wow been some busy busy days ! Saturday i went to the gym and then worked till 8pm...then sunday morning i was back at work at 7.30am. After work yesterday i then went to mums to visit with my sis and the kids...which was great fun. This morning i got up at 9am went to the gym and now at work. But the next two days i am off woooooooo hoooooooo...tomorrow i am going to try a body balance class find my inner harmony and all that jazz lol

One of the grrls off pink sofa asked me about meeting up at wheatie hotel this friday nite but unfortunately im working...but she was telling me...me, her and another grrl shes been chatting with would get along good. So i messaged the other grrl today and hopefully soon we mite be able to all meet up.

I feel like the gym is working im noticing my 3/4 jeans are sitting on my hips not my waist...so thats a good sign. YaY.

Okies off i go have a good day all !

Well im in pain ! OMG ! my chest, arms arm pits, butt, thighs, inner thighs all hurtttttttttt...ive been to the gym 3 days running....tomorrow i will have off but ill be back in on monday. Today i managed 29 minutes on the bike at level 3 doing the fat burner program. So i was pretty impressed with that. But i wanna build that up to 40 minutes. I ahd my intro simplicity session today...i was really impressed...the focus is more on making sure im eating all my food groups...i went thru my eating and she told me...less carbs more fruit n vegetables (no real surprise there LOL) but also gave me suggestions for ways to do this. Anyway i signed up to start slimplicity officially on tuesday...but the next 3 days i ahve to record in a diary what i eat and they will look at it on thursday. I also weighed in on their scales...151 kilos *ugh* but im not overly bothered...ive been bad the last week or two and we had pizza at mums last nite plus its different scales...i am hoping she will weigh me again tuesday altho that will be in the evening so we will see what i weigh then. But at least i know where i am and what i have to do...okies...off to do some work ciaooooooooooooooooooo

Phew what a day ! Woke up late-ish and went to the gym...i last 10 minutes on the bike and it KILLED my butt...i then did 7 1/2 minutes on the rower. It was a bit short but i was aching from the day before and my butt was really sore...so off i went to rebel sport to buy a gel seat for the bike lol hopefully tomorrow wont hurt as much ! I then went grocery shopping and bought lots and lots of fresh fruit n vegetables...the this afternoon/evening spent it with my sister and her family. Which was a lot of fun (and in the process learn all the different characters in dora the explorer lol) Tomorrow is truly D day. Me and my friend Claudia who both weigh similar weights are weighing in tomorrow and gonna bust our butts to get to 110 kilos by xmas. I will see the slimplicity lady at fernwood tomorrow...weight in and then get moving to hopefully a good loss this week...i really need that weigh in and that accountability...i know i havent been so good foodwise this week...but that changes as off tomorrow ! Okies its late...im tired and have a relatively early mornign tomorrow - take care all !

Okies i been thinking...are we defined by the decade of age we are? i think i already mentioned im turning 40 this year. Its weird ive suddenly seen a few things about 40 year olds thats made me stop n think. Was watching a old episode of all saints the other nite and this guy was fainting and having chest pains and he told them he was 40 years old and they were deciding what course of treatment...and at 40 they said he was at the border of whether diet n exercise would be enuff to help him...after 40 u needed surgery...i watched it and thought eeeeeeeeeeeeeep ! Then in one of the glossy womens mags i read about a guy who died of a heart attack at 41. So you know i been battling my weight seriously since my early 20's and its always been a case of in my head ill resolve this before it becomes a health issue. But of course now as i am going to be 40 years old (eek) there is really no second chance...its simply a case of gotta do it this time ! But in a lot of ways i wanna turn 40 and i only really realised it today. Yanno...in my 20's i led the good life...had a good bunch of friends and was going out a lot. Then in my 30's i went thru the process of coming out, i isolated myself and got to my highest weight ever. Now so the next day i have decided is MY time. I am going to be damn well down to 110 kilos and i am going to be meeting people and dating (oh the poor lesbians of adelaide LOL) so the next 7 months is really busting my butt. I am determined to start my new decade on a high.

I went to the gym today and did a PT session and lemme say my arms ACHE lol already ! They feel really tired and are aching...but it was good. The trainer is really nice and she is gonna work out a plan so that i know every day i go in there what i need to do. So im not going blindly. I then did a fitness test and on the rowing maching i rowed 858 metres on intensity level 8 which the grrl seemed to think was rather good.

Okies off i go for a nice hot shower to soak these muscles !

okies a super quick post just to confirm something lol...im definitely a chick...lol...a pink princess no less lol and i am also a lesbian....yes black sheep of society lol...but no its all good...just wanted to clear that up. Okies one shift and im on a weekend...off i go to start my day all ! byessssssssssssssssssss

Well i think i hurt my heel/instep more yesterday and not via the gym lol i was getting on the bus and the stoopid driver parked like half a metre from the curb and when i stepped up i think i overstretched the instep...so i have made a appointment with a physiotherapist for tuesday. The grrl from the gym told me yesterday they would prolly strap it and i prolly need some scans done on it which the physio can do.

Yesterday Livy asked where i get my motivation...so ill explain cos i think im getitng new readers who may not know my past.About 4 years ago i lost 23 kilos...went from 153 kilos to 130 kilos...had a girlfriend at the time all was great. But then we split up...i suffered depression and gained not just that weight but 40 kilos...till i reached 170.9 kilos. In the last year before i started ww when i was at my 170 kilos my life had really deteriated. I was falling over a lot...as if my balane was affected and had one bad fall where i tore ligaments in my ankle..i had exceessive fluid retention in my feet and calves, when catching a bus i always had to make sure i had my ticket before hand cos i didnt fit thru the section where you went to buy the ticket...when going to team meetings at work i couldnt fit into the chairs...had to sit on the very edge of em...which when u gotta sit there fro a hour is uncomfortable as crap...i was getting viruses every few weeks and last april/june i was off work for 7 weeks with bronchitis...i truly had no life....oh at the time i thought i was happy...had work and lived in a chat room when not at work...when i was sick...and work was taken from me the only thing i had was the chatroom...and i lived in it 24/7, my mum gets bad asthma/bronchitis so i couldnt be around her...and to be honest in the past year i had isolated myself...so it was me and the computer. But also having so much time on my hands suddenly left me to do lots of thinking...i started thinking about a lot...and i started to realise if i didnt do something soon i would be bound to the house and pretty much a invalid. So i got over the bronchitis and a few weeks later joined weight watchers. Its been a slow process not just the weight loss but the changing in my lifestyle. I had so many factors which made my life unhealthy...one clearly was a addiction to chat rooms which was only assisted by me work evenings...as i was able to be online when all the americans were. So a few months after i started at weight watchers the option of working evenings every week was taken from me when work changed the way our rosters were going to work...and suddenly i was on a rotating roster. It still meant some weeks i worked evenings but most weeks i worked days, which allowed me to be a lil normal. Have my evenings free and cook a nice dinner (was nice to get away from microwave meals LOL) and to ahve time in my evenings to watch tv. Now to most people watching tv is unhealthy too,,,,but it was removing me from chat rooms so i knew it was a good step for me. Then over the last 9 months lil bit by lil bit my lifestyle has changed. About 3 months ago i re-discoverred that i love reading...so im back to reading for half an hour or so before bed. (no more staying online till i can barely hold my eyes open) so as ive slowly seen my life change for the better...the better it gets the more im determined it wont go back to where it was. I have never before eaten healthy for 9 months running. Now i dunno about my motivation levels as i know lots on the ww forum more motivated then me...BUT anyone who knows me knows im stubborn with a captital S...and when i decide on something i dont usually change my mind (if jody reads this she will be laughing as she often tells me im the most stubborn person shes ever known) So gradually over the last 9 months ive started to get up earlier and take more advantage of the day. Initially when the gym suggested the 7am time slot for yesterdays orientation session i was like no no no...but later when i thought about it there was no reason not too...i was working till 8pm the nite before but i knew as long as i was in bed by 10.30pm id be fine - and i was. When i was with my ex Ang i weighed 130 kilos....when i started this journey 9 months ago i was 40 kilos away from it...seemed like forever away...now im only 15-16 kilos from being 130 kilos...its an awesome feeling to think how close to a certain level of normality i will be. But each week whether i lose weight or not i am getting closer....its really not just about weight for me altho thats a hugeeeeeeeeeeeeee factor...its also about getting me back....and not getting to a point in my life when im old with regrets that i did not really live my life cos of my weight...so i dont want people to think im some superhero with huge motivation levels that i dug up or something LOL im not...im just a stubborn ass....and i refuse to give up...even if i have a bad week every now and then...i may stumble but i sure as hell refuse to fall over and stay over...and btw thank you for the comments i always LOVEEEEEEEEEE reading them...okies over n out all LOL

