Saturday, November 12, 2016

Believe it or not...I am back :)

Wow .... well where to begin? This journal has been neglected for sooooooooo long!

So how am I going? Ridiculously well! :)

The highest weight I got up to this year....was 133.6 kilos. That was about 3-4 months ago. I then played around for a while...a few days of track a few days off track....the only really consistency was i was attending my 2 PT sessions a week without fail.

Then on October 15 I started a 8 week challenge with my gym. It involved initially being weighed, measured, body fat tested by my skin folds with calipers and progress photo taken (in just legging and a crop top!lol) The challenge goes for 8 weeks....and I weighed in on their scales at 129.5 kilos, and on my scales at home I weighed in at 129.9 kilos.

This morning when I weighed in at home I was 124.8 kilos so today is the 4 week mark and I have lost 5.1 kilos. My goal by December 10 is to lose at least 8 kilos but preferably 10 kilos. This week I did actually gain 200 grams and surprisingly I am okay with that! The first 3 weeks I lost each week (varying between 700 grams and 3.7 kilos), whilst the scales went slightly up this week my waist measurement has dropped close to 1 centimetre this week and my tops are becoming looser :)

Foodwise I am sticking to 1600 calories and I have only gone over this i think 3 times (and I havent for the last 10 days or so) each time i went over it it was a extra about 500-600 calories i ate but it obviously did me no harm. I am also aiming to eat more protein and have 1 grain free meal most days (generally saturdays I dont fuss over this too much. I am eating very clean with very minimal processed foods.

Currently the only exercise I am doing is 2 sessions a week. These are my PT sessions and I kid you not they are very intensive....but this slight gain this week may be the indication I need to start to increase the exercise. This week I will leave my food and exercise as it is....if I maintain or gain again this week then I will add 1 extra day of exercise in, but things are going so well at the moment I dont want to mess with things and change a whole pile or do insane amounts of exercise...knowing me I am sure they will come LOL

What else has been happening? My work office is moving to the City come early february! YAY i am so excited for this! I will have a branch of my gym around the corner from work and travel times will reduce hugely for me! I went and got my hair chopped. It was well below my waist and now its at my shoulders and i struggle to put it into a ponytail lol. But i love the length, it is so much more manageble. I also had it done like i think its called "baylage" so its dark brown at the top with red down the bottom....I love the red colour. Nothing else of real note happening.

Below I have posted the photos i had taken at the start of the goodlife challenge...not attractive but just putting my starting point out there!...cannot wait for another 4 weeks to have more photos taken to see the progress,,,,here is to a good week!

Monday, October 03, 2016

A new book.

After a discussion with a friend last night (Thanks Steph!) i realised i needed a fresh start with this journey and totally disconnecting with my previous weight loss success. Instead of being complacent and riding on the tail coats of my previous success I need to accept this is a completely separate journey which I am only on day 1 off.

So i woke this morning....and got my official starting weight for my new journey. So I weighed in at 131.1 kilos. My goal is to lose at least 52 kilos. So i am starting fresh. I want to look at this previous success...that book has been written...edit...finished and published. This is now a new book. And really right now I am just starting to write the first draft...and planning how Ill go about to create the new book....does that make sense?

Today funnily enough i havent been that hungry. I had greek yoghurt, granola and a few blueberries for breakfast, then during the day ive had a 13 gram bag of plain popcorn and a quest bar. I am planning to have shortcut bacon, eggs and avocado on toast for dinner which puts me just under 1300 calories. After dinner i might just have some nut and seed mix....i also have a sample of mint green tea which i might try after dinner.

Not a lot else going on....we are about to get more bad weather then tomorrow i have PT and i might also go out for lunch after it and to the movies to see bridget jones :)

Sunday, October 02, 2016

I'm back!

Yep, yep - I am back... :)

For a while there I got tired of writing in my journal but I have really started to miss it. I make my you tube videos and i like that....but writing can be so therauputic I wanted to come back to the blog :)

So where am I? Weight loss wise i am overdue a weigh in! My guess is 133-134 kilos (eek!) Over the last few months I have had some brilliant weight loss weeks and some terrible ones...consistency is what I lack.

