Its bloody hot people !

I moved the mattress downstairs last nite and bloody froze ! hahah but oh so much better then being hot...but being in front of the a/c was definitely cool. Its a pain having the mattress in the middle of the lounge room but worth it for the decent nites sleep. Its gonna be damn well 44 degrees today, it was 44.7 30 minutes ago ack ! And its not gonna be under 40 till at least next monday ! wholly hell !

Foodwise yesterday went real good and the scales moved ! Yay went 300 grams under what i was last weigh in so thats a good sign. I did drink 3 litres of water yesterday, and didnt have pasta for dinner, instead i had a piece of marinated lamb which was only 3 points plus a baked potato with 2 tablespoons of osur cream was yum yum and all for 5.5 points much better then eating the pasta.

Spoke to Leigh online last nite...she messaged me not the other way around and we chatted for a bit....and i went offline first HAH dont want her thinking she runs this show lmfao As for felicity i sent her a message the other day...got no response two days later and so i messaged her and she was like ive been busy....too busy to reply to a text message??? Whatevaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i dunno what leigh has or hasnt said and im not gonna get into it...nor am i gonna feel guilty....i dont believe i have done anything wrong, at one point i did feel guilty but ive moved past that...

Okies a couple of hours more work then off to the movies tonite with tania...enjoy all

I'm excited !

yes its true I am ! Let me explain...I really do like fernwood gym, but there is a issue whilst I love my PT sessions and wouldnt give them up ever i wish they provided me more focus on my cardio whenever i ask what i should be doing its always like oh yanno aim for 40 minutes on the machines and if i ask about classes its like well try them...theres never any consideration of my fitness level and a plan to work towards classes as ive told them thats what i want. So aftr consideration i have joined jillian michaels website with personalised coaching. If I find it not suitable i can cancel at 4 weeks so it gives me a chance to see if this would work. Anyway Matt who will be my coach has emailed me...i just emailed him back and gave my history and goals. Jillians website also sets out circuits that you can do at home as well as every month she loads a music compilation to use during the workouts and it has a very definite setout routine....which i think will help. So just waiting to hear back from him altho considering this gawd awful heat dunno if i will do much exercise this week (except thursday when i have a PT session) i am moving my mattress down to the lounge room tonite as its wayyyyyyyy to hot upstairs for me and i need to sleep in the room with the a/c till prolly tuesday at least.

Foodwise ive changed my plan around a lil....i have cut back to 2 weetbix and a banana dont feel i really need 3 anymore, for dinner i am having marinated lamb, potato and salad all for 5 points ! Bonus ! They gave out lamingtons at work today 3.5 points...but i worked it in and i still have 2 points left in case i feel like a paddle pop after dinner.

Tomorrow nite off to the movies to see bride wars with tania, thursday is gearing up to be a busy day...10am-11pm i have ww, 11.30-12 i have a PT session and 12.30-1.30pm i am meeting ryan and jaimee in town for lunch. Then i will go home and flake out from the heat ! LOL Checked my plants this morning they seem to be coping ok with this heat but will give them a nice big drink of water this evening...ok off i go ! Enjoy all !

Review...........

Well ive been a incredible lazy ass today ! LOL ive done graphics, played gammon, listened to music and watched more of wills & grace lol

I've been thinking a bit tho...in relation to the pasta im eating at nite. Pasta is so high in points im spending 4.5-5.5 points per day on it so im gonna start to alter that a bit. Im gonna start to eat more meat, potato and salad at night I will still have pasta 2-3 nites per week....but i think this is a good step. My points have dropped in the last month from 27 and by my next weigh in they will be 25 so I need to be using them better. Tomorrow nite im planning to have a lamb steak (110 grams but is marinated so thats 3 points) plus potato and salad....that will give me dinner for about 6 points, and I think it will be more filling too. The other thing i wanna look into is egg pasta....i heard that is half the points? I will have to check that out when i go to the grocery store next. My dishes with pasta before were working out to about 9 points....which was fine while on 27 points....but needs to alter now.

Funny thing happened yesterday....i thought ill be the big person extend a olive branch to Leigh and sent her a nice text just saying hope you had a good weekend. We swapped a couple of texts and she told me...it had been good except there had been some drama...drama that DIDN'T include kazz ! lol I told jody this morning and she was like...admit it you loved that there was drama hahahah and well yeh it did give me a giggle...

Off to work for 2 days then i have a couple off...wednesday nite tania and i are going to the movies to see bride wars....really looking forward to that ;) i was suppose to meet jaimee for lunch on thursday but mite suggest we meet in the evening as its suppose to be 41 degrees for the next 3 days BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!

Okies off i goooooooooooo !

Sunday,,,,

Slept rather good again last night which is great. Only woke up when my blood noisy neighbours were up and about lol

Today i need to go to town and find some bloody shoes for work...i wanna wear my 3/4 jeans i have, i have these sandshoes but they been giving me blisters so i need some slip on shoes but they cant be a thong style (they all seem to be thong style) but ill go looking today. After that i am planning to go to the local gardening store and buy some edible plants. I dont know which really (i think things like beetroot and carrot its the time to plant at the moment) but i guess ill discover while im there.

I'm thinking about going to the 5pm session of marley & me tonite....havent seen it yet but would really like to but its only on at 5pm...so that may be a goer. I also wanna see bride wars so maybe ill lash out and go to the movies tomorrow as well lol

Okies off to play in a gammon tourney then time to get out of here....enjoy your sunday all !

Shopppppppppppppppping

Good afternoon ! Home from a couple of hours at the shops. Went to target today looking for a pair of summer shoes for work (didnt find any ahhh !) but did find some other goodies...

Now to explain one of my purchases and i why its a big deal....heres a story lol....many years ago...(i was about 21) i had a unit and in there i had a frame pic of me and my dad anyway i was very sick and needed to go to hospital so my mum and her hubby came to pick me up...anyway as we walked out the door her hubby asked me to remove the photos as it hurt mum too much...hmmmphhhh ! For years i have done that...when I was with Ang she often said u need to put some pics of your dad up, its your house u put up what u want,....but i never did. Anyway this morning i was playing on the internet and i actually came across a couple of photos of my dad....which was super exciting....and then i went hunting for photo albums and found the pic i wanted....its me taken when i was not quite 2 1/2 years old and im on dads lap he is in his army uniform....real nice pic....so i went and bought a frame for it today....and its now framed sitting on my tv next to a photo of his grand daughter :) and that is where it will stay. I also bought a wok, the last series of will & grace on dvd (gonna sit down and watch that tonite), nail polish remover,buffer and strengthener (yes believe it or not my nails have grown !) and i also bought tis cute pink and yellow pyjama set its shorts and a tanktop they fit me now altho tight but it feels so free-ing to wear a completely sleeveless top and have my shoulders bare, im sure over the coming weeks it will start to fit me better and MAYBE only maybe i mite in a few weeks take a pic in it (trust me it will hide none of my flaws lol) Tonite for dinner im planning to make a yummi low point pizza.

I slept soooooooo much better last nite...only took about 30 minutes to fall asleep and i dont recall waking up at all....im still tired but its a good improvement.

Okies off i go.....got the new slimming and health magazine today so gonna relax reading it

Oh and Jody? Thanks oodles for the chat this morning - you made so much sense when u said to me your taking care of the physical health now also time to take care of your soul ;)

Ahhhh for some sleep...

i'm feeling much better today, i feel really tired tonite so with luck i mite sleep well tonite. I havent worried today...hasnt been a focus at all...felicity messaged me during the day about going out tonite...but told her i was planning to go to the gym early in the morning so would skip it...Im not sure if i will get to the gym or not...simply cos im not gonna set my alarm. If i manage to get a good sleep i wanna take advantage of it and catch up on sleep. Last nite went to bed at 10.30pm and was still awake after midnight and then woke up at 3am so gawd would be so nice to catch up on that sleep. Then i am meeting jaimee for coffee....and later in the afternoon going to do my grocery shopping. I also need to buy some new shoes and so sunday mite go into town and look for some new shoes and mite venture to katies too....theres a girls dance on the 22nd of feb which i may go too, leigh n felicity are going but another group of my friends are going so it may be a good way to catch up without pressure. (May have to call in sick the next day if i do go to it tho lol shhhhhhhh)I also wanna venture down to the garden store this weekend too. OKies not much else to post byesssssssssssssss

Gawd another post !

I am feeling much better tonight....ive been sitting here studying the gyms class timetable and decided im gonna focus my energies on the gym. Leigh texted me tonight and asked me if i was going to the wheaty tomorrow nite....said i wasnt sure but now i think ill skip it and instead go to a gym class on saturday morning. Body pump is with one of my fave trainers and they been sending out emails saying dont forget about saturday morning classes so im guessing they arent busy, so it might be a good time to try body pump....plus gabby who takes the class is a hottie ! hahah ! I am going to seriously consider this week buying a boxing package for 10 weeks. It costs $410 for 10 weeks but its not getting on a contract and is only for 10 weeks....but ill think some more and decide over the weekend. I also mite go to the zoo on sunday or monday,,,,that would be a good long walk walking around there.....the camera could get a good work out too so mite be a goer.

