Well I was drawn back to this blog. I like making you tube...but its very VERY time consuming. I was looking back thru this journal...back mid 2010. It kinda woke me up. The basics. Calorie Count. Calorie cycle. Eat mostly wholefoods. Fit in some treats. Sleep 8 hours a night. Attend the gym most days.
Yesterday I finally decided to just get off my ass and go do a les mills class. I went to the gym - I jumped on the cross trainer for 25 minutes and then did a 60 minute body pump class. It reminded me so much of how it use to make me feel. I really do like the classes. I like the format. I am confident in them (specially pump) im far from perfect in them and may struggle occassionally especially when going from standing up to down to the ground and back up again....but if i am a fraction slow....thats ok. I think i just prefer the classes...they feel productive and combined with some cardio it just works....thats how i exercised all those years ago. So now ive done that....and i was surprised! When i did pump last time was like well over 6 months ago. It was a struggle. I felt weak by the second track...i just didnt have the endurance or fitness for it. But last night....i did it....and did it easily there was definitely no tiredness. Now that said...as i have just got over my neck injury...and hadnt done it a while...but i did do light weights...so now...its to try and go 1-2 times a week for pump....and slowly increase the weights. So now its time to incorporate a few classes :) I think the next few weeks i am going to try and incorporate pump, body balance and RPM as much as I can. And then once I get past those....I will expand to include yoga, booty barre (I have no idea how hard that is!),cxworx, active tone and active core.
Foodwise....its honestly not hard! Calorie cycle...eating a average of 1650 calories per day. Sleeping 8 hours a night. Doing that...and ill be much healthier and ultimately lose weight.
Tomorrow I work and then I have sunday off. So i wont get to the gym tomorrow but sunday I will. So sunday will be pump and then 25-30 minutes of cardio.
Also i have booked a body scan for september 14 and then will again mid november. My "holiday" from weight loss is over. No more debating do i go to the gym each day....in the words of nike...just do it!
Friday, September 02, 2016
Saturday, June 18, 2016
Where can you find me?
I have decided to continue with a blog, but have set up my own domain as well as a you tube channel! YAY. You can find my first you tube video at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kyOnFXlbHNQ and you can find the new blog at Kazzs Journey currently there is no posts on the website but I will start posting there from tomorrow - so keep a look out :)
Monday, May 30, 2016
Time for change
I had a big think about things last night following writing that post about the gym, and something i am more and more aware of is i no longer have the ability to be authentic on this journal. I "edit" too much because I am too concerned about who might read a post and what people might think. So i have decided to leave the blog for the moment. I have never desired to be "social media" famous. So for the moment, I wont be posting on here, i am deleting facebook (apart from messenger as thats how family contact me) and also be stepping away from socialising. I want to focus simply on me, weight watchers, food preparation, the gym and work - nothing else.
Sunday, May 29, 2016
All things gym.
I ummed and ahhed a lot about posting this and I may end up deleting it or not publishing it lol
Gym experiences. We all have them and some of us have some horror stories. I must admit in my time at gyms until very recently i never had any bad experiences. I certainly was anxious over attending the gym and i personally thought everyone was looking at me and judging me...but of course that wasnt the case.
When I quit my old gym i stated on the blog i was sick of travelling, felt anxious about attending the gym, and needed a gym with more flexible hours. This was all true. I wanted to share this story to show even if something does happen....it doesnt mean you throw your fitness journey in. I hadnt actually told anybody about this till last night...and after i told Martine i kinda knew it was something i should post about.
So I was in a session a group session which was a circuit. I did the first exercise, that was all fine. I then moved on to the second exercise. It was a exercise I cannot do and attempting it would have actually put me at risk of injury. So i called over the instructor....she set up a different exercise for me...i did one or two reps and then it was time to move on to the next exercise. But what happened a female who was on the exercise next to me turned around and said "wait she didnt do her exercise" OMG i seriously wanted to die. Yes i know i didnt do as many reps as i should have but up till that moment i was simply proud to be in that group session...and to speak up when i had something i knew i couldnt do. By the end of the week I had been giving it a lot thought, mostly to the demographics of the gym and did i fit in anymore. I had felt pulled back to this gym many times. I had my success at it 2008-2011. And while i had left and gone to a different gym a few times...I felt connected to this gym. But what ive realised over the last few weeks...it wasnt the gym that helped me...it was fiona...pure and simple. The gym is the same building...but it has changed over time..and I felt i no longer fit into those demographics. The gym i joined i have been a member of before. I am going back to someone I trained with before...I always liked training with her...i only left cos i felt my success was tied to my old gym. This gym has both males and females...and yes it has plenty of females size 10-12 it also has plenty of people on their weight loss journey....and various ages. Going back to the comment that person said about me not having done the full exercise..here is my thought....you or i are not obligated in any group session to do every set or rep. There is no requirement for you to keep up with the person next to you...only person you need to keep up with is yourself. I put this comment down to the age of this person. BUT if you are at a gym or fitness centre where you encounter anything similar...YOU are in control....put yourself in a environment that is right for you, try to remove the emotions of it all and decide where you will get the most success from....but dont let any person stop you from your fitness journey.
I just watched a video clip where 7 of the ex US biggest losers discussed the study that came out recently about how their metabolism was damaged after being on biggest loser. Partly they were discussing how they have neglected weight training (and in fact one mentioned they lost 21lbs of muscle whilst on biggest loser) and we know the more muscle we have the better our metabolism works. Now i have done weight training for years, altho I was definitely stronger 5 years ago. Anyway the biggest loser peeps said something interesting ... "cardio is my comfort zone" and thats so true. Sure the treadmill isnt my comfort zone....but going especially on the cross trainer or outside walking...is definitely a comfort zone with me. With going back to the gym this week (Candice messaged me this morning so sure i will have at least one session with her this morning) I am going to step out of that comfort zone. As much as I am going to focus on my eating with weight watchers...I am also going to focus on becoming stronger which inevitably will mean my muscle is improving. If Candice sets me programs to do in the weights area (she prolly will) then so be it i will do it - time to set out of my comfort zone. Simple as that.
Gym experiences. We all have them and some of us have some horror stories. I must admit in my time at gyms until very recently i never had any bad experiences. I certainly was anxious over attending the gym and i personally thought everyone was looking at me and judging me...but of course that wasnt the case.
When I quit my old gym i stated on the blog i was sick of travelling, felt anxious about attending the gym, and needed a gym with more flexible hours. This was all true. I wanted to share this story to show even if something does happen....it doesnt mean you throw your fitness journey in. I hadnt actually told anybody about this till last night...and after i told Martine i kinda knew it was something i should post about.
So I was in a session a group session which was a circuit. I did the first exercise, that was all fine. I then moved on to the second exercise. It was a exercise I cannot do and attempting it would have actually put me at risk of injury. So i called over the instructor....she set up a different exercise for me...i did one or two reps and then it was time to move on to the next exercise. But what happened a female who was on the exercise next to me turned around and said "wait she didnt do her exercise" OMG i seriously wanted to die. Yes i know i didnt do as many reps as i should have but up till that moment i was simply proud to be in that group session...and to speak up when i had something i knew i couldnt do. By the end of the week I had been giving it a lot thought, mostly to the demographics of the gym and did i fit in anymore. I had felt pulled back to this gym many times. I had my success at it 2008-2011. And while i had left and gone to a different gym a few times...I felt connected to this gym. But what ive realised over the last few weeks...it wasnt the gym that helped me...it was fiona...pure and simple. The gym is the same building...but it has changed over time..and I felt i no longer fit into those demographics. The gym i joined i have been a member of before. I am going back to someone I trained with before...I always liked training with her...i only left cos i felt my success was tied to my old gym. This gym has both males and females...and yes it has plenty of females size 10-12 it also has plenty of people on their weight loss journey....and various ages. Going back to the comment that person said about me not having done the full exercise..here is my thought....you or i are not obligated in any group session to do every set or rep. There is no requirement for you to keep up with the person next to you...only person you need to keep up with is yourself. I put this comment down to the age of this person. BUT if you are at a gym or fitness centre where you encounter anything similar...YOU are in control....put yourself in a environment that is right for you, try to remove the emotions of it all and decide where you will get the most success from....but dont let any person stop you from your fitness journey.