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Well where was i at 6.50am this morning? yep u guessed it ! The gym ! i did my first orientation session and it was great, the girl who i did it with is a physiotherapist so she gave me exercises and info to help with my heel too. She showed me to use th treadmill, bikes and rowing machine. Ive never used the rowing machine...i was rather impressed with that. She actually ended up putting it on level 9! and i was maintaining 70 watts...level 9 is the second highest it goes too. She was quite impressed with my fitness level so all this exercising has been helping me. And she showed me how to do interval training on the bike,,,,and in the end she wrote up a 30 minute cardio plan for me. Which is:

Warm up on bike - 5 minutes
Interval training on bike - 5 minutes
Rowing machine - 5 minutes
Interval training on bike - 10 minutes
Cool down on bike - 5 minutes

So that gives me 30 minutes and its not on one machine doing the same thing for long (i tend to get bored easily lol) at my next orientation session she said i will learn to use the cross trainer and stepper and can add them in to give me a 40 minute cardio session each time. So i feel really pumped...my next session is on thursday...then i can start just going in and using the machines once i done both orientation sessions and i am REALLY going to aim for 5 sessions per week cos the said thats what i really need to do for weight loss...mite even go do a session before seeing my sister friday morning...okies gonna scoot byesssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Well i did change my first orientation session to 7am...lawdie can u believe it? i was talking to mum last nite after work and saying how i wanna start going to the gym at that time regularly. We got shown our new roster flow which starts in 3 weeks and it has a lot more earlier shifts. Only 3 weeks out of 8 will i be working evenings so it shouldnt be too hard to getinto the habit of in bed by 10.30pm-ish (i do this often anyway) that would make me nearly normal ! LOL i remember this time last year and the majority of the last 4 years i had worked a shift 3.45pm-11.45pm tuesday - saturday...which meant i ahd no fridays or saturday nites off...and never woke before 11.30am ish. Even thos i worked till 8pm last nite i was still up at 9am. Admittedly i stayed up till about 12.30am but tonite ill go to sleep within a couple of hours of getting home and BOOM up early and off to the gym. I am actually looking forward to it. Until youve done your two orientation sessions u cant work out. So have to do this one then on thursday i have the second session PLUS my PT sessions. So this weeks gym plan is :

Monday : orientation
Thursay : orientation + PT session
Saturday : slimplicity session + cardio workout

And next week i ahve tuesday and wednesday off so im planning to do some classes then ! Tuesday ill do body balance and wednesday TTT...so this week is a build up 3 times per week...the following week tho will be minimum 4 times.

Okies well since im such a wicked thing i gotta work today *ugh* so off i go to earn me some money ! lol have a good sunday all !

*~* Chapter Two starts tomorrow *~*

Well i am still completely psyched about fernwood...i feel like this is the next phase in this journey - chapter 2 !!! and i am going to work off my lil butt to get to 110 kilos by my 40th birthday. Any great ideas for what i can do on my birthday? The only real idea ive come up with is a trip to new zealand. I really loved what i saw of south island when i saw it on biggest loser...and its not expensive to fly there...$441 return...and if i went for say 5 nights i could prolly get the trip for around $1200 that or i need to go somewhere really exciting in australia...if anyone has ideas of something special or unique i could do (that i dont need to be a millionair to afford) pls leave me a message...i think its really important i set a goal and work my lil (okies not so lil) butt off towards it.

The gym opens at 6.30am. I booked mondays session for 12.30pm i think so i may be cutting it too fine...now dont die of shock i think i will ring them in the morning and change the time to 7am LOL who woulda thunk it eh? But i am really determined to get stuck into this cardio work.

My neck is a lot better...still a few twinges....but nothing like it was.

Its been POURING with rain...bucketing down...everyone at work has kinda been in awe watching it lol like its gold or something LOL which considering australias water crisis i guess it is gold right at the moment

ohhhhhhhhhhhhh and exciting news ! my sis and her kids are down on friday (think i mentioned this last post) so excited cant wait to see the bois and the lil princess. And then omg its like only 9 weeks or so till i am going to streak bay. I am having 18 days off in july and a week of that will be at streaky bay...which i am really looking forward too. Okies off to do a lil more work before heading home byessssssssssssssssssssssssssss

I did it ! OMG so excited !!!

Who watched biggest loser finale? It was sooooooooooooooo motivating !!! I think some of the eliminated contestents looked awesome...Sam looked great...and Jules looked so pretty...she has such a pretty face now its slimmed down..and omg how slim is mel? she looked awesome so did munalitta. And *swoons* jillian was there..man she is SO spunky lol michelle looked pretty too i thought...very feminine. I recorded the finale and was so motivated by it all i downloaded a application for next year lol but i wont go in it.Anyway so yesterday i made a appointment at fernwood...and was very pleasantly suprised ! The grrl who ran slimplicity is gone (yay) and its now under new management. They do things differently now,,,i got given a membership book with some recipes and a exercise diary and other stuff in it. They also now do TWO orientation sessions. Anyway i told them the problems i had with slimplicity in the past and so they gave me 2 free sessions to give it another try. I may use it instead of ww meetings...mostly cos my life is so unpredictable and i could attend slimplicity easier...but thats a decision i will make down the track. Initially i joined for a PT and the classes and equipment. I know they are more expensive...but I am hoping if i really committ and get stuck into this it will really get my weight loss moving. They told me i only need to do weights with my PT which is more along the lines i thought especially with curves. so this week coming i have both orientation sessions...a PT session and a slimplicity session. My sister and her family are down on friday. Havent seen them with xmas so friday i will be spending the day with them which should be awesome. I am so very very psyched. They also said i should be able to do RPM classes and i will initially use the bike and cross trainer

I had a yummi lunch today...marinated chicken, roasted capscum, cheese, pesto sauce and spinich on focacia bread...im about to go point it...uh oh LOL

now no laughing but while washing my hair last nite i hurt my neck LOL my doctor ( a different doctor to last time) told me i tore fibres in my neck muscle...no wonder its been sore as crap. When at the docs i AGAIN asked about my heel...hes told me to stop doing weight bearing exercise. Hes told me no long walks, no treadmill and no curves. He wants me to still exercise and suggested i use a bike..so i guess the decision about fernwood has been made. I have made a appointment for tomorrow...when i rang them i said i was a member a few months ago...and when i said my name they said "oh your PT was celeste wasnt it"? LOL damn i cant go anywhere and lemme tell you its like 4 years since i been there !!!! But i started tracking again today (dont die of shock tania i REALLY did lol). it would be really nice if when i get on ww's scales on tuesday if i weigh under 146...it is DEFINITELY time to step this weight loss up...ive also gone back onto my metaformin...i was taking it last year when i was losing well...its a medication for insulin resistance..so i got the script filled and am back on that too. Anyway my chicken n rice is cooked so off i go to eat !