Jaimee just messaged me (gawd i miss her !) her hairdresser is in the next street from me...and shes got a appointment saturday so i will prolly go catch up with her for a coffee and a chat. Which will be lovely, i miss out girlie chats. Im also planning to go to the garden shop.....being at my sisters and all her plants (she has a great vegies patch (okies patches theres a few lol) but my sister motivated me....i looked at the yates site and i saw BEETROOT can be planted now...my sister will laugh,,,,when i went there....the first nite she said come out and see the garden...so we went out....and everything i pointed at saying is that beetroot???? then that nite i dreamt about beetroot and well my niece ate so much beetroot while i was there it wasnt funny ! lol I mite plant some sweet peas too and some cabbage....theres a big gardening store near me so i will go check it out over the weekend. Okies thats my last post for the day ! hahhaha

Been a lil slack...

Well I think my sister knows me too well ! lol

Last nite she sent me a text saying u havent updated ur journal whats wrong...i told her nothings wrong....but wasnt exactly truthful. Ever since this leigh drama i havent slept well...i think its catching up with me....i am not sitting here pining after leigh or some bullshit....quite the opposite i have concerns about my friendship with both even tho both have said that our friendships are fine. Felicity said something yesterday that suggested i persued my feelings for Leigh...hmmmm no...i didnt do that....and i think thats the thing i need to stop feeling guilty, Leigh approached me initially not the other way around. Before all this happened felicity told me her family and friends think leigh is a player....i am not sure what i think....but im certainly not thinking she is wonderful like i thought at one point...i havent correct felicity on that perception that i persued leigh....yesterday at work i was up in customer complaints and all this stuff played on my mind. Last nite i talked to a friend (Robyn) whose gone thru something similar recently....and it was good to finally have someone to talk too, but what ive realised...is while i have focused on this leigh drama i think thats just the tip...as ive mentioned before my relationship with my mum and stepdad has deteriated....its improved slightly recently....but i think that plays on my mind a lot - a lot more then ill mention....ive talked to my friend joe at work numerous times about it and ended up quite teary....also while at my sisters we did a lot of talking about stuff from our past and im glad we did cos i think it needs to be talked about without being confrontational (and as me and kerry were kids theres no confrontation between us so we can discuss it like this) i think those discussions are important for healing me...but it does also bring thoughts/memories to the front of my brain which i do think i need at times....so my brain has been feeling "busy" and it was hard to get rid of the "traffic" and just think logically. I went to the docs today....he did increase my meds by 50 mg for a few weeks...if its no better in a week i will go back....but this afternoon i feel a bit better already prolly cos ive talked about it to someone impartial. The one thing I have been proud of is with all this going on i havent resorted to emotional eating...i feel really proud about that.

I forgot to post about tuesday....weigh in time but i think most of u already know this....i lost 1.5 kilos. That takes me since december 15 ive lost 10.5 kilos (pretty awesome eh?) and for the total for this journey....30.6 kilos.... I also got thinking about goals. My ultimate goal for 2009 is to be under 100 kilos....and i DO BELIEVE its doable. So the goals are by 28/3/09 (robyns bday party) i wanna weigh 132 kilos....by the first week in july(my niece invited me back to streaky for her birthday lol) and i wanna be down to 121 kilos by then....imagine that bus trip 20 kilos lighter !

Then on tuesday me and mum went to fellinis....da da duhhhhhhhhhhhhh....well lol me and mum shared our entire meal. We had a piece of bruschetta first, followed by a wood oven pizza....they are made on a real thin pastry with no sauce it simply had tomatos, olives, pruschetta (or however u spell it) and slices of avocado and bocini cheese (i removed most of the avocado tho) so i didnt feel that was too bad a choice...no melted cheese or greasy meats etc THEN mum said lets get the dessert menu ! LOL (this was for my bday remember!) so we decided to share a strawberries and icecream....wouldnt be too bad right? WRONG it was the same thin pastry like the pizza but it had a light spread of custard with dollops of strawberry jam with strawberries around the edge...chocolate sauce dribbled over it with icing sugar with a scoop of srawberry, chocolate and vanilla icecream with shards of chocolate ! LOL i so shoulda taken a photo. It was a pure indulgence....i figure if you gonna have a treat do it in style ! lol...anyway the next day the scales were up by about a kilo...but im pretty sure thats from the pruschetta cos it was very salty and im not too concerned i counted that lunch as 15 points....and ive stayed under my points a couple of points each day since

When i went to the docs today...i was walking down the street and found a $50 note...of course i pocketed it....lol...i figure its karma...at my birthday....felicity found $60 which im convinced was mine....so i say....what goes around comes around....nice finding it on pay day tho

Okies not too much else to say .... except kerry....got your post now :)

Feeling so much better...

Well I feel much better about practically everything tonite. I sent felicity a text telling her about the leigh thing...told her i want our friendship based on honesty and she was cool with it. She gets back into Adelaide tomorrow hopefully this weekend we will go out and catch up. I also talked to my friend Dayne about it, she said (and i have told her more then ive posted here) long and short while i prolly shouldnt have got into all the texts with Leigh...she did lead me on and has been a bit of a bitch to me the last day or so....at this point i have deleted all the text history and her number from my phone and have no intention of having contact with her. Of course if i see her out and about i will be friendly but not gonna run around after her.

I went for my PT session today and I talked to my personal trainer about the slimplicity vs weight watchers dilemma. She said..."i have my personal opinion and my fernwood opinion" she basically said if ww is working then stick with that...and just drop the slimplicity sessions she then suggested i talk to one of the membership gals...which i did...and she was like hell yeh stick to ww if thats working...she was like..."remember you are paying us for a service....and the service is for u to feel better about urself...and if that works best combining ww with the PT sessions then thats what u should do" so i feel much better about that as well

Okies Weigh in tomorrow and then fellinis for lunch and YES i will be working bruschetta into my points tomorrow LOL have a good day all ill be back tomorrow nite

I'm homeeeeeeeeeee

yes after what felt like the LONGEST bus trip in the world i got home about 9.30pm last night.

The bus left streaky bay at 10.55am and we got to port augusta at 4pm and we didnt leave there till 5.05pm ! So i ended up calling jody since i had credit to waste and time to waste ! Then I got on the bus....then the drama started haha this woman got on...she was suppose to sit next to me....she was at least a size 20....anyway she refused to sit next to me...said the seats arent wide enough and comfortable enough ... the driver ended up saying to her if u want to be more comfortable then buy 2 seats next time and that they were adding that to their details ! lol But it was embarressing....then the driver put a skinny girl next to me so for me all was good.

It was nice getting home last nite....and i was very excited to get on the scales this morning. I wont say how much ive lost but yes i HAVE lost but will go weigh in tomorrow and let you all know tomorrow

So i have a PT session tonite...at 6pm and tomorrow i will weigh in. After weigh in going to mums and from there we are going to fellinis for lunch (yummo)

And below are some photos from the trip:



The blowhole



Another shot of the blowhole



Me at he whispering rocks



The big white chook aka lambie



Some of the rocks we climbed over to get to smooth pools

oh the dramas...

So I really debated over whether to make this post or not. Tomorrow I head home...the holiday has been lovely...ive really enjoyed myself, but at the same time will be nice to get home to my lil place. Today we have been quite lazy...there was a cruise ship in the bay so we went down and took some photos of that and since then we have watched a couple of movies, kung fu panda and made of honour.

On the girl side of things...there has been a lil drama. Leigh texted me last nite to say while felicity has also been away (shes in melbourne) it has lead her to "reconsider her feelings for felicity" as you can imagine that went down like a lead balloon. And quite a few terse words went back and forwards via text...think i may have surprised her a lil. I can be a serious pain in the ass and stubborn b*tch when i get pissed with someone over something (stop laughing jody!) I pretty much told her i need to back away from her and felicity. She basically at one point said "dislike me it would be easier for you" and today she hasnt answered any texts so im guessing she is trying to make me dislike her even tho yesterday she said she doesnt wanna stop being friends. Its not all bad tho, its made me reconsider some of my actions. Felicity liked her before i really knew her so seriously when Leigh told me she liked me...i shoulda told her too bad im felicitys friend first and formost. Other exs from felicitys past have tried to message me and get to know me but ive never budged...ive stood by her as a friend so not sure why i didnt this time. At this point tho i think i need to back off from both of them while they work out where they are headed. Me and felicity down the track prolly need to have a chat too. One of the good things to come out of this tho is the fact that i realise with certainty im over ang (ok yes i know 4 damn years is too long to realise this) but i really havent been interested in anyone since her, Leigh was the first person I had some interest in and yes didnt work out but thats life hey? Prolly the most annoying aspect of this is i cant discuss it with felicity like her or i would normally...