I just watched a video clip where 7 of the ex US biggest losers discussed the study that came out recently about how their metabolism was damaged after being on biggest loser. Partly they were discussing how they have neglected weight training (and in fact one mentioned they lost 21lbs of muscle whilst on biggest loser) and we know the more muscle we have the better our metabolism works. Now i have done weight training for years, altho I was definitely stronger 5 years ago. Anyway the biggest loser peeps said something interesting ... "cardio is my comfort zone" and thats so true. Sure the treadmill isnt my comfort zone....but going especially on the cross trainer or outside walking...is definitely a comfort zone with me. With going back to the gym this week (Candice messaged me this morning so sure i will have at least one session with her this morning) I am going to step out of that comfort zone. As much as I am going to focus on my eating with weight watchers...I am also going to focus on becoming stronger which inevitably will mean my muscle is improving. If Candice sets me programs to do in the weights area (she prolly will) then so be it i will do it - time to set out of my comfort zone. Simple as that.
Do you.
Last night was a lovely meal and i stuck to my daily points. For dinner i had "bo la lot" (ithink thats what its called Lol) its lil bits of mince wrapped in leaves, followed by a chicken and cashew stirfry. We then went to a local place called cocolat and had a skim hot chocolate and martine bought me 2 lil bliss balls she had made.
I was home by 9.30pm and tucked up in bed before long. This morning i have woken and while i dont feel sick i also dont feel 100%. So im super glad i did the shopping and washing yesterday....so my plan is just to keep warm and rest today.
Ive been reflecting a lot on my last weight loss journey the last few days and what worked. And one of the things is about "owning my journey". Ive always felt its important to own my journey, my personality is quite independant. I think having online support and even meeting support with a leader is good....but when it comes to the actual journey for ME its very important to own it, put a bubble around me, rely on no one else but me. I dont have that desire to workout with others....to attend weight watcher meetings with others....its very important to me....that this be about "me time". Apart from attending a body pump class once with tania...ive always done workouts by myself....and i think that bubble has really gone around me and i am going to focus on me and no one else (I think this is important for everyone...we all should individually own it...and most importantly not compare). What someone else does....what someone else thinks/says....is not something we should take on...do YOU...no one else.
Ok its nearly 9.30am and i havent eaten yet! Time to find some food....enjoy all! :)
I was home by 9.30pm and tucked up in bed before long. This morning i have woken and while i dont feel sick i also dont feel 100%. So im super glad i did the shopping and washing yesterday....so my plan is just to keep warm and rest today.
Ive been reflecting a lot on my last weight loss journey the last few days and what worked. And one of the things is about "owning my journey". Ive always felt its important to own my journey, my personality is quite independant. I think having online support and even meeting support with a leader is good....but when it comes to the actual journey for ME its very important to own it, put a bubble around me, rely on no one else but me. I dont have that desire to workout with others....to attend weight watcher meetings with others....its very important to me....that this be about "me time". Apart from attending a body pump class once with tania...ive always done workouts by myself....and i think that bubble has really gone around me and i am going to focus on me and no one else (I think this is important for everyone...we all should individually own it...and most importantly not compare). What someone else does....what someone else thinks/says....is not something we should take on...do YOU...no one else.
Ok its nearly 9.30am and i havent eaten yet! Time to find some food....enjoy all! :)
Saturday, May 28, 2016
The realisation
So i weighed in yesterday morning and lost 2.5 kilos :) Then sadly tho, as I start at meetings on monday i kinda got in the "i can not track this weekend cos its a fresh start on monday" UGH. So anyway i go to the shops...buy a pile of crap foot. Come home....put a pizza in the oven and some garlic bread.....started to eat it....and apart from how damn salty it tasted i realised i just dont want to eat like this anymore. This isnt the life I want.
When i woke this morning...i went thru all the food i had bought and most of it i threw out. I had some sliced cheese, english muffins and 1 sausage roll and 1 meat pie which i kept. The sausage roll and pie i can prolly fit into my eating one day for a lazy treat.
So today back on track.This evening i am going out for dinner to one of my favourite restaurants. Its a asian fusion place and i always have the same thing LOL. this lil tiny mince things in some leaf that you dip in a chilli sauce....(they are seriously tiny) which i will point at 5 points (in reality its prolly closer to 3 points but thats ok) and a chicken cashew stir fry which i will track as 7 points (3 points for the chicken, 3 points for the cashews and 1 point for the sauce) I dont have rice with it. Which means i can eat out tonight without using any weekly points which is definitely my plan today!
Apart from that i am planning to chill today, watch youtube, do some washine and housework before catching up with Martine for dinner tonight....enjoy all! :)
When i woke this morning...i went thru all the food i had bought and most of it i threw out. I had some sliced cheese, english muffins and 1 sausage roll and 1 meat pie which i kept. The sausage roll and pie i can prolly fit into my eating one day for a lazy treat.
So today back on track.This evening i am going out for dinner to one of my favourite restaurants. Its a asian fusion place and i always have the same thing LOL. this lil tiny mince things in some leaf that you dip in a chilli sauce....(they are seriously tiny) which i will point at 5 points (in reality its prolly closer to 3 points but thats ok) and a chicken cashew stir fry which i will track as 7 points (3 points for the chicken, 3 points for the cashews and 1 point for the sauce) I dont have rice with it. Which means i can eat out tonight without using any weekly points which is definitely my plan today!
Apart from that i am planning to chill today, watch youtube, do some washine and housework before catching up with Martine for dinner tonight....enjoy all! :)
Thursday, May 26, 2016
May 26
Things continue to go good :)
I signed up for the new job. As i was transferring from another gym and had to pay a early contract ending fee and 30 days notice...the new gym is giving me 3 months free :) Cannot complain about that! They also gave me a guest pass for 12 months so i can bring someone to workout on friday, saturdays or sundays. Also any programs they run (like 12week challenges etc i get 20% discount)
As to Kathies question....for where work currently is...i stay on the bus a extra 3 stops and the bus drops me out the front of the gym! Once work moves into the city...it will be part way between work and home (a 20 minute walk to home) but there is a additional club in the city around the corner from where work will be located. Opening hours are much better, considering my work hours will be crazy...the one near home closes 9.30pm weekdays...and open 7-5pm saturday and 8-4 on sundays...and when i spoke to them they told me the operating hours will never decrease....only increase. So at this point just waiting to hear from my trainer to organise a time to catch up then organise things from there :)
Food wise did good today. We had training all day today and there was lollies in the training room...i had some but I pointed them all :) So another day spot on with my points, oh and I had cauliflower soup today...so yummy....ok blogger is lagging ...so im off!!!
I signed up for the new job. As i was transferring from another gym and had to pay a early contract ending fee and 30 days notice...the new gym is giving me 3 months free :) Cannot complain about that! They also gave me a guest pass for 12 months so i can bring someone to workout on friday, saturdays or sundays. Also any programs they run (like 12week challenges etc i get 20% discount)
As to Kathies question....for where work currently is...i stay on the bus a extra 3 stops and the bus drops me out the front of the gym! Once work moves into the city...it will be part way between work and home (a 20 minute walk to home) but there is a additional club in the city around the corner from where work will be located. Opening hours are much better, considering my work hours will be crazy...the one near home closes 9.30pm weekdays...and open 7-5pm saturday and 8-4 on sundays...and when i spoke to them they told me the operating hours will never decrease....only increase. So at this point just waiting to hear from my trainer to organise a time to catch up then organise things from there :)
Food wise did good today. We had training all day today and there was lollies in the training room...i had some but I pointed them all :) So another day spot on with my points, oh and I had cauliflower soup today...so yummy....ok blogger is lagging ...so im off!!!