Well...decisions, decisions. I spoke to my friend Jody on the phone this morning, for those who dont know shes a yank i met online 6-7 years ago and weve always remained really close friends. Anyway i rang her today and she made a comment "you always do better with your weight loss when at weight watchers" and it got me thinking...and shes right altho...its really that i do better at weight watchers when going to the meeting i went to last year. This whole year while i have lost (about 10 kilos) its not as much as it could have been...i mean thats around 10 kilos in 15-16 weeks..now im not knocking the weight loss or anything and really glad im 4-5 kilos lighter then when i last was at ww but i think its time to go back to ww and go to my old meeting as often as possible, its not possible every week cos of my roster...but i really liked that leader and weigher and they were always very positive and supportive to me and that one on one from ww i think ive missed. So tuesday i am going back ive decided.

Now im also deciding about the gym (yes again) ive been trying to toss up the pros and cons of curves...the point is i am bored...and other things about it are starting to bug me (ie no shower, not open sundays and that they are closed noon to 2pm each day) there are some weeks where i can only make the gym a couple of times per week and i really wonder if curves is best for me. Ive been looking at fernwood...i really feel like i should do more cardio and less weights...i think doing weights once a week is prolly enuff for me...so decisions decisions

Well i made more scrolls last nite. I didnt make it to the gym...i didnt get out of work till 5.45pm and as the gym closes at 7pm that was cutting it too fine. So went home and watched big brother. OMG im enjoying it so far this year. I also went into pink sofa again...swapped a few more messages with one girl who ive been talking to since mid last week...we seem to get along good and have stuff in common so i can see us arranging to meet each other in time. Which would be good and pressure free as she is looking for friends only which suits me. I then went into hal and played in a gammon tourney and won - wo0ot yay me ! Not much else is happening...but boy i was tired this morning really need a early nite tonite - ok take care all !

Okies first off -- tania you made me all teary !Man i read the comments last nite and the last two today and as well as with all the posts on the ww forum ive been touched by how supportive everyones been. I must say tho your comments really touched me tania...the fact u see a difference...i must say i dont see a huge difference in my demeanour altho i am less moody...but to see someone whose been a friend with me thru past weight loss attempts that meant a real lot to me - so thank you to you and also to every single person who has ever posted on my journal or in response to a post at ww or the 3fatchicks forum =]

Well i wrote a letter...i emailed it to the AMA, a marketing company who does bookings for kerryn phelps and also to catherine lambert from the sunday herald who just today did a article on how biggest loser is damaging...and how people who are doing well with weight loss compare themselves to biggest loser and feel they arent cheating.

I snuck a peak at my scales this morning and this morning they were showing me UNDER 145.9 kilos ... i wont say what number but i think its a certainity i will be telling you a good loss this week and woooo hoooooo thats over 25 kilos ( now lets hope i dont retain fluid or nothing and it keeps going down by this friday lol)

Tonite i am off for dinner at the pub. Spent a bit of time in the pink sofa chat room today..2 different grrls ive been swapping messages with and they are both from Adelaide. Id like to meet as many as possible and hopefully end up with a couple of good friends. Okies off i go for dinner...below is the letter i wrote

o whom it may concern,

I am writing regarding a disturbing situation at a doctors office recently. Firstly I'd like to explain some background information. Last August I joined weight watchers...I weighed in at 170.9 kilos. A few weeks later I had stomach pains and visited Doctor xxxxx who questioned me on my weight. I explained I had recently joined weight watchers, he had 2 sets of scales both which didn't go over 150 kilos. Since last August thru sensible eating and exercise I have lost 24.5 kilos taking me down to 146.4 kilos. On friday I made another appointment with this doctor (my normal doctor was booked out). My appointment was to discuss heel pain and to obtain a doctors certificate as I was off work that day having been off colour for the past 5 days. Well of course my weight was bought up. I told him straight away I have lost 24.5 kilos. He asked me to step on firstly a set of digital scales, I did and they registered 149.7 kilos, he then stated I don't know if thats correct or because they are at their limit. I told him they are incorrect. My scales at home weigh me at 146.4 kilos & the ones at the gym as 142 kilos. He then asked me to step on some old style scales – these weighed me at 147 kilos. He then asked if I was watching biggest loser and commented on how well they all lost weight. Then he asked me how much I was losing. I told him 800 grams per week to 1.6 kilos up until I joined the gym, to which the doctor replied “thats insignificant”. He said thats just a wee or a bowel movement...I then stressed thats 800 grams EVERY week to which he gave me a condescending smile and said “you are obviously doing this very very slowly”

I bring this whole situation up for several reasons. I have no desire to get anyone into trouble, but I am proud of the hard work I have put in to lose the weight I have so far, overweight people are constantly dealing with discrimination – this doctor did not listen to me, he simply judged me and left me close to tears and feeling like I had to justify myself. Overweight people should be able to rely on support from the medical profession.

Another reason I have a issue with this is the ridiculous information he gave me. 800 grams per week is not insignificant. It is in line with the normal weight loss suggestions. I have been told thru weight watchers that 500 grams to a kilo per week is the correct weight to lose each week, if you lose it fast you wont keep it off, may end up with gall bladder issues and loose skin. Now I am very educated on weight loss having submerged myself in this new lifestyle for the past 9 months. But if someone went to him seeking support and advice from him he would have provided the patient with unrealistic expectations. Overweight people should be supported.

My other reason for bringing this up is I constantly see in the media discussions on childhood obesity, adult obesity, the costs to the community for illnesses that are enhanced due to obesity. How can the medical industry expect people to do something about their weight if advice from the doctors that medicare pays is not correct? Are doctors given the correct and necessary tools to help educate and assist people wanting to lose weight and ultimately save the community money? Maybe forums need to be held with doctors to establish their knowledge and to find out what sort of advice they give out to patients. Its easy to say you need to lose weight, but the medical profession needs to educate people on how to eat properly, how to deal with plateaus, what type of medical tests should be taken prior to losing weight (ie stress tests, blood sugar tests – should people be getting these before losing weight?) There should be a website that is monitored and created by the medical industry with resources, and information, specialists in different states that can specialise in different scenarios (ie thyroid issues, PCOS, diabetes specifically in relation to weight loss – maybe such a website exists but Ive never been advised of it by my doctor?)

I hope you can take my feedback seriously, if one doctor is doing it then more then likely others are too. You will never educate the entire Australian community until you educate the entire Australian medical profession.