Okies im off to spend some time with my 4 year old shadow (lol) and her family seeing its my last evening here....toodles all =]

Day 3 !

Yesterday we went to see a "blowhole" wat we didnt realise till we got there was it involved a 10 minute walk in sand up and down hills (so 20 minutes there and back) The blowhole itself didnt seem to be working although the view was gorgeous and i took photos. We then went to the whispering rocks which whisper to you when a wave comes in...that was very cool and my sister took a couple of photos of me at it. So will upload them when I get home. We then walked back to the car and omg it beat any gym workout i swear as going back was mostly uphill and as i said the sand was soft. I said to my sister...Ive never been so glad to see your car before lol we decided next time i come back we will redo the walk to see how i cope with it.

Yesterday my niece (whose 4) wanted to play with my make up...i said tonite we will have a girls nite...but we ended up playing singstar anyway went to bed she came into the bedroom very unhappy that we forgot abut our "girls nite" so today she has been getting a chance to play with my make up LOL was quite hilarious but very cute.

I got dressed this morning...put on the exs old tshirt which i always use as a guage (not that long ago was firm fitting) and thought hmmm it seems looser...so i said to my sister about it...she said its definitely not firm fitting anymore and then she said...i think ive lost weight since u been here too cos we been eating so healthy LOL. Last nite we had marinated steak, potato and salad (no dressing) tonite we are making home made pizzas but i will be using ww cheese on mine so not too concerned about that. And considering the points i earned yesterday (worked out to be 5 points for 20 minutes!) think i can afford it.

The funniest thing is my sister has chickens (4 of them) and a lamb...now the lamb is confused...and thinks its a chicken lol even goes and sleeps in the chickens cage anyway miss 4 comes in the house today and said...the 4 chickens are out of theyre house...but the white chicken is lying in it...yep u guessed it...the "white chicken" is the lamb which they call lambie LOL...i will take out miss 4 in a minute and take some photos of the animals. Okies enjoy all =]

Streaky Bay

Well here we are in streaky bay. Arrived monday night just before 7pm, the bus had been delayed leaving adelaide by 45 minutes. From adelaide to port augusta i had to share a seat (about 4 hours) but the lady was a skinny minny so wasnt too bad. From pt augusta to streaky bay i had a seat to myself which was good. I wasnt too bored...I didnt really read much but the mp3 player combined with a series of texts from Leigh kept me occupied.

Monday night me and my sister played singstar for about 3 hours which was hilarious. Yesterday cos it was so damn hot (reached 44.7 here) we didnt do too much and in fact I even napped in the afternoon - something I never normally do.

This morning the kids have some of their cousins coming over and then this arvo we are off to the "blow hole" so the camera may get a work out there.

Foodwise I havent been too bad at all. Breakfast has been weetbix and fat reduced milk both days, and lunch ham and salad sandwiches on multigrain bread. Last nite for dinner was marinated chicken wings and mashed potato and i also filled up on lots of beetroot, cucumber and tomato. I may not lose this week but I also wont be expecting a gain and even if I do gain it will drop off quick my first week home when i get back to my hotler ways with my food ! LOL

Okies off to go get ready for my day - have a good few days all


kazz =]

I'm packed !

Well I think I am packed...I keep walking into another room and seeing something else I need to pack into a bag.

Today I was washing and there was a pair of 3/4 jeans in the laundry basket they have been there for about a year....i think cos they no longer fit....as i picked them up i was thinking oh the button musta come off or something...checked...nope button is in tact....checked zipper....all ok.....checked inner seams...all good....hmmmm....lemme slide these babies on and see if they fit...woot they do !

My aim whilst on holidays is to lose 100 grams...im gonna track as much as i can obviously i cant weigh my pasta before cooking etc so you do lose some controlbut im gonna do my very best, and altho its gonna be stinking hot try and be a lil active. I know kerry is planning we go fishing on the jerry one nite....told kerry,....the kids will need to teach me....lol but down on the jetty in the evening mite mean some good photos. Thats the other thing...every man and their dog has been saying to me.,....take lots of pics. I have a digital camera and never used it much altho i have a lil more lately...isnt it funny how the camera kinda symbolises where we are in life....whenwe are at our lowest the camera is in the back of a drawer somewhere,,,,when we are happy and things are falling into place the camera suddenly comes out...so yes....the camera will be out this week.

Good luck to everyone weighing in this week...im sure i will post during the week to report on the going ons at streaky bay =]


kazz =]

DRUMROLL

Didn't end up going out last nite. I was concerned about being tempted to drink and i went for a lay down and didnt wake up till 8.45pm so decided to skip it.

Anyway up early this morning...and OMG the day started out drama filled. I jumped on the bus to go to the salisbury ww meeting...but i caught the WRONG bus...once i realise i got off not knowing where i was....i rang for a taxi giving the street address not knowing what suburb i was in....the guy asked for it i said...i think salisbury but im lost so im not sure...so even tho i had the street address he wouldnt book me a taxi (asshole!) so i hung up on him telling him "thanks for your help" in my most sarcastic tone...anyway so i walked for a bit and then discovered i was at salisbury plains...re rang got a taxi and off to the meeting. Once I got to the meeting i bought the toffee bars, the chocolate bars and the sour cream and chives rice crackers - so plenty of snack things for this week. And then the best news was .................. *drum roll* i lost 2.3 kilos ! (5.06 pounds). So since i rejoined ww on december 15 (wonder if someone is overlooking me and cheering me on? I did join on my dads birthday ;)) i have last 9 kilos thats in 3.5 weeks. Since i started this journey i have now lost 29.1 kilos....this is the lowest by far ive been for at least 9 months possibly longer would have to go back thru my journal to confirm that. But not only do i feel great i have my confidence back that i CAN do this..and it all comes down to weighing and tracking. I am quietly confident about this week at my sisters...whilst i wont have as much control i am confident i will make the right choices and when i next weigh in will be to reach that 30 kilos mark...amazing to think its not too far away and i will be dropping yet another of my daily points. (oh and my goal of being under 143 by end of january is done as well lol just a lil early) Seeing tania was great its actually been a longgggggggggggg time since we caught up...after we went over to mcdonalds...i had a plain toasted muffin with jam and a hot chocolate..:) so simply a case of more wise decisions. But it was lovely to catch up with tania - i look forward to doing it again in the not too distant future

Life is good...

A friend said the other day...put positive vibes out there and u will get positive back...and must admit that seems to be the case.

Yesterday at work my boss came up to me said do u wanna go up to CRG (customer relations) i thought she meant for a couple of hours or something....so i was like sure....then a hour later she emails me and says go up now...and ull be there tomorrow too lol so off i go...then when i go there we get told this will be for anywhere from 2 weeks to a couple of months woot ! Its given me a real insight to their job...and id love to do it permanantly so its something i need to keep a eye out for any vacant positions they advertise

Then last nite i go to the ATM...withdraw $100 and walk away without my cash ! OMG i seriously am duh sometimes ! Anyway so i went to the bank and can you believe they credited me back the money....theyve been a pain in the ass sometimes but over this they were brilliant.

Booked my ticket for streaky last nite and got the confirmation today so all ready to go. I went and bought a telstra G prepaid phone as thats the only provider that gets mobile connection and well i need to be contactable ! LOL

Tonight im heading off to the wheaty (yes again - made i should just set up camp there? lol) But am planning not to drink as i have ww in the morning...also planning to be home by midnight cos i need to be up early. Someone from the pinksofa from melbourne is coming over and thats what the get together is for (well thats the excuse lol) also another local girl i havent met before is going plus the usual suspects. I asked leigh if she wanted to come but she has to look after the kids tonite (her and her sister foster 4 kids between themselves) but a chance to look nice and go out for a chat is always fun !

Okies off i go....fingers crossed for tomorrows weigh in ! xox

Always check meeting times...

SOMEONE (not mentioning any names) forgot to check that there was a meeting on today ! Guess what? There wasnt ! (well not at a time i could get too) so i went into the city only to discover i couldnt weigh in. So instead i will go to the salisbury meeting on saturday and use it as a chance to see tania :) I had a sneak peak at my scales this morning and will be expecting a loss on saturday of around a kilo. The good news is I have decided to go to Streaky Bay, so by going on saturday as there are no ww meetings in streaky it will be only 10 days between meetings. And YES i am going...decided today.

