Half Marathon?

Well quite a bit has happened this week and I havent updated this blog! lol

Thursday I had a appointment with my GP to ask him for a referral to get excess skin removed from my stomach and boobs thru the public health system. He wrote a awesome referral :) and now I just need to wait for RAH to get in contact with me for a appointment....but this could be months away. Its just the first step but VERY exciting.

I had been thinking lately I need a goal. I do much better when I have a goal to work towards. So I have decided to train for a HALF MARATHON omg!! thats insane!! lol But with a lot of work it is do-able. One of the trainers at my gym won the adelaide marathon so i have got some guidance from her and a 9 week program. So that aim is...to at this stage run 3 times a week and by the end of november to be running 5km comfortably (that is no drama) and by the end of january to run 10km comfortably (that again will be no drama) then at the start of february the runs will increase to 5 times a week and will be split up between interval work...medium pace runs...and slow, long runs. So for now until the end of November my training schedule will be this: monday : 10 mins low intensity cardio + 30 minutes PT ((heavy weights)
tuesday : 5km run
wednesday : 10 mins low intensity cardio + 45 mins PT (heavy weights)
thursday : 5km run
friday : 60 mins body pump
saturday : 6km run and 60 mins body pump
sunday : rest day

When I see my food coach on tuesday I will be showing her all this....and she is going to make some recommendations nutritionally. I suspect I need to eat about 1600 calories...prolly a lil more on saturdays. But will take her recommendations and see how they pan out (I have told her at this stage I dont think there is a need to only eat 1300 calories)

I am hoping these things will help focus me and get me on track again...Ive really been getting nowhere fast...but I know completely I can do this. And the reality is I would love to lose another 10-20 kilos before the surgery (which prolly wont be till early 2015). I also believe the fitter and healthier I am the better I will cope with the surgery when it comes around. Wish me luck!

So after my DEPRESSING post yesterday lol I decided to implement some changes :) Firstly...i have a very bad habit on a sunday of spending the day in my bedroom...watching tv...playing on the computer etc. So first things the computer is now banned from my bedroom. I can use it when in the lounge room watching tv...but i need to get out of my bedroom! I normally go to sleep about 10.30pm...im also thinking i will try to read for 30 mins or so each night before bed (get the brain going) I am also going to make a more concerted effort with pink sofa to meet some people...try to organise catch up for coffees etc. I think I need to put in as much effort to getting a social life as I do to weight loss.

I think I will also start to post back on this journal more regularly...just to kind of have a mental check in :)

Food and exercise wise....food is going okay. Exercise wise this is my plan this week:

monday : walk/run 60 minutes
tuesday : walk/run 60 minutes
wednesday : 30 minutes low intensity cardio + 30 minutes PT session
thursday : rest day
friday : 60 minutes body pump
saturday : 60 minutes running plus 60 minutes body pump
sunday : rest day
So i need to come up with plans to keep myself preoccupied on sunday...maybe ill go to the movies...anything not to just hang around the house.

Not much else going on...sure I will be back over the next few days :)

Big think :)

One day you wake up and say "thats it I am going to lose weight"....in my story...i decided to lose weight and at the time I had several goals....I wanted to meet someone to have a relationship, I wanted to get a rocking body, I wanted to not become confined to my home, and not to have a heart attack. Ive done pretty good. I still have 10-15 kilos to go...but in some ways the fire has gone out.

My first goal was to meet someone and to have a "life". When you have been big for a long time and you shut a lot of people out of your life and you no longer have close friends in your life its hard to get a life back. Im single...in all my adult years I have only had one serious relationship and that lasted for all of 7 months and for most of that time was a long distance relationship so I dont think it counts. Being 45 and not with any real friends who are lesbians its hard to go to places where i MIGHT meet someone. Yes I have some friends who are lesbians...but we are more mates then friends...we dont socialise...they are not big socialisers. I have been a member of pink sofa for years...in a attempt to meet people....that doesnt work so great either. Last time i met someone on there was over 2 years ago...to say that didnt work out is the understatement of the year. My life consists of work...the gym...sleep...watching tv shows....facebook...sleep. Ive lost all this weight and still dont have the life I want. And its hard...im not a group person....my exercise did become a passion of mine...a lot of my interests (cross stitch...reading...movies) got lost somewhere along the line. I rarely go to concerts as I have no one to go to them with (lets face it its more enjoyable to share those things with someone)...I dont even have anyone to say....lets meet up for a walk. And yanno that sucks...its not just that I dont have a partner....its that I dont really have a social network, and at 45 I am kinda stuck how to get one....which of course a lot of the time (think saturday nights, sunday arvos etc) i am bored and ill admit it LONELY And I cannot help and think those dreams i had...for nothing out of the ordinary what lots of people have (in fact most)...people they socialise with and if lucky enough someone they care for and share their time with...i dont have that...and yanno the honest truth....the thing i have had the best relationship with thruout my life has been food...and im sick of it...i dont want food to be my friend....i want it to be fuel and nothing more. I know when i do overeat i dont overeat cos i am "hungry" its a boredom thing....its that small thing in my boring, monotonous life that gives me pleasure...I need to somehow work out how to get a life cos this isnt what i want.

Recently my manager at work said to me "what makes you get out of bed each day?" and yanno my answer? My weight loss. wtf is that about????? It should have been a answer like...to spend time with my friends...to experience new things...to laugh....to challenge myself and feel awesome for doing new things....it shouldnt be...too look at a freaking scale and see if it has moved or not!

The crazy thing is...before anyone says it...i know im not ugly....i know i have a good personality.... a few years ago i did have a couple of friends i saw on a semi regular basis...but one got pissed off cos i cancelled going out for dinner on MY birthday lol and another....well she just didnt seem to want to spend time with me once i lost the weight. And thats fine...they are only 2 people i am not pining after them lol....but just wish i had a social network with like minded people. And even outside of other people i wish i had a passion for something...i remember back when i didcross stitch...its a lazy sedentry hobby but i loved it...i wish i had that passion for something again.

The other thing is fitness. You know you see a lot of people lose weight and they find their "thing" fitness wise. They get into triathlons, or marathons or power lifting or figure modelling...even if i wanted to i couldnt truly get into any of those things. Id never wear a bathing suit with my excess skin or ride a bike (i fear them) so triathlons would be out....im a incredibly slow runner...and while yes with training i could run the distance of a marathon or half marathon there are time limits to do them in....im way to slow too meet any of them....power lifters wear these lil short outfits that show off their thighs...im not exagerating when i say my thighs are awful and the same for figure modeling. I need a goal....more then just weight loss...i need a vision and something to zone in fitness wise....and sure I can still focus on calorie burn...and doing my heavy weights....but i need some goals...short term, medium term, and long term.