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Update
Things are going so good :)
After using 22 of my weekly points my aim this morning was to not gain and i didnt....was exactly the same as yesterday...so 126.6 kilos.
So sticking to ww is going so good....so good in fact I decided to bite the bullet and change my membership to meetings...and I will start meetings on monday :) I am feeling so good where the weight watchers is good....and i am sticking to it so well.
I thought more on the gym today and made some decisions. Ill be completely honest....i have one main reason for needing to attend the gym and thats excess skin. My excess skin was bearable when I lost the weight before but i would not want it to be any worse. So whilst i dont love the gym...I need to attend. I did think about doing DVDs at home...but lets face it i dont have the dedication for that lol. I then considered a 24/7 gym (cos lets face it it would be super cheap) but i need support...classes etc. So a few days ago i came to the conclusion i would need a trainer still. I had to decide between a personal training studio and a gym with a trainer. And i ended up going for a gym with a trainer. I spoke to them today and they have advised since i am in a contract with another gym...(which i have cancelled and only have 30 days left off) while thats going on they wont charge me for a membership. As to personal training...the gym is goodlife (where ive been a member before) and so the plan is to go back to training with candice :) I will have a big chat to her about my issues with the gym and how i really want to focus on building my confidence. I feel like this is the right decision. I prolly will tell her initially i just want to do 2 PT sessions a week. She may suggest i do more then that LOL in the past she has written out a program for me to do on my own so we will see.
People may be thinkin wtf is she doing....but heres the thing....sometimes we need to step back....get some clarity....replan and move forward. For the first time in a long time i think i am the right track...and this will be progress. And i am gonna put it out there.....under 110 kilos by xmas day.
Enjoy all :)
After using 22 of my weekly points my aim this morning was to not gain and i didnt....was exactly the same as yesterday...so 126.6 kilos.
So sticking to ww is going so good....so good in fact I decided to bite the bullet and change my membership to meetings...and I will start meetings on monday :) I am feeling so good where the weight watchers is good....and i am sticking to it so well.
I thought more on the gym today and made some decisions. Ill be completely honest....i have one main reason for needing to attend the gym and thats excess skin. My excess skin was bearable when I lost the weight before but i would not want it to be any worse. So whilst i dont love the gym...I need to attend. I did think about doing DVDs at home...but lets face it i dont have the dedication for that lol. I then considered a 24/7 gym (cos lets face it it would be super cheap) but i need support...classes etc. So a few days ago i came to the conclusion i would need a trainer still. I had to decide between a personal training studio and a gym with a trainer. And i ended up going for a gym with a trainer. I spoke to them today and they have advised since i am in a contract with another gym...(which i have cancelled and only have 30 days left off) while thats going on they wont charge me for a membership. As to personal training...the gym is goodlife (where ive been a member before) and so the plan is to go back to training with candice :) I will have a big chat to her about my issues with the gym and how i really want to focus on building my confidence. I feel like this is the right decision. I prolly will tell her initially i just want to do 2 PT sessions a week. She may suggest i do more then that LOL in the past she has written out a program for me to do on my own so we will see.
People may be thinkin wtf is she doing....but heres the thing....sometimes we need to step back....get some clarity....replan and move forward. For the first time in a long time i think i am the right track...and this will be progress. And i am gonna put it out there.....under 110 kilos by xmas day.
Enjoy all :)
Tuesday, May 24, 2016
Tuesday May 24
Weighed in this morning and was down to 126.6 kilos :) Very happy with that...I certainly feel just focusing on weight watchers is working well.
We had the bbq at work today....and i used 19 weekly points.....so i have now used 22 weekly points...i dont expect to use anymore this week :) Super happy with that.
Following on from yesterdays post. It has really taken me back to the struggles from when I was 173 kilos, and how hard it is for all of us who are obese to tackle the gym. I think cos i feel guilty about not currently going to the gym its on my mind a lot at the moment, and i have realised i genuinely have anxiety about attending gym (and have had for the last year to 18 months) just like i did 8 years ago, and i am sure i am not the only person who has this anxiety.
Due to the limited hours of my current gym I wont be returning to it. When i do return to a gym (which could be anywhere from a months time to when i have lost 20 or 30 kilos) i think i will do things differently. I will do PT again and i will most likely get a male trainer...and what i will be telling them is my first focus will be to increase my confidence and help reduce my anxiety...its not going to be about how much i lift. Its also going to be about building my confidence to eventually get back to fitness classes.
At this stage tho....because my work hours are likely changing significantly i dont know where i would sign up even if i was ready.
Once I also know about my work hours and can work out how often i will have monday evenings off work...if i do have a fair few of them off i will change my ww membership to attend meetings. I am really happy i am taking this opportunity to focus on my weight watchers.
Oh and I have a new favourite vegetable (actually dont know i have ever had a "favourite" vegetable) but anyway its mushrooms and capsicums chopped up and seasoned with salt, pepper and garlic powder and fried in a pan. OMG so full of flavour i LOVE it....and all zero points.....winning!
We had the bbq at work today....and i used 19 weekly points.....so i have now used 22 weekly points...i dont expect to use anymore this week :) Super happy with that.
Following on from yesterdays post. It has really taken me back to the struggles from when I was 173 kilos, and how hard it is for all of us who are obese to tackle the gym. I think cos i feel guilty about not currently going to the gym its on my mind a lot at the moment, and i have realised i genuinely have anxiety about attending gym (and have had for the last year to 18 months) just like i did 8 years ago, and i am sure i am not the only person who has this anxiety.
Due to the limited hours of my current gym I wont be returning to it. When i do return to a gym (which could be anywhere from a months time to when i have lost 20 or 30 kilos) i think i will do things differently. I will do PT again and i will most likely get a male trainer...and what i will be telling them is my first focus will be to increase my confidence and help reduce my anxiety...its not going to be about how much i lift. Its also going to be about building my confidence to eventually get back to fitness classes.
At this stage tho....because my work hours are likely changing significantly i dont know where i would sign up even if i was ready.
Once I also know about my work hours and can work out how often i will have monday evenings off work...if i do have a fair few of them off i will change my ww membership to attend meetings. I am really happy i am taking this opportunity to focus on my weight watchers.
Oh and I have a new favourite vegetable (actually dont know i have ever had a "favourite" vegetable) but anyway its mushrooms and capsicums chopped up and seasoned with salt, pepper and garlic powder and fried in a pan. OMG so full of flavour i LOVE it....and all zero points.....winning!
Monday, May 23, 2016
Exercise
The fact I have taken this gym break has been quite a bit on my mind....let me explain....cos some things have occurred to me.....
Before I trained with Fiona I joined fernwood several times....and obviously quit several times LOL. I didnt enjoy it, it felt like a chore. Then i lucked out with fiona and i was consistent for 3.5 years which i seriously a good deal of that i credit to fiona...and how we clicked. I was very lucky...I dont know if i even truly appreciated fiona as much as I should have at the time. Since fiona left the gym...ive had a number of trainers. With fiona i was very lucky....we not only clicked...but she took a lot of queues from me for how we trained....and she was so flexible with times for training me. While i have had trainers since then who have all been very nice....I havent clicked with them the way I did with fiona.