This morning i woke and there was a message for me from my friend Felicity about Leigh. The short story is felicity likes leigh (in fact has told me she is in love with leigh) leigh is getting over someone and leigh is the one who told me she likes me. SO ! i get this message saying "i found the right girl (leigh) she just doesnt realise it yet" which made me feel crappy...i texted leigh and said i think we need to put some distance between ourselves...she then told me she told felicity that she told me she likes me and thinks i have soft hands (lol). I knew that if felicity asked her Leigh would tell her this and apparantly felicity has worked out for herself that I like leigh. Anyway leigh was like no...we can all still hangout...its not a issue. THEN i got another message this afternoon from felicity asking me if me and robyn are going to hook up (oh did i mention lesbians are DRAMA FILLED?) i was like no...shes still hooked on someone and my focus is on my weight loss at the moment AND if i do get together with someone i want it to be someone who is into me and not someone pining after someone else. We both agreed we just gonna keep going out and socialising.

So yes I am going to streaky...will book my ticket on friday...i am excited now (pray i get a seat to myself) normally when ive gone there on the bus you leave at like 8pm and get in at some ungodly hour in the morning like 5.30am now they run it different you leave about 8am with two meal stops and get in around 6pm which is better i think...its airconditioned so even if its a hot day shouldnt really be a issue. I am going to look at it as perfect timing for some reading ! I got a book voucher for my birthday so that works out perfectly. I will buy some ww snacks to take with me, breakfast and lunch is easy...weetbix and a ham sandwich or whatever and dinner i will have a small portion of whatever kerry makes with a side salad. I will still track as they have internet access so that is fine....so now im getting EXCITED ! Okies off to go do some work !

I think all that alcohol is being flushed out of my system lol...ive been going to the loo non stop today...people at work musta thought something strange was going on cos i went to the loo at one point 3 times in a hour haha

Another good day foodwise...im debating whether to have a chicken burger or carbonara for dinner. I need to go to the shops to get bacon for carbonara and its hot and im really not interested in going to the shops. I finished work at 3pm today and dont work till 12pm tomorrow, so in the morning i will pop into weight watchers, i cant stay for the minute but the most important things is to step on those scales, the meetings themselves while i will always stay for them whenever i can i dont feel i get a whole lot out of them but that accountability the scales gives me is huge.

Weekend off this week and can u believe my damn plans? Im still seriously considering going to streaky on monday, the break would be great but like i said im worried about the bus being full if i dont go i have some other plans, friends i went to school with wanna meet for morning tea one day, i desperately need a haircut and colour also mum is going to take me out to fellinis (my FAVE restuarant) for lunch and im sure some other things will come along....the other thing is its not as easy to eat and track as well at someone elses house ... im a bit pathetic in i measure out EVERYTHING i weigh EVERYTHING its like a crazy addiction LOL

Regardless wherever i am i will be having a nice 11 days with lots of downtime and relaxing

Will be back after weigh in tomorrow....fingers & toes crossed ! lol

Back to work again...

Well back to the doldrums of work today...started at 7am...but only another 4 days of work and then i have 11 days off. Havent really decided what to do for my holidays...im partly tempted to go to streaky bay...my concern is the bus being crowded and my fat ass having to share a seat lol...id love to go there for 5 days or so...the kids are only holidays from school so could get plenty of time with them...ill have to decide pretty damn shortly !

I must say my self confidence is certainly improving. Its a very bizarre scenario for me to have someone tell me they "like me" I havent had that for years. One of my friends felicity said...can you believe all these people gathered together for your birthday? She was like...i wouldnt get this many together. And its been over the last 5 weeks or so that i am even started to consider myself "popular" i havent had friends for years...i either lost contact with people or simply just didnt have friends now suddenly...i have got friends...its taken me a while...but i think thats cos initially i can be quiet...but ultimately i think people can see i am not a player and have relatively high morals and once i get comfy my humour comes out. That in itself is a eye opener Ive always thought its the loud people who are popular and dont worry i can be bloody loud but not when I initially meet someone.

I havent been back to the gym...i need to get back and i know why i havent. I really am undecided about what to do about the dietician...part of me thinks talk to them and say i dont wanna see the dietician...and another part thinks oh just see her to keep the peace...i really am not one for confrontation....but i really do need at the very least to get back into my personal training sessions...and i am still keen to do boxing...decisions decisions !

Well just about time to go cook dinner...have a good nite all =]

Birthday Celebrations...

Well friday night was when we went out for my birthday and i had a FABULOUS night. There was 14 or 15 of us. We went to the local pub (called the wheaty) and hung out in the beer garden. They kept piling me with glasses of champagne in fact at one point I had 3 in front of me LOL and i kept saying .... but I have to work tomorrow...and everyone was like noooooooo your calling in sick! Then leigh bought me tequila shooters lol and i had to do the whole lick, sip & suck thing. The wheaty closed at midnight and then 4 of us headed into the mars bar, when we got there robyn (the girl i asked over for dinner) and felicity both ran into people they knew so me and leigh went off and danced...anyway we danced quite a bit...we were holding hands and stuff...(at one point she told me i have the softest hands she has ever held lol) anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyy we went and took a breather from the dancing and me and leigh were talking....when suddenly she says...i am getting over someone so wouldnt do anything at this point...but i have feelings for you...OMG ! you coulda knocked me over with a feather duster ! But you know a few drinks under me and i start to saying some silly things...anyway so with all the decorum of a ant i turn around and say...why when you can have any lesbian in adelaide would you go for the fat chick? lol...i still cant believe i said such a thing....but anyway...its nice we have chatted a lot the last few days and who knows what the future holds...regardless of anything i think i have a new friend which is always good =]

I got home after 3am ! and had to be up at 7.30am for work...and guess what? I did go to work ! lol im sure i looked pretty shabby...but the interesting thing was...i was talking to my frien joe....and teling him everything....and he said....you like leigh more then robyn tho don't you? I said at this stage yeh..to which he said...you can tell your whole demeanour is different today. My friend laura said to me you are putting the good vibes out there and so its coming back to you...all karma. So it was a great nite and I have posted a few of the pics from the night below....

Me & Leigh



Tracy and Laura (Two friends I went to school with)



Leigh and Robyn (yes the two who have my attention looking not so serious lol)



Leigh and Robyn again



Me and Felicity



Just me




Me having a drink




Me having a tequila shooter with Felicity and Leigh in the background

1.6 kilos babeeeeeeeee

yes its true 1.6 kilos ! I seriously did not expect to lose that much....there was even a wondering if i gained (seems kinda silly now lol) but the most i was realistically expecting was 800 grams...to double that is simply amazing...and I am now convinced it all comes down to weighing and tracking ! Combined with my 25 minutes of exercise i did 5 times last week.

Okies...so i have my eye on someone....they live local...we hang out a bit...have a nice friendship....and she is currently getting over her last relationship. Anyway, someone last nite said to her "if your head was in the right head space Id ask you out" WHO THE HELL TOOK OVER MY BODY AND SAID THAT??? wtf did that confidence come from???? LOL Anyway she told me not to discount her....shes not in the right head space at the moment...but to not discount it...so im all smiles today ;) A lil while later she said...ill have to come over sometime soon so u can watch this pink dvd...hehe...so i was like sure...u can come over for din din...so over the next week or so ill try and organise that!

Anyway my NYE is going to be quiet as i have to work at 8.30am tomorrow....you all have a good and SAFE new year....and more power to all of us with 2009 xox

Its my birthday....

Well have had a gorgeous day today....woke up to numerous emails saying happy bday as well as lots of messages on facebook...and the phone has recieved lots of text messages. We went out to lunch where i got my present from my sister which was the most awesome makeup kit...it includes everything...eyeshadows, lipstick, lip glosses, nail polish, lip & eye liner, rouge, mirror, every imaginable type of brush....its awesome i love it. At lunch i had the greek lamb salad...and it was divine .... so damn yummii !!! I had a great day and now the countdown to my nite out for my bday on friday...bring it onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !!!!

Okies i took some photos...taking photos is always such a reality check...sometimes i get lost over the fact i lost 25 kilos...and think im so much better off....and then i see the pics and think...yeh...i look a lil better....but no where near where i wanna be....and nowhere near as much in my head as i thought id be...anyway heres the pics...i will be back tomorrow with weigh in results...keep your fingers crossed !

The beginning of the journey:







Photos from December 30 2008:

Exercise points..

Wow...just checked my tracker....have done 12.5 points of exercise this week...a big improvement on last week as was only 5.5 points that week. My fingers are still crossed for a loss on wednesday...I realise last weeks loss of 5.1 kilos was huge...and my body may be thinking wtf? Also I have upped the exercise this week including some resistance and light weight work so I could be building muscle as well.

Tomorrow of course is my birthday...i am going out for lunch...ive checked the menu and am deciding between two options either Lamb fillet marinated in lemon, garlic & a blend of Greek spices. Cooked to your liking, served with salad greens, baby bocconcini, spanish onion, roma tomatoes, cucumber wafers. Finished with roasted capsicum & basil coulis or Chicken tenderloins marinated in cajun spices, grilled & served with baby cos leaves, oven baked pancetta, roma tomatoes, crunchy croutons & finished with a house made ranch dressing, i was gonna get the chicken salad but im kinda leaning towards the greek lamb salad...im figuring both would be around 10 points...decisions decisions lol I mite opt for the lamb salad cos i dont have red meat often so it mite be good to get some red meat in me.

