well Ive made some decisions ! Firstly I went to curves last night...they weighed me and Im ashamed to say I weighed in at over 150 kilos...they basically wanted me to pay $126 on the spot...which I didnt have at that point so I felt quite pressured but left without signing up. Initially I thought Ill sign up in a few weeks time when I have the cash...but then got thinking...I have my fernwood membership which I am paying anyway and its only the basic membership but its $40 a fortnight so really silly to pay for curves as well. So shortly I am going to ring up fernwood...I am pretty sure I still even have about 3 personal training sessions available...so will call them up and make a appointment hopefully for friday afternoon and hopefully with a personal trainer...if I tackle this all head on hopefully I will start to make some REAL headway. So I feel actually quite excited about doing this now...which is a super good start. I also watched dr phil last nite and it was a episode with a chick wanting to lose 210 pounds...and he was like have u read my book??? (which she hadnt) and I remembered that when I did good I would read dr phils book regularly especially the chapter on negative thinking...so I will get his book this week and get stuck into reading that as well...I really wanna do this and get way way way under 150 kilos