When I trained with fiona....i remember telling her i didnt like the gym....and we tried to focus on me just not hating the gym. I didnt do anything but a short workout and my PT sessions and it was prolly 1.5-2 years before I went and did classes etc.
I remember even when i got down to 79 kilos and i registered for a boot camp i went to one session and hated it. I remember we had to do like these 20 metre sprints and every time i was the slowest...by a LOT. I hated it...even tho I was small i pretty much sucked!
Catch up to recent times...I have been over the last few years gaining weight. As much as I felt over place at 79 kilos...you can only imagine how out of place I feel now. The gym i was going to caters to office workers...most of the people are smallish and youngish. Not that there is no one around my age....but from what I see they are few and far between....plus i just feel like i am the fattest person there. I signed up for group PT....and all the girls were youngish and smallish and fit. And then there is me....48 years old OBESE woman...and in my head i am just thinking....wtf am i doing here...i dont belong. The gym has become a point of anxiety...there is the travel issue...but i simply just feel out of my element.
SO....that leaves me with what I am going to do now. Yanno....i took the anxiety of the gym off me....and suddenly....im sticking to weight watchers like a champ. End of day 4 and i have only used THREE weekly points. I just think removing the anxiety may be helping me mentally, all im thinking now is all i need to do is focus on my eating.
My thought for the future in relationship to exercise is this. My "fitness goals" is get back to running and maybe the stair climbing. Thats what I enjoyed. While I quite like lifting weights and I know its good for you....its not my focus. So come august/september i will start walking around the lake near work 4 or 5 days a week. I dont think i will join a gym till i get under 100 kilos. Whilst i was thinking about joining a 24/7 gym...when i do return to a gym i will want to do PT (cos thats what i respond to best) and then i will do weights.
I know people are prolly thinking noooooooooo you need to be doing weights NOW. If by not attending a gym at the moment....keeps me sticking to my points then i am all for it until i get down to double digits.
I did jump on the scales this morning....and they have gone down further...so was 126.9 this morning.
Oh and I bought a fitbit blaze! super excited to use it - its currently charging and updating :)
So thats it! Enjoy all :)
Before I trained with Fiona I joined fernwood several times....and obviously quit several times LOL. I didnt enjoy it, it felt like a chore. Then i lucked out with fiona and i was consistent for 3.5 years which i seriously a good deal of that i credit to fiona...and how we clicked. I was very lucky...I dont know if i even truly appreciated fiona as much as I should have at the time. Since fiona left the gym...ive had a number of trainers. With fiona i was very lucky....we not only clicked...but she took a lot of queues from me for how we trained....and she was so flexible with times for training me. While i have had trainers since then who have all been very nice....I havent clicked with them the way I did with fiona.
When I trained with fiona....i remember telling her i didnt like the gym....and we tried to focus on me just not hating the gym. I didnt do anything but a short workout and my PT sessions and it was prolly 1.5-2 years before I went and did classes etc.
I remember even when i got down to 79 kilos and i registered for a boot camp i went to one session and hated it. I remember we had to do like these 20 metre sprints and every time i was the slowest...by a LOT. I hated it...even tho I was small i pretty much sucked!
Catch up to recent times...I have been over the last few years gaining weight. As much as I felt over place at 79 kilos...you can only imagine how out of place I feel now. The gym i was going to caters to office workers...most of the people are smallish and youngish. Not that there is no one around my age....but from what I see they are few and far between....plus i just feel like i am the fattest person there. I signed up for group PT....and all the girls were youngish and smallish and fit. And then there is me....48 years old OBESE woman...and in my head i am just thinking....wtf am i doing here...i dont belong. The gym has become a point of anxiety...there is the travel issue...but i simply just feel out of my element.
SO....that leaves me with what I am going to do now. Yanno....i took the anxiety of the gym off me....and suddenly....im sticking to weight watchers like a champ. End of day 4 and i have only used THREE weekly points. I just think removing the anxiety may be helping me mentally, all im thinking now is all i need to do is focus on my eating.
My thought for the future in relationship to exercise is this. My "fitness goals" is get back to running and maybe the stair climbing. Thats what I enjoyed. While I quite like lifting weights and I know its good for you....its not my focus. So come august/september i will start walking around the lake near work 4 or 5 days a week. I dont think i will join a gym till i get under 100 kilos. Whilst i was thinking about joining a 24/7 gym...when i do return to a gym i will want to do PT (cos thats what i respond to best) and then i will do weights.
I know people are prolly thinking noooooooooo you need to be doing weights NOW. If by not attending a gym at the moment....keeps me sticking to my points then i am all for it until i get down to double digits.
I did jump on the scales this morning....and they have gone down further...so was 126.9 this morning.
Oh and I bought a fitbit blaze! super excited to use it - its currently charging and updating :)
So thats it! Enjoy all :)
Sunday, May 22, 2016
Owning it.
Yesterday went perfectly. I put on my post I used 4 of my weekly points but was actually 3 :)
The scales this morning went down again....down to 127.7 kilos. So far today ive eaten my mug muffin (ill include a pic of it from yesterdays) with strawberries and some chobani yoghurt (and only 6 smartpoints), I am about to have a soleil chocolate mousse for 3 points with the remainder of the strawberries.
I was reading this article http://www.people.com/article/jillian-michaels-biggest-loser-study . For those who dont know...there was a study from US biggest loser season 8 contestants...and they came to the conclusion that the contestants metabolism had dropped and a lot of them are posting on social media....this is why we gained the weight back. But jillian talked about this on her podcast and pointed out...that one they are 9 years older now...everyones metabolism drops as they get older....and she pointed out two of the people who have been most vocal about this (danny cahill and ali vincent) kept their weight off for 7-8 years while they did public speaking, sponsorships etc but it was when that all dried up they gained weight back. Anyway...one i wanted to mention this in case some of my followers have read this and thought it was hopeless...its not....you just have to keep up the healthy eating and exercise or you will gain weight. Yes i gained a lot of weight back...not because my metabolism dropped (and it would have cos im now older) but because i have eaten like ive been on a huge binge fest the last few years. And why? Cos i can. I can pull out every emotional baggage card i like...but thats the bottom line...i gave up on myself and decided to eat into oblivion. But ive realised i am no longer going to be a victim...or fluff it up...i gained weight cos i let bad habits creep back in. This is a life long battle. And what I realised last night....was this isnt a fresh start....or a new journey....its just getting back on the horse and doing what needs to be done...and doing it my way. This is my journey....I own it...no one else does....no one else has the responsibility for it...no one has the benefits and negatives that will come from it...only I do....and so I am back.....and owning it.
I am still taking my break from the gym. But have decided when i do get back to the exercise....all my cardio is going to be done outdoors. Where I currently work there is a pretty lake 5 minutes from work i can walk around....and when work does move we will be 5 or so minutes away from the River Torrens where me and fiona use to do our running. It would feel a much safer environment for me to get into running there...I dont want to be running down main roads of adelaide LOL and since treadmills terrify me so much...I think this is kinda perfect. I can walk for a hour or so either before or after work depending on my shift. I will have to go back to doing some weight work too....but ill prolly just go to jetts for that. There is a personal training studio i was thinking about...but I think I am done investing so much money. I can do this myself I think. If i get to a point i need the exercise motivation then I will consider going there. Definitely while i will do weights....when i get down under 100 kilos....my fitness goals will definitely be running and stair climbing. But for the next few months...ill just focus on my eating and walking when im in the mood.
The scales this morning went down again....down to 127.7 kilos. So far today ive eaten my mug muffin (ill include a pic of it from yesterdays) with strawberries and some chobani yoghurt (and only 6 smartpoints), I am about to have a soleil chocolate mousse for 3 points with the remainder of the strawberries.