Not a lot else going on...making a chicken burger tonite for dinner...with one of steggles chicken breast fillets (only 2.5 points and is crumbed =])

Oh airlie - so nice seeing u posting....do u still have a journal?

Im sure ill be back tomorrow...enjoy till then all =]

3 days off....

3 days off now...glorious...glorious...glorious...been really good foodwise again. Jumped on the scales tonite...and they dont look like ive lost...even wondering if i may be going to have a gain...ive been spot on with my food so the only thing i can think is cos I lost so much last week....my body is prolly balancing out...regardless im noticing the difference in my clothes...i will weigh myself tomorrow for more of a idea. But regardless I know Ive done nothing wrong...and will keep doing what i am doing.

We were really quiet yesterday and today at work thankfully...i played a lot of backgammon LOL

Have come under my points by half a point today so all good.

Finally got a call tonight from a guy coming to do maintenance work on the airconditioning - thank gawd ! The a/c is so freaking loud you turn it on and it sounds like a aeroplane about to take off...i dont turn it on cos its so noisy so will be good to be able to turn it on. So anyway he is coming 10.30am tomorrow morning...then in the afternoon need to go do the grocery shopping. I also decided as my "treat" for my bday since i dont wanna buy cake or anything....i will uy meringue egg nest and put some of the nestles chocolate dessert (the one for 1 point) and then pop strawberries on top...think that should do me quite nicely !

Okies off to watch the end of jerry mcguire before bed...ni ni all =]

Another day...

Had an awful dream last nite...dreamt i had all these warts on my stomach and they were growing...so i went to the doc the doc said...we need to operate to see if they are operable (like wtf???) and i said when do we need to operate? And she goes yesterday LOL...i woke up thinking okay damn weird

Managed to sleep in till 8.45am this morning wooo hooo. Am back at work today and tomorrow. Working 12pm-8pm. Walked for 30 minutes this morning. I am wearing the exs tshirt today...it sits quite loose on me...not baggy but not as firm fitting as it once was...so thats gotta be a good sign.

I am getting so good with my water drinking its not funny....which is so good cos thats something i normally struggle with. I am aiming for a kilo loss this week I think it is doable.

I also went and got fitted for new gym shoes by athelete foot the other day...they recommended New Balance Cross trainers 855 for oh a low $169.95 holy crap...i didnt buy any...but will wait till i see them on special or something (which mite be never haha !)

The day after....

Morning all =] My plans for the party arent going ahead....but its all good....i knew Robyns ex would be at the party and i was concerned last nite about that scenario...i spoke to her this morning and she thought it may seem antagonistic so we agreed i wouldnt go...she mentioned going to one on australia day tho and i am seeing her at my birthday so its all good.

I carried one point over from yesterday, which I am impressed with. I must say when i get to the end of the day and KNOW every morsel which has passed my lips has been tracked and i havent gone over my points is a really fulfilling feeling, this is unique for me as i have never felt confident in my tracking. Yesterday i ended up drinking about 4 litres of water...I am really coming to like that full feeling that drinking water gives me. Of course i was up a lot during the night going to the loo but its all good.

So today I am relaxing at home...watching some L word and later dr phil & oprah...hope everyone has a nice boxing day...

Merry Christmas Everyone

...well I have had a lovely day. Spent most of it watching L word. I made some low point truffles and also did 25 minutes of exercise. Taking my exercise points into account I head in tomorrow with 1 point saved ;) I had a 97% fat free turkey roll which was delicious. I woke up and went and got my presents and took them back to bed to unwrap...thats one pro to be alone eh? lol...My mum gave me money, and my sister and her family spoilt me. I got a watch, 2 lip gloss's, 2 necklaces (can we say BLING!) and a teatowel made by Danielles child care/kindergarten where all the babies hand prints were on it and all the kids who can draw...did a drawing on it with their names next to it....really cute and of course Danielles drawing was on it.

Then tonight I got a message from someone asking me wanting to know what time i was working saturday...once I told her,,,she asked me if i wanted to go to a party...telling me she would pick me up and get me home safe ;) so thats really quite exciting so have now had to quickly go thru the few clothes I bought over here and wash a top to wear LOL....I think we can really classify this as a good week ! And what I will do as well is take some photos before I leave tomorrow.

I hope it was a fab day for all =]

HOLEY MOLEY...

ok it was a good week and todays result capped the week off as GREAT ! Let me step u back to last nite first tho...came over to mums and they decided to have pizza...hmmmm okies...i had 10 points for the day left....7 points i had saved and 5.5 exercise points i could use....so i could have4 pieces. I decided on 4 pieces before we picked it up...and even when offered a 5th...said no...the garlic bread i also said no too =] This morning i noticed mum had a jar with chocolate covered honeycomb in the kitchen...so told her to lock them away LOL so they are all locked in her filing cabinet.

So this morning ventured into town...first i ventured to ezydvd....and scored series 6 of sex in the city for $30 and hooked up for $15,,,,i then ventured too insanity and got pink in europe for $15 and jillian michaels ultimate workout (3 dvds...beginners front side, beginners back, and cardio kickboxing) for $30 too....so by the time i got to ww i was pretty wrapped. Grabbed myself a bottle of water and went to the meeting. Where i bought my ww kitchen scales...omg they are so great....worked out my lunch with them...lol very impressed....and cos i spent over $20 I got a free cook book.....and then i got my REAL christmas present....i stepped on the scales...expecting a loss of around 3 kilos....welll.....*drumrollllllllllllll*.......i lost 5.1 KILOS ! HOLY MACARONI! Im wrapped...i am beyond happy and of course got my 5 kilo bookmark, and more then ever i am POSITIVE this is it...this is THE LAST time i will ever way 150 kilos....yay for me....im now 145.7...the goal for this week is to get under 145 kilos...i think its completely do-able. Bring it on !

Update : Did 25 minutes of Jillians Beginners Front Side ...2.5 points....and im sweating !

WOW @ potato gems

Well a lovely relaxing day at home today. Knew Id wake up damn early and i was awake a few minutes after 6am LOL

Mum messaged me last nite asked me to go over tonite...so decided mite as well start staying there as off tonite. She wants to show me where stuff is. im pretty much packed...did that earlier...have packed a pile of dvds...and mums got a computer so i should be fine.

So im over mums for dinner tonite ... i said what are you having? she was like....chicken drumsticks with french onion soul mix - tick...theyre fine....spinach and ricotta pastries...3 points a pastry...ok i can afford 2 of those....and potato gems...hmmmmm how much are they? well for 10 measley potato gems...which weigh only 9grams...where as a 100 gram potato is 1 point which i will cut into oven fries.

Im impressed with how ive done this week...i should finish the week with 7 points saved and 5.5 exercise points (gonna aim for 10 exercise points this week) I feel good...and deserve a good loss. Im confident of losing around 3 kilos will find out more tomorrow.

The gym sent me a xmas card today lol was hand written by my dietician...saying she was looking forward to catching up with me...lol...i will after xmas ring up and book PT sessions and a session with her for the week starting january 5. Also once the electricity bill has arrived and been paid (shouldnt be very big this quarter) i will book in for 10 weeks for the boxing PT sessions.

Anyway I will be back tomorrow...but in case you dont read my journal between now and then....i hope everyone has a fabulous xmas xox

Nearly there.....

YAY its my friday today ! I have 6 hours and 50 minutes to go till im off for 4 days (but whose counting eh? lol) I keep saying I cant wait to sleep in but Ive got a very strong suspicion I will be waking up bright and early. This morning my alarm was due to go off at 6.45am and i woke up and got up at 6.15am. I mite have to stay up till about 11pm or so tonite and that way ill prolly sleep in till at least 7am LOL

I am still going really good with my food. I have 7 points saved and may use one or two of them today as I am having the hot dog for lunch. I also have earned 5.5 exercise points (nothing huge i know but its all a step in the right direction) and every day i have drunk between 1.2-1.8 litres of water so thats getting pretty close to the mark too.