I have still been going to the gym and doing PT twice a week. And i have definitely made progress there with certain movements/exercises i struggled with before I am now kinda decent at :) But there has been no real progress with the weight loss? Why? That is such a good question. When I look at aspects of my work life is quite settled at the moment, but earlier in the year with redundancies etc it was rather unsettled. Friendships/support network...this is a interesting one LOL. One thing I decided with coming back is I would write exactly what I was thinking in my journal. So with friends .... a number of people i was friends with the friendships have pretty much faded away....mostly cos either i felt like i was always the one doing the suggesting to get together...or when there was a get together i felt like a third wheel...there were conversations on topics that just didnt include i basically made the decision to stop messaging people to catch up...if they want to catch least for the first time....they can reach out to me and that hasnt happened....which I think says enough about those friendships. To be honest....I only want people in my life who truly want to be my friend and if someone doesnt want to truly be my friend then it simply is best to let things go and for life to move on for everyone. That said I do have people I would include as part of a support network...who message me to check how I am going....I have mates at work....I just dont have the thriving social life I would like ;p

A friend who messaged me this morning (and has had incredible weight loss success) commented its just one step at a time. And thats correct. I have really been in "fake it till you make it" mode but I wanna be in "im a success" mode :) So yes one meal at a time.

I think back on all the work and effort I put in to my weight loss, I am still 40 kilos down but have gained basically 50 kilos...its depressing as hell!

I want to get on top of things...get rid of the confusion. So firstly apart from aiming to do 45-60 minutes exercise 6 days a week....I am also going on the 14th to have my RMR tested, from their I will have much better information of where to sit my calories (currently they are at 2000....but im not sure if thats too low or too high)

Tomorrow morning i will weigh in - I also want to post here more consistently. I dont care if no one reads this lil is what i need for ME!

Friday, September 02, 2016

Back.....and back to basics.

Well I was drawn back to this blog. I like making you tube...but its very VERY time consuming. I was looking back thru this journal...back mid 2010. It kinda woke me up. The basics. Calorie Count. Calorie cycle. Eat mostly wholefoods. Fit in some treats. Sleep 8 hours a night. Attend the gym most days.

Yesterday I finally decided to just get off my ass and go do a les mills class. I went to the gym - I jumped on the cross trainer for 25 minutes and then did a 60 minute body pump class. It reminded me so much of how it use to make me feel. I really do like the classes. I like the format. I am confident in them (specially pump) im far from perfect in them and may struggle occassionally especially when going from standing up to down to the ground and back up again....but if i am a fraction slow....thats ok. I think i just prefer the classes...they feel productive and combined with some cardio it just works....thats how i exercised all those years ago. So now ive done that....and i was surprised! When i did pump last time was like well over 6 months ago. It was a struggle. I felt weak by the second track...i just didnt have the endurance or fitness for it. But last night....i did it....and did it easily there was definitely no tiredness. Now that i have just got over my neck injury...and hadnt done it a while...but i did do light now...its to try and go 1-2 times a week for pump....and slowly increase the weights. So now its time to incorporate a few classes :) I think the next few weeks i am going to try and incorporate pump, body balance and RPM as much as I can. And then once I get past those....I will expand to include yoga, booty barre (I have no idea how hard that is!),cxworx, active tone and active core.

Foodwise....its honestly not hard! Calorie cycle...eating a average of 1650 calories per day. Sleeping 8 hours a night. Doing that...and ill be much healthier and ultimately lose weight.

Tomorrow I work and then I have sunday off. So i wont get to the gym tomorrow but sunday I will. So sunday will be pump and then 25-30 minutes of cardio.

Also i have booked a body scan for september 14 and then will again mid november. My "holiday" from weight loss is over. No more debating do i go to the gym each the words of nike...just do it!

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Where can you find me?

I have decided to continue with a blog, but have set up my own domain as well as a you tube channel! YAY. You can find my first you tube video at and you can find the new blog at Kazzs Journey currently there is no posts on the website but I will start posting there from tomorrow - so keep a look out :)

Monday, May 30, 2016

Time for change

I had a big think about things last night following writing that post about the gym, and something i am more and more aware of is i no longer have the ability to be authentic on this journal. I "edit" too much because I am too concerned about who might read a post and what people might think. So i have decided to leave the blog for the moment. I have never desired to be "social media" famous. So for the moment, I wont be posting on here, i am deleting facebook (apart from messenger as thats how family contact me) and also be stepping away from socialising. I want to focus simply on me, weight watchers, food preparation, the gym and work - nothing else.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

All things gym.