I was reading this article http://www.people.com/article/jillian-michaels-biggest-loser-study . For those who dont know...there was a study from US biggest loser season 8 contestants...and they came to the conclusion that the contestants metabolism had dropped and a lot of them are posting on social media....this is why we gained the weight back. But jillian talked about this on her podcast and pointed out...that one they are 9 years older now...everyones metabolism drops as they get older....and she pointed out two of the people who have been most vocal about this (danny cahill and ali vincent) kept their weight off for 7-8 years while they did public speaking, sponsorships etc but it was when that all dried up they gained weight back. Anyway...one i wanted to mention this in case some of my followers have read this and thought it was hopeless...its not....you just have to keep up the healthy eating and exercise or you will gain weight. Yes i gained a lot of weight back...not because my metabolism dropped (and it would have cos im now older) but because i have eaten like ive been on a huge binge fest the last few years. And why? Cos i can. I can pull out every emotional baggage card i like...but thats the bottom line...i gave up on myself and decided to eat into oblivion. But ive realised i am no longer going to be a victim...or fluff it up...i gained weight cos i let bad habits creep back in. This is a life long battle. And what I realised last night....was this isnt a fresh start....or a new journey....its just getting back on the horse and doing what needs to be done...and doing it my way. This is my journey....I own it...no one else does....no one else has the responsibility for it...no one has the benefits and negatives that will come from it...only I do....and so I am back.....and owning it.
I am still taking my break from the gym. But have decided when i do get back to the exercise....all my cardio is going to be done outdoors. Where I currently work there is a pretty lake 5 minutes from work i can walk around....and when work does move we will be 5 or so minutes away from the River Torrens where me and fiona use to do our running. It would feel a much safer environment for me to get into running there...I dont want to be running down main roads of adelaide LOL and since treadmills terrify me so much...I think this is kinda perfect. I can walk for a hour or so either before or after work depending on my shift. I will have to go back to doing some weight work too....but ill prolly just go to jetts for that. There is a personal training studio i was thinking about...but I think I am done investing so much money. I can do this myself I think. If i get to a point i need the exercise motivation then I will consider going there. Definitely while i will do weights....when i get down under 100 kilos....my fitness goals will definitely be running and stair climbing. But for the next few months...ill just focus on my eating and walking when im in the mood.
Saturday, May 21, 2016
May 21 2015
So this morning the scales were down to 128.2 kilos :) Todays eating was spot on....I was considering using some weekly points and treating myself.... i have stuck to just my daily points and only used 4 weekly points....I was planning to use some and make today a slightly higher point day...so more then happy with that. Hopefully i will use no more weekly points....and then use most if not all on tuesday at the bbq.
Didnt do much today...played some gammon....watched the latest episode of wentworth and keeping up with the kardashians and then watched the movie "Jennys Wedding"....was a nice relaxing day and currently I am just watching some more of friends.
Not much else going on...just wanted to do a check in :)
Didnt do much today...played some gammon....watched the latest episode of wentworth and keeping up with the kardashians and then watched the movie "Jennys Wedding"....was a nice relaxing day and currently I am just watching some more of friends.
Not much else going on...just wanted to do a check in :)
Friday, May 20, 2016
Day 1 of weight watchers
So I did sign up for weight watchers for online :) If you want to follow me on the app in the connect section my username is honestkazz
So this mornin my scales said 129.4 kilos and I am on 44 daily points. My plan is to use my weekly points but use them on "big things" .... like i would prefer to use them on a slice of cake...then a few points per day so i can eat some extra pasta or something...kinda like having a high calorie meal. I also want to see if i can get losses while eating the weeklies. So today I stuck to my points exactly :) (I even fitted in a lamb yiros for lunch!) and I also earnt 11 fit points.
On tuesday we are having a BBQ at work...so I am going to allow 20 weekly points for that...to eat exactly what I want. Tomorrow being saturday night I also might use extra weekly points. No idea what on...but will see how I go.
I also got my new book today...your a bad ass.
I am still having a lil problem swallowing altho not as bad as yesterday and I want to make sure I dont get sick so this weekend will be a stay at home in front of netflix and keeping warm kind of weekend :)
Im still convinced no gym for a while. I am thinkin not till at least July. I want this break and also I want to know what my work hours will be before I committ to anything. There are a lot of gyms around my home.....at this point theres a couple of options I will look at....but no decision making at this stage :) Of course if i wake up one day and go....i gotta go back to the gym...and gotta go back today then Ill go back....but thats certainly not my headspace at the moment. Time will tell.
So this mornin my scales said 129.4 kilos and I am on 44 daily points. My plan is to use my weekly points but use them on "big things" .... like i would prefer to use them on a slice of cake...then a few points per day so i can eat some extra pasta or something...kinda like having a high calorie meal. I also want to see if i can get losses while eating the weeklies. So today I stuck to my points exactly :) (I even fitted in a lamb yiros for lunch!) and I also earnt 11 fit points.
On tuesday we are having a BBQ at work...so I am going to allow 20 weekly points for that...to eat exactly what I want. Tomorrow being saturday night I also might use extra weekly points. No idea what on...but will see how I go.
I also got my new book today...your a bad ass.
I am still having a lil problem swallowing altho not as bad as yesterday and I want to make sure I dont get sick so this weekend will be a stay at home in front of netflix and keeping warm kind of weekend :)
Im still convinced no gym for a while. I am thinkin not till at least July. I want this break and also I want to know what my work hours will be before I committ to anything. There are a lot of gyms around my home.....at this point theres a couple of options I will look at....but no decision making at this stage :) Of course if i wake up one day and go....i gotta go back to the gym...and gotta go back today then Ill go back....but thats certainly not my headspace at the moment. Time will tell.
Thursday, May 19, 2016
Another update....LOL
So....ok.....lemme explain some stuff!
Firstly im gonna explain some stuff about my job because this is a HUGE factor in some of the decisions i am currently making.
I mention in mid april that my role at work had been made redundant and that I had applied for another role in the company, but never came back with a update in relation to that. So yes I was successful in securing another role with my company :) the thing about this new role tho is it will be VERY different hours and at some point I will most likely be working at a different location.
So currently I have no idea about how the roster will work altho 4 days per week we will be rostered on over 24 hours. What this means is my shifts could be anything from a normal day shift...to a afternoon shift (like say 2pm to 10pm) to a graveyard type shift (like 11pm to 7am) so obviously my lifestyle is about to go thru a dramatic change (that said ive done these types of shifts many years ago) I will not have consistency so going to a PT session the same time every week...or going to a weight watchers meeting the same time every week wont happen....its very likely every week will be different.
Added to that, some point over the next 18 months or so we look like we are relocating our office to the city. Now for me this is good news. And this was why I was persevering with my gym cos they will be around the corner from the new office. But whilst I am tired of the travel now I have also realised that realistically i need a 24/7 gym. Because my shifts are most likely all over the place i will be attending the gym at all random times.
So while yes at this stage im taking a break from the gym. I know i will go back at some point. Maybe in a month...maybe in 3 months....i dont think there is a rush....i want to go back when evergised for it. So anyway Jetts rang me this morning (I had tried them with a 7 day trial....but i did that the day i found out my job was at risk so went once and then my focus was on other things...ie my job) anyway I explained the situation and they offered me a 7 day trial again (and explained they are under new management), there is a jetts around the corner from me and one in the city...and with my crazy hours....i think thats what i need (hell who knows i could even be finishing work at 4am....and wanting to go to the gym...a 24/7 one is NEEDED) so i have decided when i do go back to the gym it will be jetts. Lets face this i have been doin it long enough....i know how to find a weight lifting program....i know how to do cardio....its just about applying myself :)
The next thing i needed to decide on is my eating (which btw has been great today!) So i know i cannot attend a weight watchers meeting with my schedule i will have. But what i do like when i compare weight watchers to MFP is "belonging". While its great that MFP is free their community is pretty harsh and judgemental. While weight watchers has a great online community...with the connect section in the app....facebook groups...instagram...and you tube. Weight loss can feel very solitary and with how my lifestyle will be i do think weight watchers online is the answer for me.