Yours sincerely

Okies...this may be a long post lol depending how munch i dribble on LOL...so theres ya warning...firstly im gonna put a post i posted on the ww forum last nite...a lot may have read it already but some i know wont have...so here goes....

okies this is a bit of a vent...okies a major vent...been off colour for a few days so called in sick to work today, had trouble getting in for a doc appointment so had to settle for a doc i dont like much (one who suggested i use optifast many years ago), anyway i go in there to talk about my heel pain and the fact im off colour...but of course...as has become the norm 90% of the time was spent discussing my weight. So he looks at his records and goes last time u were here u were 150 kilos (both his scales only go up to 150 kilos) and i say...no actually last time i was here i was around 170 kilos...so he says get on the first scale...they show 149.7 and he goes i dunt know if thats correct or if thats cos the maximum they go to is 150 kilos...to which i say they are wrong...i am 146.4 kilos on my scales at home and 142 kilos on my scales at the gym. So he gets me to go onto one of the old style scales that shows me as 147 kilos. He then says how much are u losing per week? I say..up till i joined the gym i was averaging .8 to 1.6 kilos per week to which he says "thats insignificant" my jaw hit the floor and i thought i was going to burst into tears. So i said...thats 800 grams EVERY week...he then bought up biggest loser and how much they are losing...to which i replied i have been told by ww that 800 grams is a healthy weight loss...to which the almighty doctor says "oh you are obviously doing it very slow" i am so mad! No wonder the obesity levels are so high in this country when someone who is doing something about their weight is made to feel a inch tall and left feeling like i had to justify myself ... i felt no different to the days when i lived on kfc and was sick every week. How on earth does this country plan to batttle obesity when SOME of this countries doctors cannot give educated and realistic answers and support??? I walked out to pay the receptionist and was so trying not to cry...the other frustrating thing is ... maybe there is a grain of truth i have only lost 24.5 kilos in 9 months...i really thought within this first year i would lose in excess of 40 kilos but i cant see that happening. It is so annoying and hes just bought questions that were at the back of my mind to the forefront...i wish there was somewhere that gave u guidelines for what you should expect at different ages & weights...i know the .5 to 1 kilo is what we are told is a healthy weight loss...but at 146 kilos should i be losing more each week? I have half a mind to write to the AMA about it lol...anyway im sorry for venting...just knew if there was one place people would get where i was coming from...was here

Okies...now as you prolly gathered i was mad. Well partly i was humiliated...but another part of me is damn angry. How many times i go to www.news.com.au and there is a story about obesity...and the doctors...the doctors medicare pay give such crap support and advice. I will not lie...last nite i considered getting kfc (yes i am the princess of emotional eating LOL) but i didnt...i ended up having some lite fish and oven fries...and calming down watching this weeks gilmore grrls. But i am mad and annoyed at the advice given,,,today or tomorrow im going to draft up a letter and email it to the SA branch of the AMA.

Anyway when i woke this morning i had a peek at the scales...and soemone said in the comments i must be able to taste the 25 kilos...WELL this morning i was a measley 100 grams of it !!! i am so determined to have a awesome loss this week...so that doctor can really blow it out his earhole ! lol My wireless connection with big pond is being a ass so i need to update it...also anyone who i havent notified...my new email address is karyn_h@bigpond.com

Okies time to get off the puter ! bye all !

PS i think im gonna email kerry phelps too ! a sister ! LOL

I also forgot to say ive been messaging with a couple of girls at the pink sofa...

well blah im sick. Just a lil off colour. Of to the docs in a couple of hours and im gonna get them to look at my heel again, anyway as im sick im obviously not going tonite. But I did sign up for full membership at pink sofa and i will make attempts to chat to some local people :)

I weighed in lost 500 grams...so im back at a total loss of 24.5 kilos. And tomorrow morning i am off to the gym. Not a lot else to say,,,, enjoy your weekend all

mmmmmmmm i love mexican !!!!! LOL me n tania went out for dinner last nite and we ended up going to Montezumas a mexican restuarant here...so yummii prolly not what i really should have eaten but it was a good nite so im all happy (gotta love that cheese dip eh tania? lol) i weighed this morning and the scales still looking pretty good. And i am off to curves this afternoon so not too concerned. And after curves i then have to dash off to do the grocery shopping so busy busy nite tonite...BUT the good news is....... tomorrow friday ! OMG i so cannot wait to sleep in till 8am ish on saturday morning. I am seriously contemplating on going out with grrls from the pink sofa friday nite...talked about it last nite with tania and she gave me lots of good reasons why i should do it this weekend...so big decisions...hopefully i wont chicken out (but heh prolly will knowing me !)

Okies im offfffffffffffffff

its a gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood day ! OKies i normally weigh myself around 9am but this morning i weighed myself at 5.45am and wo0ot i was 146.6 kilos...and tonite....lemme say i was under that ! i wont say how much but i am confident of a solid loss this week. Work was great i really love doing the acting team leader role hopefully i get more opportunities.

Anyway then i went to curves...and by their scales...in the last 6 weeks ive lost 5.1 kilos and 2.6% body fat. And heres what i lost in centimetres in the last 6 weeks :

Bust : 3cms
Waist : 4cm
Abdomen : 6 cms
Thighs : 1cm
Arms : 2cm

So since January 29 Ive lost a total of 28 centimetres (11.11 inches) so i am very very happy. My legs and feet are aching so im going to go eat my dinner and put my feet up while watching biggest loser...enjoy all !

Isnt it funny when u come to conclusions and get thinking when you dont even realise your doing it? I was watching biggest loser and aparet from the fact i was in awe of their losses...i was watching their training and thinking about how variable it is...doing lots of different things. I got to thinking why arent i getting big losses at the moment? And why am i leaving my curves membership hanging? There is a big part of me that thinks i need the variety that classes would offer but i also think that at the moment I couldnt cope with them. But i want to decide one way or the other what to do about my curves membership. So the decision is...back to curves tomorrow. I will make sure they weigh and measure me and i want to give it 6 solid weeks so to take me thru to the end of May. I WILL go 3 days a week EVERY week...then at the end i will look at my results...i want to have lost 6 kilos in this time...so i want to be at 140.9 kilos by May 28...if i can sit here and say i did go 3 times every week and did stick to my food plan as is...then its gonna be time to increase the exercise and possibly look at fernwood with a personal trainer. Okies thats my decision of the day LOL...so theres my challenge to me...now time to put it into action...ni ni all =]

Well...its a good good day. Yesterday i made more scrolls (snap tania !) altho i cooked them a lil too much but gave most to mum. Last nite we went out to the pub for dinner then went and played the pokies (slots for all u yanks) and initially i put in $10 and lost it...then my stepdad won like $140 so he gave me like $8 in change and wackado - i got it up to $29.00 altho i only took out $20 but still i was in front so all was good.

Now time for my confession...i didnt go to the bbq...i can just see tania rolling her eyes...and yes im a big ole chicken....and this afternoon im mad at myself i didnt go. i did wake up a lil late but if i wanted to i coulda got going and made it on time. Im gonna email the organiser in a bit and apologise but tell him i still wanna participate. i really do need to step out of my comfort zones. All these kind of opportunities open up to me and i always wriggle out of them...friday nite all the grrls from pink sofa are going to the wheatsheaf hotel to meet up and even tho i know most dont know each other i know i wont have the guts to go. Even tho this is what i want to meet others...specially from the lesbian lifestyle...i was talking to my friend jody just this week saying how this is what i want yet i get opportunities and i dont take them up,,,,blah

Ok on to some good news...i walked ! i walked for 25 minutes....and my heel is fine....so i wont walk tomorrow but tuesday ill try another walk =]

Tomorrow after work im gonna stop at coles...and pick up some groceries..cos i found my book 5 of annette syms and gonna do some more baking. Think i will try a cake this time...one of the books has a chocolate cake. I need to point it and see if i can figure it into my daily points...okies off i go.

Well i weighed in and the news wasnt TOO bad....i gained 500 grams and considering i got TOM today i am not too concerned. I know ive been good. hopefully a few days will pass and ill get rid of whatever fluid.

omg kevin crease died ! i so did not realise this (sorry all non adelaidians who have no idea who im talking about) very sad...

