Tonights been interesting. I am going out for dinner with Martine tomorrow night. So decided to go thru my wardrobe (i give most of my clothes to martine when they no longer fit) anyway....so i pulled out a long halter neck dress (see pics below) size 12 and it fits. Front on it looks pretty good...side on i can see my tummy and ass need work. Then i found a long size 14 straight cue skirt...made of this gorgeous material. I had forgotten about it. Last time i tried it on it was too tight around my tummy and hips....anyway so i pulled it on expecting it to be tight still...but it wasnt!! Slid it on .... threw a singlet on with it and thought i looked okay (see pic below) i took a photo and looked at it....and was astounded. Its the first time ive worn a straight skirt in years and years. My hips dont look terribly huge or out of proportion and looking at that picture makes me realise....if i never lost another gram of weight .... that would not be the end of the world. Now dont get me wrong...i still wanna lose another 11-12 kilos...in some ways thats up to my body...while "68 kilos" sounds like a nice number to get too...i do have excess skin...i might get to 70 or 72 or 75 or even 77 and might body may decide its not gonna budge any further....and if that happens....thats actually okay....no matter what weight or when i get to it....i still have lots of toning to do...whether i end up at 68 kilos 0r 77 kilos....the next few years will still be me reshaping my body...toning up more....building some muscle....and growing stronger...so its a bizarre feeling to think i dont HAVE to see the scales go further down...to think "im healthy" i set out on this journey to get healthy....to not become confined to my home....to stop getting kidney infections and bronchitis all the time....to go out on dates....to live a active life...and to get some resemblance of a social life....and you know what??? Ive got those things...i might not have the number i hope for yet....but the bigger picture is ive done what i set out to do....dont get me wrong im not suggesting im at the end of the journey.....i dont think i ever will be....but i feel like im at a different stage of the journey....not quite at maintenance...but getting incredibly close....and after taking care of this injury...my focus i guess now is more on body shaping....and meeting some fitness goals like running.
My back is better today too! So i think body balance last nite helped! That combined with physio of course.... :) Its nice not taking pain killers anymore LOL...i hated that drowsy feeling...doing nothing but sleep and working.