I hope this makes sense. I need to do whats right for me, I dont want to join weight watchers and a week later quit. Going into this as I have talked about recently its about being honest, and i am going to be completely honest....if i stuff up i stuff up....it is just important that i stick to it no matter what. Anyway....thats where my brain is at!
I am having some problems swallowing (hopefully not getting sick) so i am off to bed to get warm, watch friends and catch a early night before i do my friday tomorrow :)
Firstly im gonna explain some stuff about my job because this is a HUGE factor in some of the decisions i am currently making.
I mention in mid april that my role at work had been made redundant and that I had applied for another role in the company, but never came back with a update in relation to that. So yes I was successful in securing another role with my company :) the thing about this new role tho is it will be VERY different hours and at some point I will most likely be working at a different location.
So currently I have no idea about how the roster will work altho 4 days per week we will be rostered on over 24 hours. What this means is my shifts could be anything from a normal day shift...to a afternoon shift (like say 2pm to 10pm) to a graveyard type shift (like 11pm to 7am) so obviously my lifestyle is about to go thru a dramatic change (that said ive done these types of shifts many years ago) I will not have consistency so going to a PT session the same time every week...or going to a weight watchers meeting the same time every week wont happen....its very likely every week will be different.
Added to that, some point over the next 18 months or so we look like we are relocating our office to the city. Now for me this is good news. And this was why I was persevering with my gym cos they will be around the corner from the new office. But whilst I am tired of the travel now I have also realised that realistically i need a 24/7 gym. Because my shifts are most likely all over the place i will be attending the gym at all random times.
So while yes at this stage im taking a break from the gym. I know i will go back at some point. Maybe in a month...maybe in 3 months....i dont think there is a rush....i want to go back when evergised for it. So anyway Jetts rang me this morning (I had tried them with a 7 day trial....but i did that the day i found out my job was at risk so went once and then my focus was on other things...ie my job) anyway I explained the situation and they offered me a 7 day trial again (and explained they are under new management), there is a jetts around the corner from me and one in the city...and with my crazy hours....i think thats what i need (hell who knows i could even be finishing work at 4am....and wanting to go to the gym...a 24/7 one is NEEDED) so i have decided when i do go back to the gym it will be jetts. Lets face this i have been doin it long enough....i know how to find a weight lifting program....i know how to do cardio....its just about applying myself :)
The next thing i needed to decide on is my eating (which btw has been great today!) So i know i cannot attend a weight watchers meeting with my schedule i will have. But what i do like when i compare weight watchers to MFP is "belonging". While its great that MFP is free their community is pretty harsh and judgemental. While weight watchers has a great online community...with the connect section in the app....facebook groups...instagram...and you tube. Weight loss can feel very solitary and with how my lifestyle will be i do think weight watchers online is the answer for me.
I hope this makes sense. I need to do whats right for me, I dont want to join weight watchers and a week later quit. Going into this as I have talked about recently its about being honest, and i am going to be completely honest....if i stuff up i stuff up....it is just important that i stick to it no matter what. Anyway....thats where my brain is at!
I am having some problems swallowing (hopefully not getting sick) so i am off to bed to get warm, watch friends and catch a early night before i do my friday tomorrow :)
REBOOT :: Day 2
Weight : 128.4 kilos
Well today has been a day of decisions. Ive mentioned before the travel time to the gym, its been a issue for a long time. Dunno if its i am getting older...or its just old news or what....but im done with it for the moment. I also have lost enthusiasm for the gym and to be honest...if you look at my journal every year in May i struggle. Because of that I have decided not to attend the gym until August. August my new role at work starts, it will be very different hours altho i dont know the hours yet and possibly will be working in the city. I dont know how the gym will all fit into that. So at this point i havent cancelled my membership....i will keep it going and if i get a urge for the gym to do a class or whatever ill attend but im not gonna force myself.
The truth of that matter is a feel i "NEED" to go to the gym. I feel guilty if i dont go but it feels like a "chore". And to be honest my current gym may not even work. If i am still working at the same office...but doing crazy hours...no way in hell LOL. I cannot predict my work hours to work out how gym and work will work together...so for that reason ill take a breather.
As to my weight loss how does this impact it? Well you can still lose weight not going to a gym. My main concern is i need some accountability. There really is only 2 options...either i attend weight watchers....or i speak to my doctor about weighing in once a month with him and counting calories. I am quite undecided what to do, obviously i have had reservations about ww....but then again...it works...the other thing is you have to go on at least a 3 month contract and come august i may not even be able to attend meetings due to work...so its hard to decide.
That said im not giving up....just need to work out my tactic going forward. Eating is going well again today and of course was more then happy to see a 2 kilo drop overnight.
Anyway...more tomorrow!
Well today has been a day of decisions. Ive mentioned before the travel time to the gym, its been a issue for a long time. Dunno if its i am getting older...or its just old news or what....but im done with it for the moment. I also have lost enthusiasm for the gym and to be honest...if you look at my journal every year in May i struggle. Because of that I have decided not to attend the gym until August. August my new role at work starts, it will be very different hours altho i dont know the hours yet and possibly will be working in the city. I dont know how the gym will all fit into that. So at this point i havent cancelled my membership....i will keep it going and if i get a urge for the gym to do a class or whatever ill attend but im not gonna force myself.
The truth of that matter is a feel i "NEED" to go to the gym. I feel guilty if i dont go but it feels like a "chore". And to be honest my current gym may not even work. If i am still working at the same office...but doing crazy hours...no way in hell LOL. I cannot predict my work hours to work out how gym and work will work together...so for that reason ill take a breather.
As to my weight loss how does this impact it? Well you can still lose weight not going to a gym. My main concern is i need some accountability. There really is only 2 options...either i attend weight watchers....or i speak to my doctor about weighing in once a month with him and counting calories. I am quite undecided what to do, obviously i have had reservations about ww....but then again...it works...the other thing is you have to go on at least a 3 month contract and come august i may not even be able to attend meetings due to work...so its hard to decide.
That said im not giving up....just need to work out my tactic going forward. Eating is going well again today and of course was more then happy to see a 2 kilo drop overnight.
Anyway...more tomorrow!
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
REBOOT :: Day 1
Weight : 130.4 kilos
Its a fresh start
YAY a good day :)
I decided to tackle today a lil differently :) One i tried to eat some different foods, and also as I have been overeating afternoon/evening I tried to eat lighter this morning and also less processed foods.
So breakfast i had two serves (70 grams) of uncle toby caramel quick oats (these are so yummi!) and then morning tea i had a banana (i had been having a protein bar and 15 bbq shapes). Lunch time the cafeteria had pumpkin soup so i had a bowl of that and 2 slices of bread (admittedly white bread). The lunch left me really full :) Afternoon snack time I had a protein bar and a 1 serve (35 grams) of the caramel quick oats again. And then dinner was a chicken salad....baby spinach, chicken breast, feta cheese and avocado and after dinner a caramello bear! It totalled 1711 calories. I was aiming between 1700 and 1770 calories so pretty happy with that. I definitely ate more carbs then is prolly ideal for weight loss...but....it was unprocessed foods (mostly)....within the calorie range....and my sodium was only 1344 milligrams.