Well 3.5 hours and im on a weekend. cant wait for these two days off. Tomorrow morning i have some graphics i MUST get done. then in the afternoon gonna make a couple of batches of savoury scrolls (mum wants a batch) and a big batch of fried rice, so some nice easy meals next week. Sat nite going out to dinner and then sunday have the feast bbq..so a nice weekend...busy without being flatout. And then next week i finish work at 3.30pm every day...always nice to have some early finishes. My heel is still improving...i am walking flat on it all the time which is a huge improvement for me.

Okies not too much else to say...enjoy ur weekend all !

I was coming home from work tonite was listening to the radio and it was old SANFL footballers who played footy during the war, and how their whole life they had been about pleasing everyone else, and it only is now that they got into 70's or so that they finally start please themselves. And we all do it i think. I know this week as ive got on the scales each morning...and theyve been going up...even tho i know its cos i have got TOM due and due to fluid...and i was stretched over what? The fact on friday i mite have to write in here i had a gain...even tho it hasnt messed with my head or deterred me from my journey but just so completely concerned about what the people who see that gain on my site will think. So will weigh in tomorrow...record it and keep going at least it hasnt messed with my head and the ole scales. I rang today and rsvp'd for the feast bbq today - so no getting out of it now !

My book i been reading "love in a torn land" i will prolly finish tonite its the one about the lady who her and her hubby escape from iraw in 1987 when saddam ordered his cousin "chemical ali" to release chemical bombs. Was a really hard read,,,,but so very interesting. I didnt understand before all the history with the kurdish people. Funny how in the book her husband back in 1987 said to her "there is no way Saddam will die peacefully in his sleep"

Tomorrows friday ! YAY a weekend ! cant wait...have a good weekend all...will update my weight tomorrow =]

Well OMG if you love a good aussie meat pie you have to make annette syms "meat and potato pie" out of book 3. Tastes just like one...im amazed...and super filling which is always a bonus. I did 1 mile of the brisk walk on the walk away the pounds dvd today...and been super good. Played in a gammon tourney before work today and won...which is always nice lol. OMG and i ran 16 lengths of my hallway last nite...i RAN...its not that big a distance really but omg took a long time to catch my breath in the end but felt good its another step forward...ok not much else to say...cheersssssssssssssssssssss

Well i made the savoury scrolls today soooooooooooooooooooooooo yummii anyone who has annette syms 3rd book who likes savoury stuff needs to make em yum yum yum im making a potato and meat pie for dinner tonite. I took a photo of the scrolls lol ill add em at the bottom of the post. Don't they look yummii????

Tania emailed me and she is gonna smack me over the back off my head if i dont go to the feast bbq on sunday. Been busy today washing and cleaning...damn no rest for the wicked ! About to go do my walk away the pounds dvd and OMG remember i been saying about the planteritis (the heel pain) well last wednesday i bought some inner soles for my shoes they push ur foot in the right position. Anyway when i limp a fair amount of the day and when i first wake i simply cant put wait on my heel...well i woke in the middle of the nite and walked to the bathroom and then stopped - i was walking on my foot flat !!! all my weight was on it....and ive felt a lil pain all day but its hugely better ! im so hoping this is a good sign....

Okies im off to do my dvd ! enjoy all

Well back at work again today...i really dont like working till as late as 11.30pm as i am tonight but its nice having time before i go to work. I woke and ate hotcross buns then bad me while wwatching one of my crime shows i ate the egg i bought myseflf. Then i felt incredibly bloated and gross so i only had a fruit scroll for lunch. And have bought my cheesy tuna pasta for dinner whcih is low points for a huge bowl and i have a banana and mandarin to have after, so i will be well under on points. I love those crime shows the one i watched today was about a gay guy in sydney who got murdered in the 80's...who left his will to his past lover...but someone else forged a will...started spending money and then killed the guy who the will got left too...was quite a tangled mess lol.

I then went online chatted to a couple of friends i havent seen for a couple of months and then played in a gammon tourney.

Tomorrow i am off and planning a day of baking, going to make some more fruit scrolls and also some savoury ones, and a potato and meat pie and a big batch of fried rice...so lots of healthy stuff for during the week.

OMG AND im wearing the shirt today that Ang left here. So about 3.5 years ago wooo hoooo slowly getting there !!!

okies off to do some more work i go - enjoy all =]

Well just got home from work. Has been quite good today and last nite...not too busy .... which has been a nice break (kinda nice when u getting penaltiies)

Tonight at work...i was on the phone...sensed a commotion and i turned around and there was one of the guys being wheeled out by ambulance drivers on a stretcher. A 29 year old whose been to the hospital several times with chest pain and shortness of breath. Its amazing that i lasted till 38 years old with no major illness. Now at 39...and another 9 months till i turn 40...and i so never want to be wheeled out of work on a stretcher. Im so glad that i started getting healthy i mean im still over weight so still pressure on my heart....but i dont eat crap food no more so thats a relief.

I was reading the oprah magazine the other day and she did a story on journalling and how important it is for weight loss....how it can play such a important part of getting in the right head space. And we all know how mentality helps.

Well its getting late....and im working tomorrow...so i wanna just go and curl up n get some zzzzzzzzzzzzz's....

ni ni all !

OMG i had big news and i completely forgot and this big news happened like 2 days ago ! lol and i just realised apart from my gertilicious friend jody i had not told my fabulous site visitors or my family this news (altho i doubt mum would be too keen to hear about this LOL)

The volunteer organisation i applied too for volunteering with for the feast this year (the gay n lesbian festival for the month of november thats held in Adelaide each year) --- well the first meet and greet for all the volunteers is next weekend. Its a sausgae sizzle in Rymill Park...its basically just to meet everyone. Hopefully i dont get nervous and back out (i have a tendancy to do that with things like this lol) with these kind of situations i always tend to get into the whole tendancy of thinking EVERYONE else is going to judge my size. But thats not really fair for me to decide that others are judging me. When i get down to it im popular at work and theres no reason for me not to meet and make friends thru feast. Tania if i back out smack me over the back of the head or something since we will be meeting for dinner a few nites later...lol. I also "somehow" got put in charge of organising a get together with my old team...a number of people have left the company and the rest of us are spread out. So one of the gurls has offered we have it at her house as a type of house warming party...and now i have to figure out a date when most of us have a weekend off (if u knew our rosters you would know what a ardious task that will be) and then notifying everyone...and at least one person doesnt have access to emails. So gonna be very interesting. But that should be in mid to late May sometime...and i tell u right now...that nite im gonna be drinking champagne !!!! My old team leader Megan who resigned back in january and last time i saw her was in mide january...was always really supportive of my weight loss so it will be really good to see if she notices much of a difference...okies thats all...im still on a high over this weeks loss !!!

PS i have come to realise a lot of our friends over the pond (ie americans) read this site...so...so that you know my current loss is a total of 53 pounds - yay me !!!!

Well the HUGE news is ----- 2.2 kilos !!!! im ecstatic...it puts me at 146.4 kilos and my total loss is 24.5 kilos...........so close to the 25 kilos mark ! So for the 4 weeks since i left ww meetings ive lost 4.1 kilos and 9cm around my waist. Amazing how one loss can just completely get your head in the right head space. Im glad that ive had a good loss too whilst doing a lot of baking at home. i go back to work this afternoon...blah 2.30pm shift on a friday...hopefully as it is a public holiday it will be quiet...and of course great money !!! LOL Oh n tania i made the mars bar slice....yummmi

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Well what started out as a good day has changed a lil....came to work...to be told the team leader i have had a lot of problems with in the past is going to be my team leader again *ugh* not happy jan...my current team leader isnt here at the moment but i will have a talk to him about it on sunday. The one piece of good news was...whilst i was away they had a reward and recognition day....and i apparantly recieved a reward (apparantly a $50 voucher to david jones or myers) but will find out more when my team leader is in on sunday

wow cant believe only 2 days of my vacation left. This morning i finally got my dsl switched over to bigpond...so my email addy will change ill email everyone next week once i know the new one is up and running...temporarily if anyone needs to contact please use karyn_h@optusnet.com.au...its only a temporary one as reckon my current one will close by thursday. I also got a wireless modem so im happy happy.