Seems I might have plans NYE but im still deciding on them. Their is a girls dance out at St Marys only problem is I have to work at 8am the following morning and at first i thought ill go and only stay till 12.15am-12.30amish but the more i think about it the more I think I may need to skip it...It will be so hard to get a taxi on the nite and i really will need absolute minimum 5-6 hours sleep. So still deciding on that...plus is only a few days later I am going out for my birthday so mite just save myself for that only lol

Okies not too much else to say...have a good day all =]

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WOOT 1 hour and 37 minutes to go ;)

We are deadly quiet at work today. They changed the roster this week so that a lot of people are off xmas day so we have a large number of staff in and so thankfully we are quiet. Anyway as we are quiet i decided to read back over some of my journal...i was reading the first half of this year....and realise how far I was from being in the right head space. There was a lot of moaning about past stuff, going from one program to another like i was changing my underwear lol (think i just my plan of action 4 times in January alone) i think i just wasnt damn happy. A while ago...novemberish i think it was i had a bit of a light bulb moment which i kept to myself...and that was about how im sick of playing the victim...sick of giving others the power...i wont allow myself to be the victim anymore...and i think thats got a lot to do with how my head is at the moment. I really am at a good place. Prolly for the first time EVER im truly following the program...im really seeing my daily points like money in the bank...and i cant overdraw the bank account...but i can do some extra work on the side for some bonus points. I am happy, I ahve finally got a bunch of friends....and its not people who just put up with me...its people who truly like me...i finally don't see me having a girlfriend as a fantasy...I know it will happen...when the time is right...the unprocessed foods is working for me...i dont eat hard cheese often (only on tacos for examples...not on toast or sandwiches and im a HUGE cheese lover), im not eating much processed foods...the odd ww ice cream or cookie...but i use to eat a LOT of muesli bars before - no more...my snacks are now bananas and mixed nuts....im eating spinich most nites ! And have grated carrot and grated zuchhini quite a bit (and like i said...not a vegetable person) now that im combining ww with my fernwood eating...im starting to work the program...i feel really proud of a lot of my current food choices...2.30pm and 1.8 litres of water has been drunk...and im TRACKING...so religiously it isnt funny...i know ive said it before but i am making this a huge focus. I feel now this is it the FINAL time...i am NEVER gonna be this weight again...im not gonna rejoin WW EVER again...its over...this whole roundabout is over...this xmas and 2009 is all about me babeeeee...When I weigh in every week over xmas i will record losses...theres no more excuses of "oh this one time wont matter"...no points = no food

I have set myself some goals...by January 31 I wanna be under 143 kilos by the ww scales, by December 31 I have set 3 goals...the minimum goal i will accept from myself is under 120 kilos....the next goal i am truly aiming for is 110 kilos and the fantasy goal is 100 kilos...obviously its a fantasy goal cos its quite possible i wont make it...if i got under 120 kilos i would be really happy tho...and i need that focus...those things to aim for.

Okies one hour and 15 minutes to go....and then 4 days off!

Sundayyyyyyyyy

I feel good today, really good. The scales are moving nicely and even tho i was at work bright and early i still am in a really good mood. I have tracked all of today food...and have 5 points left. So i think when i get home from work ill slot in a extra banana (ive got large ones at home) which will only leave me with 2.5 points. But as tomorrow work is doing hotdogs for lunch...i will use those points to enable me to have the hotdog.

Tonight I will do the biggest loser dvd and try to get all the way thru it. What I really need to do is get a few more dvds maybe the walk away the pounds so i can do different ones on different days

Its weird that now I have my head screwed on okay...some of the posts on the ww forums seem so ridiculous. The number of posts of i ate bad, or i gained or im off track...PLEASE HELP...now of course we get motivation from the forums and support and advice but how are we suppose to help? In all the times i have struggled i never once posted something like that...it pretty much sounds like whining...like someone is saying wahhhhhhhhhh find me a easy way to do this...

Tomorrow is my last day of work before my 4 days off weeeeeeeeeeee so friggin looking forward to them.

Also a reminder my journal is going private please please email me if you want to be able to view it after tuesday on princesskaryn@optusnet.com.au

okies off to do some work since thats what im here for ! lol

Things are going good !

Woke up bright and early today...15 minutes before my alarm went off (and was due to go off at 6.15am ) so im impressed...the good eating is obviously helping in me getting out of bed on time. I am being very strict about my tracking...like never before...I have always tracked in my head and not weighed things...and this would be my downfall I think...was shocked to discover a cup of uncooked pasta is 4.5 points i use to count it as 2-3 points and i would have way more then just a cup LOL I am still really impressed with me doing 34 minutes of the biggest loser DVD last nite..I think I have the walk away the pounds dvd at home too...if i do ill do that tonight...if not ill prolly do the biggest loser one again. I think the fact I have got it into my head that its 27 points per day no ifs or but is making a difference...altho...my points should drop down to 26 next week. I did jump on the scales this morning and showing a loss of around 1.4 kilos and while i realise thats fluid and not fat loss its all still a step in the right direction.

Its a gorgeous day..unfortunately tho i am working till 3.30pm and then back in early again tomorrow. I got invited out to the local pub last nite and tonite (by 2 different friends) but cant go too either...cos im just on too early a start.

I am gonna buy the ww points scales on wednesday at my meeting - im getting money for xmas so that will be my present...and i think they will be worth their weight in gold...specially when trying to measure out 5 grams of damn parmasan cheese !

Only 2 more days after today and I have 4 days off work weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i cannot wait...gonna be so friggin relaxing and xmas day is gonna be a big dvd watching day lol i checked on ezydvd's website this morning and dammit they are still out of stock of series 4 of L word...so mite have to purchase something else to keep me occupied xmas day.

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Exercise update (this mite become a regular thing lol) ,,,, put the music on and for 20 minutes danced in the living room....then i did 100 steps on the stepper...then did 20 reps with my lil weights.....20 reps in the 3 different arm movements...so all in all 28 minutes of exercise....yay me !

Back into it all

Had a real good day foodwise yesterday. I tracked religiously (believe it or not!) even my parmasan cheese...ever tried to weigh out 5 grams of that stuff? But anyway i feel much better already...that bloated feeling is gone. One of my many weakness's is savoury bakery items (like sausage rolls, pies, quiches etc) and I have a bakery on my street...anyway in the last week or so I have visited them regularly...and I have now noticed the difference in my bloating. Amazing tho one day of eating good and drinking the water (1.8 litres yesterday) and the bloating is gone and my jeans are sitting nice again. YAY

Last night I sat down and planned out todays menu...just gotta stop at coles on the way home and pick up some ww bacon, tonight im gonna make a pasta sauce with bacon, tomatos, chilli and lots of vegetables.

Its amazing how when you are in control of your eating you just feel better all round isnt it? Must be the empowerment of being in control

Only 3 work days left and i have 4 days off yippee....................ok have a good day all :)

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Woohooo I am sitting here sweating ! I decided after much talk about my biggest loser DVD to actually DO IT...last time i tried to do it...prolly 3 months ago i last 10 minutes of it...tonite 34 MINUTES BABEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i prolly could have gone a bit longer and dont laugh but one of my toes was cramping (gawd jody i can hear u laughing ur head off at that!) but its true...it was cramping and i didnt want it to get real bad....but wooo im so proud of me ! I am now gonna sit here and read my slimming & health magazine. Was invited out tonite to the pub but blast gotta start work at 7.30am and as no one was going out before 8.30pm had to skip it...but i must say i feel great...im religiously tracking, i exercised, i have a social life and i have 4 days off work next week plus my bday celebrations coming up - life is damn good !

Thinking

Well yanno it is a womans perogative to change their mind eh? Well no im not really changing my mind...just a slight different tact. I was reading thru the ww literature last nite and got to the point where it said about measuring yourself...hmmmmm lil hard to measure urself when u live alone...but i want those measurements done cos they are so important. This is one area where fernwood was better then ww in that they measured and did body fat. Now fernwood gave me their program free for 12 months so i still have 9 months of that left at no cost. So what i have decided is ... primarily i am following ww..and will religiously stick to the points but will primarily base my eating along the filling foods...but i will as well as being weighed at ww i will go to my appointments with fernwood so i will get measured and body fat measured as well. Also any week i cant make it to one of the sessions whether it be fernwood or ww i will still ahve the accountability for it for that week. Maybe some think its over the top but it makes sense to me.

There seems to be a slight change in the birthday plans...still going out for the drinks but at this stage prolly wont be staying in town on the nite (which to be honest mite not be a bad thing) I am contemplating maybe booking into a hotel on the nite of my actual birthday. At this stage I have absolutely nothing planned on the day...so would be nice to do something...anyone else got any other suggestions that wont kill the bank balance of something i can do on my own?

Okies off i go...dont forget - email if you want a invite to the journal as it will be going private as of tuesday !

Back to meetings....

Well...went to my meeting ! And i feel so motivated. There has been no meetings in the city for a year or so and they have moved to a new building...all painted...and spacey and all this great shelving where the products are all displayed. Really a nice fresh place for the meetings. Anyway i turned up...cos i had joined as unlimited they gave me a free basic starters kit, and for the first week cos these are new meetings they also gave us all a bag with a ww magazine, a journal and the latest cookbook - bargain ! Then they had a draw for a prize and i won that ! LOL so i got a book of menu plans and a points calculator. I have already logged on and filled out my tracker...i have done it...still have to measure a cup of raw pasta...but without that i still have 9 points spare....whcih by the time i add in the pasta and some snacks should lead me to be spot on. I am gonna take a tip from jo and not go over my points on any day,,,,no catching up on points the following days etc.