My back tho is still not 100%.....and i dont wanna do what i did the last 2 times and not rest it and prolonged the injury. So today i went out and did a 15 minute walk only but didnt go to the gym. I have cancelled the group PT for this week...but I will go to my individual PT session on saturday.
Not a perfect day but a lot better then lately! :)
Its a fresh start
YAY a good day :)
I decided to tackle today a lil differently :) One i tried to eat some different foods, and also as I have been overeating afternoon/evening I tried to eat lighter this morning and also less processed foods.
So breakfast i had two serves (70 grams) of uncle toby caramel quick oats (these are so yummi!) and then morning tea i had a banana (i had been having a protein bar and 15 bbq shapes). Lunch time the cafeteria had pumpkin soup so i had a bowl of that and 2 slices of bread (admittedly white bread). The lunch left me really full :) Afternoon snack time I had a protein bar and a 1 serve (35 grams) of the caramel quick oats again. And then dinner was a chicken salad....baby spinach, chicken breast, feta cheese and avocado and after dinner a caramello bear! It totalled 1711 calories. I was aiming between 1700 and 1770 calories so pretty happy with that. I definitely ate more carbs then is prolly ideal for weight loss...but....it was unprocessed foods (mostly)....within the calorie range....and my sodium was only 1344 milligrams.
My back tho is still not 100%.....and i dont wanna do what i did the last 2 times and not rest it and prolonged the injury. So today i went out and did a 15 minute walk only but didnt go to the gym. I have cancelled the group PT for this week...but I will go to my individual PT session on saturday.
Not a perfect day but a lot better then lately! :)
Tuesday, May 17, 2016
Where have i been?
So its been a few days....to the point I got a couple of messages asking if I was ok cos i havent posted (thanks girls - you know who you are!)
I was really thinking about giving the blog away (cannot say why) but have decided to keep posting
Anyway...my eating got pretty bad last week. To the point that Sunday I woke up with a real bad backache...each day it is a lil less sore when I wake up then the day before. And by the afternoon once i have been moving around and my back has loosened up its pretty much pain free. I think its from a combination of things....firstly my mattress needs replacing. I am getting a bonus from work next month and so will buy a new one then (anyone got any recommendations for good mattresses? I wanna spend around $1000)...i think whilst ive been back at the gym not exercising as much hasnt helped and my weight is prolly a huge issue to my back.
So my weight! After eating crap...for days it reached a high of 130.3 kilos :( Yesterday I didnt eat perfect but not as bad as the previous few days and did do a 40 minute walk....and so surprisingly the scales dropped to 129.4 kilos.
So here is a story...on saturday I went to the gym. After the gym I thought I will get subway for lunch. Now the lesson to this story is always put the food in your tracker before you buy it! So i was trying to stick to 50 grams of fat per day...I ordered a 6 inch tuna sub with swiss cheese. That lil bugger was 35 grams of fat for that one meal! Now firstly i shoulda tracked before i ate it....but then when it was that high i shoulda gone...ok...im gonna go over my fat today and maybe settled on 70 grams of fat instead (which would have been less then 200 extra calories) but instead i went....stuff it ive blown the day...then one day turns into 2 days etc etc
So i have signed up for food coaching which starts 2 weeks today. So for the next 2 weeks i am just going to focus on 2000 calories per day. I am not gonna focus on macros...or sodium....or anything like that....just stick to the 2000 calories. Then when food coaching starts....the food coach does do "if it fits into my macros" so ill then go by whatever macros she sets me.
I did get a message last night asking me why I dont do weight watchers. Here is my opinion. When it comes to support - i think weight watchers has more support then any other program...specifically online. If you attend a meeting the accountability is good, altho not as good as it use to be. I think having the rewards for 5% etc were good....they still do them in the US but dont seem to here. But i am not a huge fan of their program primarily because of the weekly points. If they got rid of them I would prolly do ww....but i think giving someone who is a food addict weekly points isnt helpful. I also dont want to be tied to any weight loss business for the rest of my life. Myfitnesspal is free and it works, but it admittedly lacks in the support...so much so to the point where I dont even go into their forums because they can be quite judgemental.
Anyways so yes sticking to my 2000 calories per day, and reminding myself....yanno....the donuts...and kfc...will still be there in 1 months time....or 6 months time...or 12 months time...but really at this point my health is now starting to suffer (thanks to the back pain) i really need to knuckle down!
I was really thinking about giving the blog away (cannot say why) but have decided to keep posting
Anyway...my eating got pretty bad last week. To the point that Sunday I woke up with a real bad backache...each day it is a lil less sore when I wake up then the day before. And by the afternoon once i have been moving around and my back has loosened up its pretty much pain free. I think its from a combination of things....firstly my mattress needs replacing. I am getting a bonus from work next month and so will buy a new one then (anyone got any recommendations for good mattresses? I wanna spend around $1000)...i think whilst ive been back at the gym not exercising as much hasnt helped and my weight is prolly a huge issue to my back.
So my weight! After eating crap...for days it reached a high of 130.3 kilos :( Yesterday I didnt eat perfect but not as bad as the previous few days and did do a 40 minute walk....and so surprisingly the scales dropped to 129.4 kilos.
So here is a story...on saturday I went to the gym. After the gym I thought I will get subway for lunch. Now the lesson to this story is always put the food in your tracker before you buy it! So i was trying to stick to 50 grams of fat per day...I ordered a 6 inch tuna sub with swiss cheese. That lil bugger was 35 grams of fat for that one meal! Now firstly i shoulda tracked before i ate it....but then when it was that high i shoulda gone...ok...im gonna go over my fat today and maybe settled on 70 grams of fat instead (which would have been less then 200 extra calories) but instead i went....stuff it ive blown the day...then one day turns into 2 days etc etc
So i have signed up for food coaching which starts 2 weeks today. So for the next 2 weeks i am just going to focus on 2000 calories per day. I am not gonna focus on macros...or sodium....or anything like that....just stick to the 2000 calories. Then when food coaching starts....the food coach does do "if it fits into my macros" so ill then go by whatever macros she sets me.
I did get a message last night asking me why I dont do weight watchers. Here is my opinion. When it comes to support - i think weight watchers has more support then any other program...specifically online. If you attend a meeting the accountability is good, altho not as good as it use to be. I think having the rewards for 5% etc were good....they still do them in the US but dont seem to here. But i am not a huge fan of their program primarily because of the weekly points. If they got rid of them I would prolly do ww....but i think giving someone who is a food addict weekly points isnt helpful. I also dont want to be tied to any weight loss business for the rest of my life. Myfitnesspal is free and it works, but it admittedly lacks in the support...so much so to the point where I dont even go into their forums because they can be quite judgemental.
Anyways so yes sticking to my 2000 calories per day, and reminding myself....yanno....the donuts...and kfc...will still be there in 1 months time....or 6 months time...or 12 months time...but really at this point my health is now starting to suffer (thanks to the back pain) i really need to knuckle down!
Thursday, May 12, 2016
Thursday May 12
So firstly there was a comment about iherb (the website i buy my supps etc cheap) if you do decide to purchase from there you can use this link http://iherb.com/?rcode=SPL539 it will give you a $5 discount and also me a discount :)
The scales dropped again today :) Down to 125.5 kilos so a drop of 800 grams overnight.
I was initially planning to go do body pump tonight but i woke with a scratchy throat and headache so will take tonight off. Presuming I am okay I will go in and do 45 minutes of cardio tomorrow night. I need to make sure I am all good to go for saturday morning as I am doing a 30 minute group PT session followed by a actual PT session. But tonight ill go home...get warm....and catch a early night and hopefully be 100% tomorrow :)
I think I need to find some friends who have a similar fitness level who want to do "events". Whilst yes I can go walking....I think having a fitness goal especially for a event and working towards it is so helpful. There is something to be said for completing a event and saying "i did so and so". I may not run anymore....but to know....I completed the city to bay....is something i love and was worth every bit of work i put into it!