I cooked tonight...made some mediteranean pasta sauce from out of the symply good to be true book...and i also made some fruit scrolls yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm so tasty. The scrolls worked out to 2 points each. And are beyond yummy and took no time to make and so cheap to make. Tomorrow im gonna look for some lite mars bars so i can make the mars bar slice out of her book. The mediteranean sauce was yummy too

Okies im off !!!! Enjoy all =]

Well i think a entry is well overdue. A entry ive been putting off since friday. Well weighed and gained 1.3 kilos....and i can completely say all my own doing. I was upset friday thought it musta been the scales...not me...took my measurements i had lost 2cm around my waist but still gained 1.3 kilos. I thought back and there were prolly somethings i shouldnt have eaten (light peanut butter is not THAT light lol) Anyway the last few days i had been better and i have lost 200 grams since then so i am gonna use todays weight which is 148.4 kilos. But after giving it lots of thought i started to realise i was getting into vacation mode not only from work but also from weight loss. I talked to mum on the phone and by the time i hung up i had realised in the last couple of weeks i have prolly lost some focus. So its time (yet again) to get serious....whilst on the phone mum told me she picked up a video of yoga...and this week when i go shopping i will pick up one or two more exercise ones (mite have to check out ebay some by jillian would be really good) i also have the walk away the pounds one. Anyway so i hung up the phone came out did 50 steps on the stepper followed by 50 arm punches followed by 15 touch the ground and stretch...followed by 50 steps on the stepper and 50 arm punches and the heart rate was really going, later today i will do the 1 mile walk on the walk away the pounds. I think a big thing is i need variety in the exexercises. Curves bores me at the moment to be honest so while for the moment im still paying im not attending but i really need to be consistent at home. So the plan is :

monday (today) 1 mile walk on the walk away the pounds
tuesday my pilates video + 100 steps on the stepper
wednesday dancing to music for 30 minutes
thursday 1 mile walk with 100 steps on the stepper

im also hoping to buy some innersoles for my shoes this week which should help me with my heel problem...if that does help i will start to incorporate walks in my day. I think i need to start committing plans for exercise and putting them down in my journal (thanks claudia i got that idea from your journal) so i will start doing that and sticking to it...and if i dont someone kick me in the ass i need the occassional kick LOL.

But whilst im being tuff on myself (dont worry im not feeling down or nothing quite the opposite) i realised today i am about to start into the 9th month of this weight loss. Sure id like the weight loss to have been more at this point but i just gotta keep at it...and 8 full months is sure as heck the longest ive stuck to healthy lifestyle...i also need to remember im getting older LOL and my body and metabolism wont be as good as it once was plus the pcos...so whilst i need to buckle down im still doing pretty good...all considered...okies off to do some laundry need to slowly start preparing for going back to work LOL =]

Well vacation time is pretty damn nice eh? Tomorrow is my inspection of the unit so this afternoon ive been cleaning ... not that i really had that much to do but im the biggest procrastinator going ! But the floors are all washed now...ill just sweep over em and everything is clean ! The lease is all signed and on the kitchen counter ready to give to them....will be nice once they have been here and i know all is okay.

I bought some chicken mince and some light puff pastry so im gonna make some pastries tomorrow with shallots...hopefully they are nice !

I worked out the other day if i maintain a loss of a kilo a week (last 2 weeks been 1.6 kilos) then i should be around 130 kilos when i go to my sisters in july which would be awesome. My 3/4 jeans are really getting looser specially around my waist and stomach.

I bought a new book...im so getting into reading lately...its called love in a torn land and its about a gurl and her hubby who escape iraw after saddam hussein ordered his cousing ali to release chemical bombs...it starts with her as a 10 year old kid...untill she makes her escape i havent read much so far but seems interesting

Okies off to read my magazine - enjoy all !

Well its a good day ! Woke up and weighed....and i lost 1.6 kilos for the week !!!! Which i am wrapped about....amazining 1.4 kilos and im at 25 kilos and 2.4 kilos and im under 145 woooooooooo hoooooo getting there

The other day i remembered when Ang was here she left me one of her t shirts...she was here like 3 1/2 years ago (man time flies !) anyway...i found the tshirt and it fits ! its a good t shirt too lol a ralph lauren LOL (gotta like exs who like designer label clothes lol) its a firm fit...but is quite wearable...so that was exciting.

Was invited out to the pub after work last nite but declined...partly cos i didnt wanna drink the nite before weigh in plus i was working till 6.30pm and then wanted to do my grocery shopping. So went and did the groceries...i normally always shop at coles...but i went and did it at woolies...it cost me $214.00 LOL so im wondering if they are cheaper or more expensive lol but they have a good range of food so whatever lol

At this very moment i have a gardener here tidying the yard...so it will look all spick n span for the inspection and then i just gotta tidy up inside the nite before and give the outside of the windows a once over.

Well my day off and im gonna go relax a bit before doing my walk away the pounds dvd later today - enjoy ur friday all !

Well my 2 days off were great...very relaxing. I walked around mums yesterday afternoon its a 30 minute walk...by the time i got there my heel was killing me so prolly wasnt the wisest thing to do...all considered. I took a sneak peak at the scales this morning...all looking very promising for tomorrows weigh in. I also measured my waist...as ive been keep an eye on that for the last few weeks...and in 2 weeks i have lost 5cms from my waist ! Amazing. It was 120cm now its under 115cm so very impressed with that and things are paying off. Next thursday i have a inspection of the unit and sign a new lease so busy busy busy around here at the moment, hopefully tomorrow i will get the front yard all tidyed up...leaves everywhere LOL....okies nearly time to get ready for work...be back here tomorrow with my weigh in results =]

ohhhhhhhhhhh and i also wanted to say a huge thank you to everyone who adds comments or emails me with encouragement...it really makes my day and helps me !

Well was a lil on the slack side last nite...i did 150 steps on the stepper and half of the 2 mile walk - made it to 1 mile! Its a lot brisker then the 1 mile walk by itself i was sweating. Also when watching biggest loser they were doing jumps forward from a standing position...i did them up and down my hall lol they kill...and puff ya but i mite continue to try and do them. I am heading for a good loss this week...i wont say how much but let me saying...hitting a loss of 25 kilos...is coming closer and closer...this cardio is really paying off =]

I have the next 2 days off...i didnt wake till 8.30am this morning and i was STILL tired LOL..but next 2 nites i will sleep in.

I watched that movie murdr in the outback last nite...i read her book recently and they really screwed with the story. They made her out to be a bitch but if u had read her book u would understand where she was coming from...so was disappointed. Then fell asleep whilst my best friends wedding was on...dayam i love that movie !

Okies we are busy today and work calls - later all !

Well omg monday tomorrow again already, but lucky me..i only work tomorrow and another two days off...i was gonna go in and do some overtime today but at the last minute cancelled it...have a bit of a headache. Well things are going good...got on the scales this morning and i have a real good loss headed this way this week too =] soon as i finish this post im gonna do 300 steps on the stepper...then after dinner and watching biggest loser im gonna try the 2 mile walk...havent done that one yet so should be interesting...tania ill tell you about that dvd when i see u next !