I ahd a whole day off work today...go back tomorrow and work 5 days before i get fourrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr days off for xmas...cannot wait ! I am house sitting...and am planning to just do lots of dvd watching...nothingoverly exciting but am looking forward to some relaxing time.

I have had quite a few emails about getting access for my blog once it gets private, and of course everyone who emailed me will get a invite :) im flattered you all read my dinky mutterings...so dont forget if u want access after tuesday to email me at princesskaryn@optusnet.com.au and also...a couple of people commented that they lurked...and i just wanna say i dont care if u lurk...i dont care if people dont post comments...i am really flattered you read...

Okies time for house ! enjoy ur nite all =]

Signed up for unlimited !

Well I signed up for unlimited online today ! Im excited ! Im tired of the whole roundabout of weight loss...I want to get this weight shifted for good. I think I will primarily stick to my plan I was doing at fernwood but increasing it so i am eating enuff points. I had a play around earlier...interesting a lot of the "filling" foods I was already eating...I like how they highlight them in the tracker tho. I am going to a meeting lunch time tomorrow...and planning to do my biggest loser dvd in the morning (now my lounge room is all clear and tidy LOL)

Ive started playing backgammon again, I ahvent played it for ages. Mainly cos the tournaments i play in are in a US chat program and it costs like $12 US a month which with the dollar going down i decided cost too much. But a friend has given me a chat name on his account :) so now i can go in and play for free which is a bonus. I always find things like that relaxing and I love playing gammon altho its so long since i played i seriously suck at it at the moment LOL

Like jaxx i am going to make my journal private. I seriously dont know who reads the journal...and i think by making it private it would be more open...so if you want to be added to the private list email me on princesskaryn@optusnet.com.au and i will get u added....Ill be setting it all up to private monday or tuesday of next week.

The plans for the hotel room for the night of my bday celebrations has changed a lil. We are now talking about organising a 2 bedroom apartment...theres at least 3 of us planning on it...and I have asked a fourth friend along as well...you think 4 lesbians in a hotel will get up to a few hijinks? Im thinking so after a drink or two LOL

Not a lot else going on...having a good day all...only 2 more hours and im on a day off wooohooo

Its a new week....

Well yay inspection is over ! It all went really well...they are looking at putting a new dual system in one of the toilets and also they are going to reimburse me for the fluro lights i had to go buy. The landagent is really nice...she was here for about 45 minutes a lot of that time just chatting.

I was suppose to go to WW tonite..but i discovered they now have EIGHT meetings in the city....so am going to go there instead on wednesday on my day off. The gym emailed me today and said my membership will recommence on 2/1 but my first debit wont be till 10/1.

I have decided whilst I am going back to ww....im not gonna be going to the forums. There are just too many rude and condescending people on it....that combined with how segregated the forum has become I dont think its anything I would gain from.

Birthday plans are coming along nicely...I have invited a bunch of friends to the wheaty....and a friend Leigh has pretty much convinced me to book into a hotel for the night. I am suppose to work the next day...but fingers crossed i can get a shift swap and have the next day off...then if i do....woooo hoooo look out adelaide...kazz may end up being led astray :)

Okies....I also do xstitch...havent done any in ages....but am gonna order a new pattern this week....still trying to decide between two...so im gonna attach the links..would love any feedback or thoughts on which people like the better out of the two

1. Design One
2.Design Two

Okies off i go....have a good nite all =]

Xmas presents and other stuff...

Well work was very good and gave me half a day off on monday for the inspection. So im off tomorrow...off sunday and finish work at 11am on monday and then have wednesday off...not bad eh? lol Today I cleaned up the living room...dusted...pulled out the lounge etc vaccuumed behond it all also washed the coffee table cover etc...so apart from putting away the clothes airer and putting away a couple of things that room is already. Which was the main room to clean...ive only gotta vac the bedrooms, do the kitchen floor, the bathroom, and sweep out in the courtyard....so i will get all that done sunday afternoon...altho i mite do some tomorrow afternoon too.

Tomorrow morning i have to go out and do the grocery shopping then i have to dash into town and buy a new fluro tube for the second bathroom...then in the afternoon going over to mums to drop off the kids xmas presents so she can take them with her. Buying the xmas presents for the kids in the morning and i saw online target has 20% off toys till wednesday which is a bonus.

Then of course monday nite im going back to ww....have been reading the boards they start to introduce the new plan this week so my timing is good...theyre also opening one of the ww myer centres in adelaide in febuary which will help for the occassional week i cant get to meetings.

This weekend i work saturday and have nothing else planned apart from housework which im looking forward too...its expensive going out every friggin weekend. The rain is bucketing down at the moment i hope it bloody well settles down enuff so that i dont get drenched when going out in the morning.

Well thats enuff for tonite....i will be back monday or tuesday nite to let u all know how the inspection and ww went =]

Me at goal??? lol

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Its tuesday !

Woke up yesterday morning and my eyeballs ached...seems weird huh? Anyway so off to the doc i went turns out it was just eyestrain, whilst there tho i had a chat to him about my moods. When i look back my moods have prolly got worse over the last 9 months or so but the up & downess of them all has got worse over the last 3 months. An example is yesterday i was like...thats it im quitting work...i dunt wanna go in there and deal with it anymore...today i cant even believe i was thinking like that. Ive also noticed when i compare my journal entries especially over the last few months to back to late 2006.... i am thinking too much...i am focussing on too much instead of going with the flow, anyway i have prolly been having one or two days per week where i am really down, and even getting very frustrated and angry towards people (which is not like me) so anyway me and the doc chatted and he has put me back on the meds, i feel like this is a good move...so will start taking them once i fill the script on thursday.

The inspection of my unit is on monday...i have thursday, friday and sunday off so plenty of time to get everything spick and span (altho in reality theres not much to do) ive asked for a shift swap on monday but if that cannot be worked in...i will work 7am-11am and then scoot home the inspection will occurr anytime between 12.30pm and 3pm. And then that night i will be returning back to ww.

I am all quite content about spending xmas day/eve by myself now. I have a small and not a very good kitchen whilst ill be staying at my mums she has a nice kitchen...good oven etc...so im planning xmas eve to just do a pile of baking which i will take home and freeze. Xmas day will do the L word thing.

Okies thats enuff blabbler for today... enjoy all

Another weekend bites the dust

Well its late sunday afternoon and the weekend is nearly over =[ That said i have thursday, friday, sunday and (hopefully) monday off over the next 8 days

Got home friday nite didnt feel like going out and there was a letter from the land agent sayingits time for another inspection which is monday the 15th between 12.30pm-3pm I am hoping work will give me either a shift swap or a annual leave day...cos no way im not gonna be here with someone in my house. SO once i read that and was buggered friday nite i thought no not going out...so texted a couple of friends to let them know. Well lol one friend hassled me to death till i agreed to go...so i went. And i had a fun night. I got a lil drunk (ok quite drunk) but it wasnt my fault ! I walked in some friends saw me just as they were buying some shooters so they bought me one, i then bought a glass of champagne (only one i bought all nite) then a friend bought me a few more glasses....then a friend of a friend bought me a couple of cocktails...then my friend bought me MORE champagne..but it was fun i danced with a few different women, listened to some good music it was all good. There is some more stuff to say but at this point ill shut my mouth ;)

SO saturday morning i had a hangover...ok people....all u ww'ers...whats your hangover cures???? Then all weekend i have been slowly doing ALL the washing (including all the things i think each week...i cant be bothered with washing that this week ie the housecoat) and picking up stuff. Pretty much all i need to do it get the new fluro light and vacuum, dust and mop the day before and then on the day sweep out the bag and wash the front and back door down and im ready for the inspection.

A week tomorrow i go back to ww and im excited already...i really am...im looking forward to more cooking and doing the weight loss plan while fitting in to what has become quite a busy social life

Okies off i go ... enjoy all !

YAY its friday

Got up this morning...pulled on the jeans and oooeeerrr thee tight....so even though i ahvent stepped on the scales im guessing ive put on about 2-3 kilos. As i walked to work i got thinking about it all...and was thinking oh well in the new year ill be back at ww...but stuff that...im gonna go back before xmas. Id go this monday night except finances are a lil tight this week due to a ridiculously high electricity bill lol so would have to wait till 15th december...which i know mite sound a lil strange starting right before xmas but i think its wise to do.

I also thought about the wii some more...and my brain is really struggling to justify spending $500 on it so think i will get the gym shoes as well as buy the ww scales. I will try whenever i can to go to the tuesday mornign ww meeting cos SA's best leader lol christina takes that meeting last i heard...and when i cant ill go monday evening. The more i think about it the more i think its the right decision...i can work my social life in with it which has been a huge stumbling block with the fernwood plan.

