 127.7 kils lol oh well thems the breaks right?
Its cooler today and i looking forward to a nice relaxing weekend. I have PT tomorrow at 12.30pm and i am CONSIDERING doing a class beforehand...there is body balance at 11.30am and body pump...i have been blabbing about doing classes for so long and even done the occassional class...i dont think its the class itself that scares me its the walking into the room...where a bunch of people i dont know are...where if equipment is required i gotta work out the equipment for me...and hang around looking like a nigel no friends cos i dont know anyone who does the classes..lol...pisses me off that im like that and im sure its a hangover affect of getting so big and always being so conscious of myself...but i think working up to classes like body attack, combat and step would ultimately really push me along with my weight loss, its like i want someone (and i have no idea who that someone is...maybe God?) but someone to tell me...you arent out of place in these classes kazz...you belong here as much as anyone else....and i know i do...but still...i still dont feel i have the right to be there if that makes any sense.
Ok enuff blabbing time to do some work enjoy all
Part of my self talk i have done for the last few years is tell myself "food is a fuel not a luxury" dunno if i have believed it but its the philosophy i have tried to follow. Suddenly its clicked i am sure its the change to my eating i have made recently...i dont crave carb foods at all...i am always feeling full and i know i am putting so many good nutrients in my body...i love it! Thats the what i deserve...good food that gives me results! Not horrid saturated fats and carbilicious food ;)
I love love love that show on the you channel "diet doctor" its great...i love it.
43 degrees here today altho everyone is saying it wont reach that...the gym is on the 7th floor so i hope its not too bloody hot up there. I have PT with resistance tonite
Weigh in tomorrow...unless something crazy happens between now and tomorrow i will definitely have a loss
Have a good day everyone
i KNEW there was something else to post. I am wearing my size 20 be me jeans today...and they are getting loose! Around the waist they are prolly a inch too big or more...and i can feel them especially today looser around my hips and tops of legs...yay! That is so exciting Can't believe how much closer to 45 kilos being lost i am getting :)
Monday night when I got home i noticed my left ankle was sore. Last nite was sore again and it appeared a lil swollen today it seems fine...if its still ok tonite...ill do a lil bit of kickboxing of the "workout" show on foxtel.
Had the appraisal last night and it all went really well...the agent told me my land agent thinks very highly of me (chit i have them fooled eh! lol) anyway he did the appraisal said they would be in touch with me soon...so now we just have to wait i guess. He did seem to focus on the fact there is no /c upstairs so if they do decide to sell maybe they will install a/c up there...that would be fabulous.
Not much else going on...still finding the limit of 2 meals with carbs per day is working really well for me...looking forward to friday mornings weigh in!
Went to the gym last nite...did 35 minutes on the treadmill..ending up upping the speed to 5.4 (never done that before) bloody hell that speed makes my legs have to move bloody fast! The funny thing was when i went back to a slow speed that was still a speed of 4 not so long ago 4 was a fast speed for me LOL anyway it damn well tuckered me out...then i went and did PT session of boxing...man she is way to keen on hving me do these lil spurts of running lol...while in PT fiona asked me how my cardio workouts are going UMMMM!!!! They havent been? lol i really have to pull my finger out...and started to really up it.
The appraisal is tonite...just got a few things left to do and then TA DA everything is ready...i should have a hour or so once i get home tonite. I left all the windows open today to let in the heat so they can get a gist of how friggin hot it gets.
I am LOVING the new you channel in foxtel. I recorded "my workout" this morning mite give it a whirl after the appraisal tonite.
Not really too much else to say...hope everyones having a good week !
I must say i am glad i have "figured out" that it was bread holding me back, admittedly i prolly always knew it would be carbs that would get me in the end. My issue now...is two things...one egg/cheese/chicken and salad for lunch is prolly gonna get boring quite quickly and lately i am not even hungry at lunch time. I am guessing i am getting less cravings and being less hungry due to the less amount of carbs. I mean its 12.20pm and i am not hungry at all...in fact the thought of food is a bit blah....i could easily not have lunch and i dont think i would have a issue getting thru to dinner...of course thats not exactly healthy. The other thing i am considering a few days per week (and i realise this isnt a popular decision...but my journey my choice etc) i am thinking of having a protein drink at lunch time. That way i would at least get the calories in...the one i am looking at is iso whey....it uses the sweetener that Jillian recommends...and its low fat, low carb and very high protein and is suppose to encourage muscle building. That said i am not about to go on a shake diet...its ww all the way for me...and what i am doing at the moment is working...but i dont see the real harm in having a protein shake once per day 3-4 times per week.
The good news is the scales have gone down again...this morning for the second day running they were under 128 kilos...YAY the thing is i dont think i can expect to be able to eat processed foods and lose weight. I read the ww forum at times and people say oh i have a ww icecream each nite or whatever....but i know if i was to do that the losses will slow...its only since i adopted the theory of only zero point foods after dinner and no carbs at lunch time im getting losses. I am guessing that all relates back to my PCOS and when i do go to the doc next i am going to ask him about that...as i am very concerned about having too strict a diet cos i know they dont work and i am not being too strict...that said i am eating about 21.5 points per day and i am on 24 points...and thats not taking into account my exercise points i earn.