Omg had a shower last nite...and remembered at xmas time how i bought some pj's from katies...really cute ones...pink paisley pattern with a plain pink top with aqua lace on the pant legs and top and they finally fit meeeeeeeeeeeee !!! omg how exciting. And the other thing is i measured my waist a week ago and again this weekend....its gone down 2 cm in a week. Tonite im having my yumm cheesy tuna pasta for dinner then ive got one of ww's new mocha desserts so yummm. Mum bought me some fitness thing at a garage sale for $5 not really sure what it is she said something about weights and a mat and a video...so will prolly get it off her next week hopefully its something i can put to use i tell u im starting to get my own lil gym here...i saw biggest loser has a ball you sit on with elesticised arm thingys...gawd i didnt explain that well...but im thinking of getting it too...target actually has a good rang of home exercise stuff

Okies off to the stepper i go !

Well i weight in today. Good news. When i got these scales last weekend...on saturday...i weighed in at 150.6 this morning when i weighed in i was 148.9 !!!! wooo hoooo thats 1.6 kilos! So i am very happy...i went to curves once this week and did my walk away the pounds dvd, my stepper and danced around like a idiot in the lounge room once night lol so what people were saying about more cardio seems to make sense =]

The jeans i just started wearing especially around the waist are getting looser ... so thats good news too. I feel really good...i feel like im on a right path again and hopefully next week ill match with another loss...even if its not a big loss...as long as its a loss !

Tonight im planning to do the 1 mile walk and 300 steps on the stepper. I like that dvd as i really feel it working my legs & hips. And i really need to lose there specially my upper thighs. So anyways thats all my news !

Well i posted on the ww forum last nite about my plateau and what i should be doing exercise wise. Everyone seemed to say dont do weights more then twice a week and increase the cardio. So thats the plan. Ill go to curves 1-2 times per week and ill buy a few dvds to get the cardio for me to do at home. I did the one mile walk away the pounds dvd today...and after biggest loser tonite ill do my 300 steps on the stepper. I have had a sneak peek at the scales and after peeing out most of the murray river LOL i look like i will have a loss. I wasnt shocked i must admit...i ran to the toilet so many times today so i was pretty sure after TOM im getting rid of fluid. When i did the walk away the pounds dvd i didnt have the fit strip thing so i used 2 cans of soup instead and boy feeling it in my upper arms and omg that workout kills my upper legs and hips. But i think i will buy some of jillian michaels dvds i saw on ebay she has a hip hop dance one lol

Okies time for din din...hugssss all !!!

Okies...first off a big thank you for all the feedback after i posted the photo - its always nice to know the changes i see arent just my imagination.

I went to the docs the other day cos ive been getting a lot of heel pain and he told me i have planteritis (which i had about 10 years ago and ended up having to wear things that went in my shoes) anyway today its real sore...i was planning to go to curves but i think i will wait till i get home and then decide...if not i will do the walk away the pounds dvd...at least that way i have cushioning via the carpet for my heel. I also managed to do 300 steps on the stepper last nite !!! hehe very impressed...would be very cool if i can reach 500. And the good thing is i really feel it in my upper legs (aches in fact) but thats good cos i really need to see some changes in my legs.

I got more leave approved yesterday...so after friday i go into the land of real relaxation !!! next week i only work monday...thursday...& the weekend. Then i started a bulk amount of leave from the 26th thru till the 5th april. Every day xcept sunday im planning to go to the gym.

Well not a real lot else to say ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my sis emailed me...xmas time we are going boogy boarding when i visit hehe

Well...decision time lol...ive decided to only do ww online. As i said i pay for etools...and i struggle to attend every meeting cos of my work roster...i bought biggest loser scales today (for fat and body weight) also bought a biggest loser pedometer and for a lazy day and only wearing it this afternoon ive done 2834 steps by 8.20pm wo0ot I just sat down after doing 250 steps on the stepper yay me !!! and 100 arm punches and im planning to repeat it before bed. Ive decided if i have two gains in a row ill go back to the ww meetings...i also have my curves weigh ins...so anyways thats the plan =] Okies got a new photo...i honestly think i can see the difference even from the photos from a few weeks ago....so even tho i have really plateaued the exercising i feel is making the difference !





oh and tania dont read this lol butttttttttttt yay laura !!!!!

Well gawd what a day - i woke got dressed and thought to myself i look slimmer ! Went and weighed in --- AND GAINED !!! Talk about a rollercoaster...i put on 800 grams...the leader then said is there anything she can help with...i explained im doing weights etc...and her answer was cut back on the weights - do very little of em...which i KNOW is not the answer. I walked out peeved...not only at the gain (i think i am officially on a plateau) but at the leaders stooopid comment. I then went to katies...walked in planning to look for a new top or two...and they were having a sale ! So shopping i went...i bought a beautiful red zip up cardigan, tshirt, necklace, white pants, long sleeve pink top, another blouse and a tank top --- all for $160 !!! And heres the best news...all size 22's. The cardigan i picked up was size XL ... i decided to try on jsut a L (which i think in katies world is a size 20-22) and it fit --- so even tho i gained im wearing the smallest size i have for ages ! So i am going to look at the big picture...tomorrow i am going to buy new scales...part of me is tempted to just do ww online .... i pay for etools anyway...and this leaders comments really turned me off that meetings...okies well its time for work...just todays shift and i am on a actual weekend ! ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh btw i bought the biggest loser book looks really good...and also bought the book my friend lawrence which is the follow up to a million pieces =]

im wearing new clothes !!!! My jeans i bought from katies at xmas time that barely fit over my bum they now do up theyre firm fitting around my stomach but prolly have a centimetre or so room around the waist - which makes me really happy. Im also noticing my orange n pink striped top...the one in most of my photos is getting decidedly too big for me...its a size 24...im sure a size 22 would fit me quite easily now. So this weekend i mite go looking for a couple of size 22 tops. I also need to try on the jacket i bought at katies...that fitted me but was really firm...but hopefully that will fit better now.

Last nite i got home from work and did 120 steps on the stepper...35 arm reps and 100 arm punches (everytime i went to the toilets at work i did 50 too LOL) tonite the plan is 150 steps on the stepper...200 arm punches and 50 arm reps...so wish me luck with that ! Im starting to really see the benefits of this exercising which im loving !

Okies off to work - tania hope your feeling better !!!

Its funny how now im going to curves im wanting to exercise more. Last night after i watched biggest loser i did 100 steps on the stepper and boy that was hard work. I slept really awfully last nite so slept in and didnt go to curves today but tonite when i get home im planning to do 100 steps...100 arm punches and 50 reps with the soup cans LOL id really like to do it all twice we will see how much it kills me. I am actually considering buying a boxing bag...ive got a hook under my verandah i could hang it and id imagine its quite a cardio workout.

I am really not only noticing my fitness levels going up...but my upper arms are really getting firm on the top part...(especially my right arm) and im noticing also my calves are getting very firm. And of course my fitness levels are improving no way i coulda done 100 steps a few days ago.

I also got a copy of the walking away the pounds dvd thanks to a angel lol...and on the weekend when i am planning to try the 1mile walk.

I loved on biggest loser last nite they all went surfing. I think when i go to visit my sis (who lives in a fishing town) in december i am going to have to convince her to go to the beach and me try that...the kids would love it no matter what lol

Okies off i go...time for work !

Well a day off how niceeeeeeeeeee !!! Went to the gym this morning and worked out hard...i think im getting some of my fitness back since i had the time off cos of my shoulder...hoping to go to bed early tonite...so i can go in the morning as well. My upper arms and thighs are aching today so i musta worked out good !

All the lounge room and bedroom are all clean. Just gotta move one chair out of the lounge room and the carpets getting cleaned on saturday. At the moment the dining room is all cluttered driving me a bit nuts actually will be good once the carpets are cleaned on saturday to put everything back in its place.

