Thursday, October 29, 2009

Thursday October 29

Day off...about bloody time! I had PT this morning i really didnt want to go...i have been thinking too much...thinking about how 3 years later and i still have over 50 kilos to lose and it pisses me off...granted ive done good to lose and keep off 39 kilos...but to be honest....in my mind its not good enuff. Anyway i went in...did my PT session...at the end fiona asked me if id still been thinking about the fact i think i should be further along then i am....i was like...ummm yeh...she basically told me i need to stop being so hard on myself...and start to think about how far i have come in the last 6 months...she also was saying....that sitting here thinking how far i feel should be along in this journey is like thinking about another parallel universe...that the fact is...i am where i am...because of a whole range of reasons and i just need to accept this. (Yeh she says exactly what she is thinking at times lol) Anyways my butt hurts...we were doing these horrid exercises and my butt is so sore right now...

Came home and there was a letter from royal adelaide hospital for a appointment...so i go to see the specialist on december 8 (just gotta try and organise a day off now)

Everything else is good...decided to organise a nite out for my birthday on January 17...Jaimee was like make it a Jillian Michaels theme lol but yes hopefully i will have a good nite out then...and MAYBE i mite have lost a bit by then and be able to wear a dress.

Funny writing down that stuff i wrote in the first paragraph makes me feel a lil better...

Okies off i go...need to go and get organised so i can do my grocery shopping

2 comments:

Hippygal said...

I know hardly ever comment but I do read regularly and just wanted to say you are doing awesome :-)

Jody said...

Kazz - think about where you would be now if you had not been on this journey over the past 3 years! You may well be 39kg heavier instead of lighter.
You are an inspiration to lot of us on the WW forum, reading your posts is what finally made me get off my butt and start exercising….