Tonite i am back to the gym...30-45 minute warm up on the treadmill (while watching the simpsons lol) then PT session of boxing and i am hoping i am not too tired after to do first session of the C25K...so wish me luck ( i may be simply too tired ) so we will see.
The house is pretty much all ready for the appraisal...tonite after the gym i will mop the kitchen floor and vaccuum...and then tomorrow nite just make the bed from the morning do any last minute things and sweep the stairs and it should be fine.
Not too much else going on...have a good day all!
Weighed in and lost 500 grams! YAY i would prefer to lose 500 grams every week and not have the fluctuations my body seems to do...so i am now 128.9 kilos...i think i have truly broken the 130 kilos barrier :) The other thing is I have TOM too so a loss during TOM is always a blessing.
At the gym last nite they were giving out free passes for friends to attend the gym for free and do classes...so Jaimee is coming wednesday nite and we are doing RPM...my gawd!!!! Ive only done RPM a few times and it is a killer...but i wanted to do more classes and having someone to do them with is great. With luck Jaimee mite really like the gym and join (fingers crossed)
Tonite gonna go do some grocery shopping then have a quiet nite...will do a lil bit of cleaning then when i wake tomorrow morning do a hour or two that should get msot apart from the back yard done (and the backyard is small and will take all of 20 minutes lol)
The really surprising thing too is how well i am coping with the heat. Thes days of 39 degrees have really been no drama...another bonus to losing weight!
Have a good day all
Well so far its been a day of thinking...i got thinking about how when i cut out 2 lousy slices of bread per day and suddenly the scales started moving...and it reminded me that i DO have PCOS...i have known for a trillion years...that as i have PCOS i should be eating a low GI diet...primarily the way i am eating now...with a small amount of "good" carbs and more protein is what i need...this may need further tweaking as I go down but its what I need. When i got diagnosed with PCOS like 11 years ago...i had a hysteroscopy & D&C at the time and i have never given it much more thought....now my appointment on the 8/12 at the hospital is at the womens centre and i am sure PCOS is gonna become part of that chat...so i may bring up about PCOS and see if i am doing everything i should be doing...and maybe bring up about metformin and also about my struggles with my weight. That said...i am gonna cut bread out...completely...ill still have pasta (60 grams per nite) and still have my uncle toby cereal each day...but no other carbs on a daily basis. Altho my weight has fluctuated a bit today and yesterday...i think thats all completely related to TOM (and was 300 grams down on yesterday this morning) I was having a whinge at Jody this morning via facebook about the gym and i was saying...yanno im not at the gym and im losing better then for ages...lets be honest tho...its not likely the gym having the negative effect...its the bloomin carbs. So i am going to the gym tonite...and going to go in the right frame of mind...i will see how hot the gym is but i think i will say to fiona lets just do the wellness plan...a bit of focusing on my goals may be a good thing...then next week...time to really get stuck into things. There is no reason why i wont get to my 3 PT sessions next week....so thats the focus...i do have the appraisal to get the unit ready for too so i will be a lil busy...but monday, thursday and saturday is the GYM. I think for me the answer is ww....but kinda tweaking the points so it works for me...may have to continually do lots of rethinking and testing out what does and doesnt work....instead of sulking and not changing anything for 6 months when i sit at 130 kilos...i mean seriously how der am i sometimes????
Good news just arrived tho! My IPOD has been dispatched..so exciting! I told Jaimee i will start C25K once i get it so that may just be next week :)
Okies enuff blabbing...off i go
Well...TOM did arrive yesterday...so delightfully i have cramps...no doubt my iron will go down over the next few days...and i really dont wanna go to the gym tonite ! I will go to the gym (but trust me i seriously contemplated not going) but will do the wellness plan so no exercise lol Seriously i dunno whats going on with me and the gym...well partly i do..in the lst 10 days ive gone under 130 kilos and i seem to be staying under there...mostly i think thats due to the "no bread rule" (which i am breaking today as someone left her lunch at home ugh) but anyway part of me wonders whether the losses have been due to not exercising. That said i know i need to get over this slump with the gym...partly i think its cos the gym is on the SEVENTH floor with only evaporative airconditioning and we all know heat rises...even when it hasnt been warm its warm up there...needless to say why im only doing the wellness work today...what fiona will say about the fact i havent worked out with her for a week i dunno lol (well actually i pretty much do know and it will be something along the lines of "your punishing yourself") It shows you how when you back off the exercise a lil its easy to fall out of the habits...specially with this damn heat...have i mentioned its HOT????
I forgot my bloody lunch today...gawd...so no breakfast or lunch here...i bought 2 pieces of raisin toast for breakfast (uh oh bread) and ive ordered half a bread wrap for lunch hopefully the bread doesnt affect me too badly.
Not really too much else going on...fingers crossed for tomorrows weigh in
