Update :)

Well ive been super slack with my journal lately! But weight loss is going awesome :) When I got home from Sydney on 11/9/13 i was 94.3 kilos....this morning i was 90.9 kilos woooooooo hoooooooooo! yes i am awesome!! lol I set the goal to be under 90 kilos by september 30 so its definitely do-able. And my 3 month goal at the moment is to be down to 83 kilos by xmas (fingers crossed) Anyway just a short quick update....altho i have posted a progress pic below :)

Well a bit has happened this week :)

I got back from Sydney tuesday night and was back at work on wednesday morning (no rest for the wicked!) Wednesday night i had PT...we had a trainee observing the session he was quite stunned at how hard my session was! When we were boxing he said..."you have a mean right hook, you could have a side career as a boxer" lol

Friday I woke up and it just occurred to me im sick of not doing group fitness classes and im over not feeling comfortable doing them at Goodlife (the new gym)....so i went and rang my old gym and rejoined! So i am going to have a membership at both :) So monday and wednesday nights i will be at goodlife for PT and the rest of the week I will train at fernwood. I went back today to fernwood for my first session back and it was just like going home! So glad i rejoined. So this week my workouts will look like this:

monday : cardio + 30 mins PT
tuesday : 45 mins RPM + 60 mins Body pump
wednesday : cardio + 45 mins PT
thursday : cardio + 45 mins RPM
friday : 60 mins Body pump
saturday : 20 mins cardio + 60 mins Body pump
sunday : rest day

Foodwise things are going good...I am eating 1600 calories and calorie cycling and focusing more on clean foods...now im not drinking diet coke my thinking is much clearer and easier to stay on track :)

Well I am still in Sydney for a few more hours...I managed to snag a computer with internet access and decided to make the most of it. This has been a great trip. Its been a mixture of relaxation, reflection, fun, and eating some great food ! ;)

I have done all the normal things you do in sydney, took photos, went down to circular quay, went to darling harbour, walked lots, enjoyed the atmosphere. Yesterday was a big day...of relection and thinking. I went out to my dads gravesite, this is at a cementry out of the city...anyone who is on my facebook knows it was a battle to get out there (NSW's bus system sucks!) But I made it there. Dad passed away 31 years ago last friday...and his funeral was 31 years ago today. And I was surprised at how emotional I felt. I can always think of the good things with dad currently so I was suprised how it affected me. I took some flowers...sat at his lil spot, ate a cupcake...talked to him a lil...I couldnt stop touching the headstone. It was hard to see but I feel better. Ive always worried about how the site was cared for and its kept beautifully...I will definitely go out there again on more future sydney trips.

In line with that today is the 1 year anniversary of mums passing. Anyone who has read my journal(s) over this past year. Its been a year of firsts...the first xmas without mum, her first birthday, first mothers day without etc. And there was definitely a element of me feeling robbed of my mum and thinking this should never have happened to her yet...she was a healthy, active 67 year old she should still be ringing me up driving me nuts ;) And i am one who struggles emotionally and didnt really have a outlet (well except food and eating!) Giving up the diet coke has given me a much clearer thought process (this is day 9 of no diet coke). I have a much better clarity of what I want and what I need to do. I arrive home tonight...tomorrow i will weigh in, back to the gym tomorrow night and PT. I am going back to 1200 calories tomorrow for 2 weeks and then reassess. I want to see how my body copes performance wise as well as satiety wise. I know I can lose on eating as much as 1800 calories but I do feel 1800 calories is too much for me. I think 1200-1500 calories is a nice balance. If i could mnage 1200 cals for a while then that would be great as it will really give it all a kick start. I know I can do this...I just have to put my plans into action.

There is also a 5km walk/jog/run thru north adelaide for women only on 29/9 which I think I might give a whirl as welll! Heres to getting back on track!

Much better day today and yesterday! My cravings really seem to have subsided. I told my trainer last night about my diet coke addiction LOL...her face dropped so far and fast LOL Anyway next wednesday she is bringing a apple drink in for me...(she is training for a fitness competition) and its something she drinks when training so she can have something sweet...its something she gets online from where she gets her supplements, protein powder etc. She was like...the only criteria is you drink it while working out and no other time...i think its just something you mix with water so will give that a whirl. I am easily drinking 3 litres of water a day and at this stage am not missing the diet coke. And im just ecstatic that i feel more in control. Last night i did 90 minutes of cardio then 45 minutes of PT. Must admit I love those PT sessions...every session she gets me to do different stuff :)

The plus side as well has been the scales. I will tell the world what i was monday morning (yuck) was 94.9 kilos...this morning is was 92.4 kilos....and i attribute most of that too the no diet coke but lots of water :) This afternoon i have a work "party" to go to for 30 minutes....im figuring there will be some finger food there...and tomorrow work is apparantly putting on a bbq for lunch. While im "allowing" myself to eat as high as 1800 calories..im mostly trying to stay under 1500 cals. Once i am back from sydney i think i will revert back to calorie cycling...prolly 1600 calories....see how that goes and then make any needed adjustments...i certainly feel more in the zone right now.

Tonight no gym, Home to get all the washing done and give the house a bit of a clean...then tomorrow night pack and saturday morning off to Sydney bright and early!!

So sunday night I decided to give up the diet coke (again). I have suspected for a long time my struggling with my eating has been related to my diet coke consumption (i have noticed in the past carb cravings seem worse when drinking the diet coke)So i decided enuff mucking around and havent had any diet coke since sunday night. Yesterday i had a lil mini melt down LOL. I am finding mid afternoon with no diet coke i get soooooooooo exhausted. And i was getting very much "screw this" attitude. But I feel much better this evening. I feel like...holy hell of course I can do this weight loss. I am tired again today but dont feel as out of control as i did yesterday. That said yesterday i still stayed on top of things. I was under 1500 calories....i did 30 minutes of cardio and then a 30 minute PT session of boxing (omg that was awesome)

I head off to sydney on saturday...so between now and then...90 minutes cardio tomorrow and a 45 minute PT session....thursday 90 minutes cardio plus body pump class and then friday night the cardio circuit program candice wrote me and a 1.5km run. Whilst in sydney there will be no gym visits but am planning to be active...so lots of walking. So until next wednesday i will stick with 1800 calories...If the scales are moving in the right direction i will keep at that....till the losses slow down/halt....then ill slowly cut down 100 calories at a time.

After getting on to the water yesterday...i did drop 1 kilo over the night...so a good start!

Ive still been struggling.....but once again tomorrow is a new day. Im tired of "restarting" all the time tho. Ive taken my meal plan from a few years ago and going to try and kick this in the ass. I am sure i can get back on track...sooner or later it will click again. Part of me is a bit annoyed...off to Sydney next weekend but I kinda wish I wasnt going as I want to get on track and STAY on track, its a bit harder when you are living in a hotel for 3 nights! But im thinking if i can find some where to have just some eggs, tomato, spinach etc for breakfast...no bread and no bacon....subway for lunch....then dinner of my choice...it should keep things okay....and ill aim for the only snacks to be fruit. I think once I run out of the muesli bars i have in the house...think i only have a couple left...im going to stop eating the "processed snacks"...back to fruit only....at least for a while.

I think its time to set some short term goals...so they are:

under 90 kilos : 2 lorna jane tops
under 85 kilos : Book a trip to melbourne
under 80 kilos : Tattoo
under 75 kilos : Hair makeover and Professional photo session

Tomorrow I will weigh in and get serious. PT tomorrow night plus some cardio...have a good week all! :)