Tonite there is a girls nite on at the old beanz bar which i will prolly go to...i tell u i have completely forgotten what its like to have a complete weekend at all...thankfully no plans saturday and sunday ... apart from housework and moving into the other bedroom not planning to do a great deal...will prolly do some dvd watching i suspect and also i have lots of books i havent read so will go thru them mite start to do some reading...also mite put some books ive read and a couple of tops that no longer fit me on to ebay...give me a lil extra cash ;)

Well not a great deal else to say...off to have my weetbix...have a good friday all !

Today...

Tomorrow nite there is another girls nite out (yes another one lol) so trying to decide whether to go...i think i will as seems EVERYONE is going...and always good to support these kind of events. Someone i like is going and i have a suspicion someone else who likes them is going lol...so thats made me a lil tentative but i am sure i will go (plus felicity says she is going to nag me via text LOL) Its at hindley street at some old club called beans and has a dj...dj lush (who i think ive heard off before) and lots of my friends are going so should be good.

Sent out invites for my birthday via facebook & emails yesterday. So far I have 9 people going ! OMG -dies of shock- and so far no one has said no altho i know one or two wont be able to make it (its a chit time of the year to celebrate ya birthday in all honesty) AND the girl i like sent her a invite and shes replied back already that she is going to come as well...woo hoo =] that maybe a good sign LOL

Im still contemplating things I will spend my xmas money on...and as well as the gym shoes or bike the thought of a wii is a very definite option...id prolly have to put it on layby....but i could pay 50% off it in the days after xmas at least...and then hopefully have it within a month or so...its not gonna replace the gym or anything but would be good to have something fun to increase the incidental exercise.

This weekend i am planning to get into the baking...gonna make a big lot of lasagne (from STGTBT books) and mite even make some scrolls which i havent had in forever.

Work is relatively quiet today (touch wood) so hopefully it continues to be a good day...when i get home tonite im putting a colour thru my hair need to cover a couple of grey hairs that are peeking out LOL

Okies not much else going on...back to the grindstone...enjoy =]

Thinking...

Well i am moving bedrooms this weekend...my neighbours are driving me nuts ! I am not sure if they are incredibly loud or just my previous neighbour was incredibly quiet. I never use to hear my old neighbour...it was bliss...these ones i hear the snoring...i can hear them talking in the bedroom in the morning...and last nite they were outside about 10pm at night talking...and i was in my bedroom which is on the first floor and i could hear them ... they were loud enough that id been asleep and it woke me up. So thats this weekends task to move the bedrooms around.

Last nite was in chat and was asked if i am going to this girls nite on friday nite...i was like no (jsut paid my $480 electricity bill - eek) and it was the first time id said no to going out...and i think that i need to get thru my head that its ok to sometimes say no.

Ive been thinking a lot about the weight loss thing...and have come to the conclusion that fernwoods way is a diet not a lifestyle. I said the other week to her...this plan is very restrictive...and she agreed and then said but it needs to be or you wont lose. And i understand what shes saying but i think its TOO restrictive. I went to sparkpeople.com yesterday and they say i should be eating 1800-2200 calories per day, the plan fernwood has me on is 1700 calories. Now I think there plan has a lot of pluses about it and i have eaten more vegetables on a daily basis then ever before and my carb proprtions are at a good level (not excessive like before) but i suspect i need more protein. I am thinking maybe i need to take what theyve taught me about food groups etc (something i never focussed on before) and use that in conjunction with ww. Whilst I wanna do that I am also worried about the reaction of fernwood....i know the next time i walk into fernwood and see eve shes gonna be on to me to find out when i am seeing her next. So thats a lil concern but when I go back I will prolly book a time to see Hannah who does all the membership stuff to organise my second PT session a week for 10 weeks and maybe speak to her about it all. I think possibly when I am down around 100 kilos the fernwood eating plan would make sense but not right now...i really need to be focussing on "its a lifestyle" They have a meeting at 7pm on monday nites (which i could make 5 out of 7 weeks) and the other 2 weeks...i could try and organise a shiftswap or at the very least make it one out of them at the tuesday morning session. Or i could just follow the ww plan on my own and see even to be weighed and measured...only problem with that is i feel like im "cheating on her" if you get my drift. So as you can see weight loss isnt about to fall by the way side...its actually getting a lot of thought and i really want 2009 the year that really makes the difference.

Okies not much else to say !


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I was reading Joamys journal today and she had posted her first ever entry...so I was curious went back to my first entries (august 06 when i first seriously joined ww) and i noticed a couple of things...firstly i was eating well...my food was 100% and i was drinking my water...but i was having treats...there was mention of ww desserts and fruit muffins...but i was having BIG losses (as high as 3.5 kilos per week) so obviously my body has the ability to lose...it also convinces me more that ww is the way to go...i was embracing "lifestyle" i was still fitting in work functions and the odd nite out at the pub...so i think in the new year thats the first thing...more then anything...i need to not do "fernwoods diet" and instead do "wws lifestyle" I was also baking more...utilising the STGTBT books...which i havent recently so thats the other thing and increase my activity. For xmas my mum always gives me money...ive been thinking what to spend it on and am divided...one half says use it to go get fitted for new gym shoes...the other half of me says go buy a bicycle with it...decisions decisions...i never had a bike as a kid...my mum refused to buy me one as she said i was too dangerous on them...id love to get one...but worried about injuring myself....so will have to give that some more thought.

Tanias comments to my post a few days back got me thinking. Saw it when I got home from work tonite...grabbed my slimming & health magazine...and went for a soak in a tub. The magazine anyway had a story about "tough love" with yourself. It got me thinking,,,maybe i am simply feeling sorry for myself? And maybe my self talk has fallen by the way side? When I first started ww i did a lot of self talk to get my head in the right place. And at the time it worked. Now suddenly I am getting stuff I want but i am still not happy???? I have been completely focussed lately on going back so my solitude life would be the easy option...but why is that even coming up as a option? Its time to change my thinking....time to stop questioning what I am doing...and just DO

For the remainder of this month without the gym...im simply gonna stick to being healthy and hopefully returning back to the gym at the same weight. Its time to get a old fashioned diary and keeping a diligent record of my food and exercise. Its time to set some goals...weight and non weight ones. I also need to talk to my dietician....when i went in the other week i said i wanted to weigh in more then once a month that i needed the accountability and she said we will go to weighing fortnightly....but when I go back i need to tell her i want to be weighed once a week. I need to take the option of going back to my old lifestyle out of the occassion. I mean lets admit it life is pretty damn good at the moment...i have friends...i have a actual social life...work is going fine...and a new year is only a month away....nearly time for more new beginnings...new goals. I need to be consistent with setting monthly goals as well as some longer term goals. Was funny I wrote this post last nite and had thought of some things i wanna achieve and saw jaxxs journal and saw some the same as she has added to her journal (specifically the 500 grams per week to lose 26 kilos) So i will work on that later and add over the next few days.

Feel quite good today...work has now managed to give me 4 days off over xmas...im over my moodiness about xmas. I am planning to have a "L word" day on xmas day...just sit down and watch all 3 series I have and it kinda works good having the 4 days off cos its a bit of a pain getting to work from mums house.

Okies not much else going on..byessssss

Went to the feast picnic yesterday and had a nice day, altho I am sunburnt...specially on my foot - ouch!

I sent a email off to the gym yesterday telling them i want to suspend my membership for the month of december. I feel quite blah about it and dont have the same level of enthusiasm I had a few months ago,,,,maybe its the time of the year??? Or maybe its just me being me lol The thing is also the gym is closed quite a few days this month or on restricted times it seems silly to pay...and this way I will have a real break that will hopefully regenerate my enthusiasm. When I go back in January the plan is to do two PT sessions a week for 10 weeks and really kick start the losses. The other thing I wonder about is the meal plan...its 1700 calories (or is that kilojoules) im pretty sure i should be having around 2000 per day so i wonder if thats led me to finding it lately quite restrictive...what i need to do is sit down and do a bit of research. The thing is if i modify there plan at all..i feel guilty when i hand in my food diary each week. I even wonder if maybe i should just follow ww taking into account of eating the right food groups...cos at least that way u are eating the right amount for your weight. So my thought is maybe get ww online but the etools but go to the gym for weigh ins...its a thought....

Yesterday was a good relaxing day. I enjoyed it...lots of people watching. Friday nite there is a girls dance in the city which I am debating going. Of course the golden dance is the week after so i have another golden dance coming up...but this weekend is CLEAN UP weekend...my house needs a good clean...good dust n all that crap. I now also have 4 days off over xmas...im now starting to look forward to 4 days of downtime. Thing xmas day mite turn into a major dvd watching day LOL. I saw at darrall leas they have mini xmas puddings for one person...so think I will prolly pick one of them up closer to the day and prolly on xmas eve just pick up a roast chicken (they have mexican flavoured ones at my local chicken shop) with some salads...at least i wont be tempted this year to nibble on crap ! LOL