Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Part Two !
Well gawd so damn glad i went to the gym ! Firstly i got there and did 22 minutes on that damn treadmill....just did it didnt focus on whether i'd fall or not. Then fiona came over and got me and we talked for about 15 minutes...she said she thought i was trying to self sabotage myself and she understood where i was coming from and not wanting the attention i am currently getting. As she said i cant control what others say i can only control how i react and currently i am allowing this stuff to control me and basically people will say what they will but when it comes to this stuff i need to build a bubble around me and let it bounce off me and basically my mind simply needs to catch up with my weight loss. We also decided that from now we will regularly have a session where we talk to make sure we are both on the same wavelength. She also wants me to set some 6 week goals...that are related to competencies in the gym...i have no idea what i could set as a goal apart from maybe pushups? Anyway she wants me to have a think about that. Then we actually did some exercises lol we did "planks" with a fitball...my stomach hurts right now altho TOM is due so not sure if its the that or the exercises. Then we did these exercises with a TRX..here is a pic of it cept i actually stand holding onto it and lean back and then have to pull myself up with my arms...to say it is scary is the understatement of the year...i was quite convinced it was not gonna hold my weight...but i somehow managed it...i also did lunges and sumo squats on a balance mat thing. Anyway im feeling better i was totally on track today...in the team meeting they ordered chicken, hot chips, pasta salad and coke. I had said can yas buy me a bread roll too...so just me got a bread roll...and i had a piece of chicken and ate that..much better option then those hot chips (altho they looked delish !) so a good day all round...back into it....heres to tomorrow....oh n btw i was 135.6 kilos yesterday morning and 134.3 this morning...hopefully back at 133 kilos by next monday