Sunday, June 06, 2010

OWN YOUR JOURNEY

I remember ages ago...i was moaning about something with my journey to fiona, and she turned around to me and said "I can give you all the info in the world...i can try and motivate you non stop...but this journey is your choice...i cant do it for you" tough but wise words. Another time she was talking to me...and i was talking about how other people...put their two cents in about my journey...their expectations of me. Fiona turned around and said..."who gave them permission to control your journey?" Now anyone who has been on the ww forums in the last 24 hours may guess where i am going with this ;)

Really...you post something on a online forum and everyone didnt sympathise and agree so your stomping your feet and taking all your toys and going home? bravo...when i started this journey...i wanted a life...simple as that...i didnt wanna call in to work sick cos on that day i simply didnt have energy to walk to the bus stop...i wanted to be able to have a social life...i of course i wanted to lose weight. As time has gone on all those things are true...but so much more is true...i wanna be fit, healthy, even wanna be a bit of a spunk....lol....but i also wanna be a strong woman...i no longer wanna be a victim...whining and crying about people i dont get along with or whining and crying cos life is SO unfair (i said that very sarcastically). I wanna be the woman who can handle herself...and this is part of our journey...so yanno...if life aint going EXACTLY how you planned it...suck it up...take some responsibility...cos till you are responsible for your life how can you ever truly get to goal AND maintain it. This journey is mine...its my prized possession...no one else owns it...sure people can influence me...people will support me...and well prolly some people think i am going about things wrong...but yanno thats ok...cos i own this...mistakes and all...when we whine on a forum and lash out at everyone whose words we didnt like...whose gaining? you feel a lil bit better cos u vented but how does that really benefit you in the long run?

okies off my soap box!

Yesterday i came 4 calories under 1800 calories! LOL Hows that for precision??? In some ways im amazed that only 3-4 days ago the thought of being on track longer then 3 days seemed impossible...today is day 3 at 1800 calories...and i have no doubt i am back on track with everything.

My hamstrings are a lil sore today and my legs tired but im not too sore from body balance at all...which surprises me...i expected to be incredibly sore this morning!

Tomorrow i am booking a hairdressers appointment for next saturday! Im kinda liking my hair at my current length...so gonna have a trim...and i am gonna get them to colour it a caramal colour with a few golden streaks thru it...

Natalie - your comment from my last post just came thru my emails. and YES what you say about fluctuations i completely agree with! When i stick to plan and restrict the low fat products and eat mostly "mother natures foods" i hardly fluctuate...realising this took a lot of the frustrations out of my journey. I will be checking those books you mentioned out...have you read Jillian Michaels "Master your metabolism" and for a simpler read Joanna McMillians "inner health outer beauty" ... both really reinforced these thinkings with me.

4 comments:

JustJo said...

You already are a strong woman.... this journey is just making you stronger, and more aware of that strength :) You rock.... you truly do rock my friend!

Bec's Adventure said...

Very well said Kazz! Please post a picture of your new hairdo.

Jess said...

I really do not get the immaturity shown in the boards lately. I'm glad I have "blog-land", because I've been staying away from the forums for the past week.

You really are a great inspiration for everybody on the weight-loss path, keep it up!

Katali said...

I agree with you in principle and I do think the person in question needs to do some work on her emotional issues, but I have to say that reading the first response, I had to wince, because it was kind of harsh. Of course, it was a line an a half and certainly didn't deserve what happened, you know? It seems like the boards are reverting back to high school...

And well done on your precision dieting! I'm having a good day today, too! :)