Not much else going on....have a good thursday all :)
The scales dropped again today :) Down to 125.5 kilos so a drop of 800 grams overnight.
I was initially planning to go do body pump tonight but i woke with a scratchy throat and headache so will take tonight off. Presuming I am okay I will go in and do 45 minutes of cardio tomorrow night. I need to make sure I am all good to go for saturday morning as I am doing a 30 minute group PT session followed by a actual PT session. But tonight ill go home...get warm....and catch a early night and hopefully be 100% tomorrow :)
I think I need to find some friends who have a similar fitness level who want to do "events". Whilst yes I can go walking....I think having a fitness goal especially for a event and working towards it is so helpful. There is something to be said for completing a event and saying "i did so and so". I may not run anymore....but to know....I completed the city to bay....is something i love and was worth every bit of work i put into it!
Not much else going on....have a good thursday all :)
Wednesday, May 11, 2016
Weigh in :)
So I weighed in! Last wednesday I was 127.8 kilos and this morning i was 126.3 kilos, also my body fat is normally around 51-52% But this morning my body fat % was 50.4% :)
Food wise I have had a perfect day. I then went to the gym, and did 15 minutes on the cross trainer (10 minutes at level 10 and 5 minutes at level 5) and then I did a 30 minute group PT session. It was a weights session ... I could do every exercise....maybe not perfectly LOL but I still managed to do every exercise.We did squats with bar bell...I did 10 kilos plus the bar and could have gone heavier...then we did cleans and i did 15 kilos on the bar for that, some bent over flys with 3 kilos, and 2.5 kilos for tricep kicks. We were doing partnering work and at the end the girl i was partnered with turned around and said you did good....:) So i said thanks and she did too.....so its allowing me also to interact with others but im really surprised how i am handling the group sessions.
I was out with friends last night and we were discussing mothers and weight loss....and somethin occurred to me. When i lost my weight I did it for me. But i had gone thru my teens thru to 30's with mum always banging on about my weight...and whilst i did it for me....part of me im sure did it thinking....well this will keep her off my back. As i lost the weight tho i was very disappointed that for all the grief about it she gave me she never seemed too happy when i would tell her more progress....but that is ok cos i was doing it for me. But as i was talking last night something occurred to me...i think maybe subconsciously when mum passed away i may have saw it as a chance to have a break. Kinda like a kid getting up to mischief when the parent is away. That knowing she was constantly on my back about it was gone...i didnt have to do it to stop her from hassling me anymore. Anyway as i was discussing this with my friends i was all like OMG. But after i came home i kept thinking about it....and i think theres some validity to that....but yanno what this is bigger then mum...this is about me....and this completely determines my current and especially future life. If i want to travel and do adventurous things, if i want to meet someone and get my "happily ever after" nothing can get more dediication from me (apart from work...lol...i need money to pay for all this!) But its actually felt today like a weight is lifted. Ive told myself so many times "this is my priority...this is for me" but over the last few years i havent believed it...ive thought it .... but its not been authentic. I KNOW now this is so important and this is for me and absolutely no one else! Im excited to see where my progress will be by xmas...i think i finally have "got it"
Food wise I have had a perfect day. I then went to the gym, and did 15 minutes on the cross trainer (10 minutes at level 10 and 5 minutes at level 5) and then I did a 30 minute group PT session. It was a weights session ... I could do every exercise....maybe not perfectly LOL but I still managed to do every exercise.We did squats with bar bell...I did 10 kilos plus the bar and could have gone heavier...then we did cleans and i did 15 kilos on the bar for that, some bent over flys with 3 kilos, and 2.5 kilos for tricep kicks. We were doing partnering work and at the end the girl i was partnered with turned around and said you did good....:) So i said thanks and she did too.....so its allowing me also to interact with others but im really surprised how i am handling the group sessions.
I was out with friends last night and we were discussing mothers and weight loss....and somethin occurred to me. When i lost my weight I did it for me. But i had gone thru my teens thru to 30's with mum always banging on about my weight...and whilst i did it for me....part of me im sure did it thinking....well this will keep her off my back. As i lost the weight tho i was very disappointed that for all the grief about it she gave me she never seemed too happy when i would tell her more progress....but that is ok cos i was doing it for me. But as i was talking last night something occurred to me...i think maybe subconsciously when mum passed away i may have saw it as a chance to have a break. Kinda like a kid getting up to mischief when the parent is away. That knowing she was constantly on my back about it was gone...i didnt have to do it to stop her from hassling me anymore. Anyway as i was discussing this with my friends i was all like OMG. But after i came home i kept thinking about it....and i think theres some validity to that....but yanno what this is bigger then mum...this is about me....and this completely determines my current and especially future life. If i want to travel and do adventurous things, if i want to meet someone and get my "happily ever after" nothing can get more dediication from me (apart from work...lol...i need money to pay for all this!) But its actually felt today like a weight is lifted. Ive told myself so many times "this is my priority...this is for me" but over the last few years i havent believed it...ive thought it .... but its not been authentic. I KNOW now this is so important and this is for me and absolutely no one else! Im excited to see where my progress will be by xmas...i think i finally have "got it"
Tuesday, May 10, 2016
May 10 2016
So after last nights not great eating....or now known as the "KFC and donut fiasco" I totally expected the scales to jump by a kilo or two. But the exercise and only having the protein shake for dinner must have helped as it only went up by 400 grams...hopefully it will maintain or drop a lil by tomorrow morning.
I forgot to mention i am going back to wednesdays as my official weigh in day. So....last week I was 127.8 kilos.....this morning 126.7 kilos...will see what tomorrow holds!
I got a iherb delivery today....I love that site...I bought a peanut butter muffin in a mug (which was 20 grams of protein) i had that for my snack this afternoon...with some pb2 on top LOL so yummy. I also got a box of "Oh yeah! One lemon cake bars" they are suppose to be yum and very similar macros to quest bars. I also bought 2 boxes of sachets of peanut butter. There are 12 sachets in each box and they are 32 grams each....one box is peanut butter and the other box is honey n peanut butter. They will be handy for at work...and if i decide to get toast or a sandwich at the work cafe...i can give them the sachet and it will be all proportioned out. If i like the Oh yeah! One bars then I will try some different flavours.
Tonight I went out for dinner with Tania and Martine. We went to Fellinis. I had barramundi with potato, and sauted cherry tomatos and baby spinach....so yummm....I also had one slice of bread :)
Not a lot else going on....im in bed...gonna watch some you tube...then call it a night....enjoy all! :)
I forgot to mention i am going back to wednesdays as my official weigh in day. So....last week I was 127.8 kilos.....this morning 126.7 kilos...will see what tomorrow holds!
I got a iherb delivery today....I love that site...I bought a peanut butter muffin in a mug (which was 20 grams of protein) i had that for my snack this afternoon...with some pb2 on top LOL so yummy. I also got a box of "Oh yeah! One lemon cake bars" they are suppose to be yum and very similar macros to quest bars. I also bought 2 boxes of sachets of peanut butter. There are 12 sachets in each box and they are 32 grams each....one box is peanut butter and the other box is honey n peanut butter. They will be handy for at work...and if i decide to get toast or a sandwich at the work cafe...i can give them the sachet and it will be all proportioned out. If i like the Oh yeah! One bars then I will try some different flavours.
Tonight I went out for dinner with Tania and Martine. We went to Fellinis. I had barramundi with potato, and sauted cherry tomatos and baby spinach....so yummm....I also had one slice of bread :)
Not a lot else going on....im in bed...gonna watch some you tube...then call it a night....enjoy all! :)
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