I ummed and ahhed a lot about posting this and I may end up deleting it or not publishing it lol

Gym experiences. We all have them and some of us have some horror stories. I must admit in my time at gyms until very recently i never had any bad experiences. I certainly was anxious over attending the gym and i personally thought everyone was looking at me and judging me...but of course that wasnt the case.

When I quit my old gym i stated on the blog i was sick of travelling, felt anxious about attending the gym, and needed a gym with more flexible hours. This was all true. I wanted to share this story to show even if something does doesnt mean you throw your fitness journey in. I hadnt actually told anybody about this till last night...and after i told Martine i kinda knew it was something i should post about.

So I was in a session a group session which was a circuit. I did the first exercise, that was all fine. I then moved on to the second exercise. It was a exercise I cannot do and attempting it would have actually put me at risk of injury. So i called over the instructor....she set up a different exercise for me...i did one or two reps and then it was time to move on to the next exercise. But what happened a female who was on the exercise next to me turned around and said "wait she didnt do her exercise" OMG i seriously wanted to die. Yes i know i didnt do as many reps as i should have but up till that moment i was simply proud to be in that group session...and to speak up when i had something i knew i couldnt do. By the end of the week I had been giving it a lot thought, mostly to the demographics of the gym and did i fit in anymore. I had felt pulled back to this gym many times. I had my success at it 2008-2011. And while i had left and gone to a different gym a few times...I felt connected to this gym. But what ive realised over the last few wasnt the gym that helped was fiona...pure and simple. The gym is the same building...but it has changed over time..and I felt i no longer fit into those demographics. The gym i joined i have been a member of before. I am going back to someone I trained with before...I always liked training with her...i only left cos i felt my success was tied to my old gym. This gym has both males and females...and yes it has plenty of females size 10-12 it also has plenty of people on their weight loss journey....and various ages. Going back to the comment that person said about me not having done the full is my or i are not obligated in any group session to do every set or rep. There is no requirement for you to keep up with the person next to you...only person you need to keep up with is yourself. I put this comment down to the age of this person. BUT if you are at a gym or fitness centre where you encounter anything similar...YOU are in control....put yourself in a environment that is right for you, try to remove the emotions of it all and decide where you will get the most success from....but dont let any person stop you from your fitness journey.

I just watched a video clip where 7 of the ex US biggest losers discussed the study that came out recently about how their metabolism was damaged after being on biggest loser. Partly they were discussing how they have neglected weight training (and in fact one mentioned they lost 21lbs of muscle whilst on biggest loser) and we know the more muscle we have the better our metabolism works. Now i have done weight training for years, altho I was definitely stronger 5 years ago. Anyway the biggest loser peeps said something interesting ... "cardio is my comfort zone" and thats so true. Sure the treadmill isnt my comfort zone....but going especially on the cross trainer or outside definitely a comfort zone with me. With going back to the gym this week (Candice messaged me this morning so sure i will have at least one session with her this morning) I am going to step out of that comfort zone. As much as I am going to focus on my eating with weight watchers...I am also going to focus on becoming stronger which inevitably will mean my muscle is improving. If Candice sets me programs to do in the weights area (she prolly will) then so be it i will do it - time to set out of my comfort zone. Simple as that.

Do you.

Last night was a lovely meal and i stuck to my daily points. For dinner i had "bo la lot" (ithink thats what its called Lol) its lil bits of mince wrapped in leaves, followed by a chicken and cashew stirfry. We then went to a local place called cocolat and had a skim hot chocolate and martine bought me 2 lil bliss balls she had made.

I was home by 9.30pm and tucked up in bed before long. This morning i have woken and while i dont feel sick i also dont feel 100%. So im super glad i did the shopping and washing my plan is just to keep warm and rest today.

Ive been reflecting a lot on my last weight loss journey the last few days and what worked. And one of the things is about "owning my journey". Ive always felt its important to own my journey, my personality is quite independant. I think having online support and even meeting support with a leader is good....but when it comes to the actual journey for ME its very important to own it, put a bubble around me, rely on no one else but me. I dont have that desire to workout with attend weight watcher meetings with others....its very important to me....that this be about "me time". Apart from attending a body pump class once with tania...ive always done workouts by myself....and i think that bubble has really gone around me and i am going to focus on me and no one else (I think this is important for everyone...we all should individually own it...and most importantly not compare). What someone else does....what someone else thinks/ not something we should take one else.

Ok its nearly 9.30am and i havent eaten yet! Time to find some food....enjoy all! :)