4 days and then i get a weekend off...weeee yay. Didnt realise next monday is a public holiday and i was planning to go to ww meeting that nite...so ill have to figure something else

I hope gerard goes tonite...i think laura is going good...and well gerard is a pain in the ass,,,,altho i woulda preferred to see courtney or munnalita go

Okies time to cook dinner !

well thank gawd the weather has cooled down...those successive days of 37-38 degres we getting old. Altho today i feel my sinuses are playing up a lil...i just took some nurofen so hopefully they will settle down. I finish work at 9.30tonite which after working to 11.30pm for the last few nites feels really early. So when i go home im planning to cook up a pot of cheesy tuna pasta and then i shall make some low point scones yummmm yummmmm...and i have 5.5 points left (ive discoverred i think i really was under eating) so i may have a bowl of the pasta to beef up my points. I was also counting my uncle toby muesli bars -which i love- as 2 points...they are actually 1.5 points.

Okies busy busy nite at work ... need to get back to it ! byessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss !

Wooo hooo great news !!! i am finally under 150 kilos...i lost 500 grams today (making it my 6th loss in a row) and am now down to 149.7 kilos...so ecstatic. And total loss is now 21.2 kilos...yay me ! okies was just a short post have a good weekend all !


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Has anyone used that chat program called second life? has over a million chatters...its like the sims in a chat program...so cool you can make them kiss or sit down and meditate and even if u sit them day their eyes move their hair moves in like the wind and theres all these "worlds" all over the place...its unbelievable. You can dress them in whatever clothes you have for them...whatever jewellery ...change the texture of their hair...style...colour...is way cool id love to learn to do the graphics...being the graphic addict i am...i looked and theres lots of tutorials for it on the net so when i have my week off mite spend a bit of time doing that.

one of the managers asked me how my weight loss is going today and then said "your looking good" so that was really pleasing.

Okies back to work !

Well my lease runs out the end of this month, the landlord rang me today to say joy oh joy the rent is going up $10/week and that they will organise a inspection some time this month. I kinda played coy said i will prolly renew but will check out a few things...i want them to think they gotta work a lil for me to be their tenant altho that said they are very good landlords...n leave me in peace.

im only expecting to lose about 200 grams tomorrow and for the first time if i do only lose 200 grams i wont stress. Altho 300 grams so im actually under 150 kilos would be really really nice. But considering i know now i am losing in centimetres im not stressing as much. Ive decided to not post on the ww forum as much...theres a lot of drama there at times...and i find i judge myself too much on how others are doing and i dont think that is really healthy for me as it can mess with my head too much.

Oooooooooooooo theres a biggest loser book...heres a link here!!! Will have to go out and check it on next week.

Not much else going on...ww weigh in tomorrow...curves saturday morning and working over the weekend...until later ... ciao !

Welllllllllllllllllllll measuring has been done and i do have some good news :) Okies...so im showing a weight loss of 900 grams....which means this week ill prolly only lose 200 grams...my body fat has dropped by .3%. I didnt lose anything from my arms, waist and thighs, off my boobs i lost 1 cm (of course LOL) off my hips 1cm and off my stomach,,,,,8cms !!!! So i feel a lot better about things now...im not expecting over 200 grams this week so i wont be disappointed...but at least i now know curves is doing what i expected. So onwards with this month :)

Have you ever had one of those days where you shouldnt have gotten out of bed? Boy oh boy ive had one of them today.

Went to curves this morning (this was the only part of my day thats really been good lol) Spoke to one of the girls there...i said how my losses had reduced dramatically. She told me some people in the first month actually put on weight...and i have lost so to stop stressing...she said i am prolly builing muscle mass...but she wants me to wait to my measuring on wednesday then discuss it more. I also got on the scales there. Now last time i weighed there was january 28, i wore jeans and my normal boots (the boots dont weigh a lot) i weight around 148.3 on their scales. On the same day at ww i weighed 150.9. Today i was wearing my sneakers and work out gear and my weight was 145.4 which does indicate a bit of a loss to me. But we will see how i got when i get my measurements done and weigh in on friday...i do feel better tho.

Then i went home for a bit..got ready for work...walked out the door...realised id left something inside...so went back in and closed the door and looked at my hands...and realised my keys werent in it...i swore i look at the door and the keys werent in the door either and after checking my handbag came to the conclusion id locked the keys in my house. gawd i went into total stress mode...i am the biggest stresser...had to go to the shops to call a locksmith (well to call mum who called one) ...called work...went to mums...then home waited out the front for 10 minutes or so and then thought ill check the front door...well for goodness sakes there were the damn keys !!! So ran inside...called the locksmith and cancelled them...felt like a complete fool...and then finally got on with my day !

Well feeling better today (even with a 7am start lol) one of the managers at work asked me how my weight loss is going today i was saying how im at curves now...and she was like i can really see it in ur face and shoulders. I decided to bite the bullet and post some more photos...i think there is a difference...but maybe im just dreaming LOL...but i think my boobs are sitting higher and i think my face definitely looks thinner and even i think my waist a lil...so here we go with them

Todays photos

 




Photos from early january

 







And god forbid...lol....last April





Anyway here they are in there not so glory lol...i am interested to see what others think tho....

Well...funny how nitemares can kinda become true. Ive actually been dreading writing this post. I went to weigh in this morning in all honesty i didnt think there would be a doubt id be under 150 kilos and with the work id put in i expected over a kilo to be honest. So i was very disappointed and pissed off when i saw a loss of only 200 grams (yanno the story of the tortoise and the hare...i certainly seem to be the tortoise...and when i get to that hare im gonna strangle his neck LOL) So i left the meeting and was jacked kept thinking all that work for a measly 200 grams (and tania was thinking i know exactly how tania felt that other week - maybe you should forward back to me the email i sent you at the time LOL) Anyway i had been planning to go to target and check out their gym equipment and then do the grocery shopping...but after the meeting initially i was thinking stuff it...im going home to get out of this heat...but after arguing with myself and KNOWING i need to go get the groceries or id stuff this week off i went off and did that. I went to target and they had a biggest loser stepper which i had watched laura use the nite before thinking i need one of them...so i got it...and then headed off to do the grocery shopping...the whole time mulling over the past week in my head. I then looked at my book...jan 29...the day i signed up to curves i lost 1.6 kilos...i then missed a week cos of my work schedule...the following week i lost 500 grams and then this week...200 grams...so if you look at it since joining curves my losses have dropped to a average of 200-250 grams. I then got thinking to a friend of mine emmy...who when she started curves she actually had sizeable gains...i know im building muscle...even this week when i havent been but ive been doing my reps with the tomato soup cans...i can feel my upper arms. Theyre not sore but i can "feel" them contantly...like a ache...or theyre heavy....i guess the real telling story will be when i get measured...altho yanno i dont feel like ive lost much in inches but i havent measured myself so i dont truly know. But i decided that this is just a test...and im gonna persevere...im gonna track this week and take my points down to 26 points...since they will drop soon as im under 150 anyway.im gonna go back to curves on monday. and the days i dont do curves im gonna do my lil cardio work out during biggest loser being the only day i wont do exercise is saturday. So while im pissed about the small loss i am gripping very tightly on to the fact its cos of the exercising (i hope this is true and not just some justification in my head) Anyway so we will see how i go....my next weigh in will be next wednesday...im not going to put pressure on me but i am gonna aim for 300 grams...so wish me luck !

Well dammit to hell i had a nitemare !!! Good lawd !!! I dreamed i was back up at 154.5 when i weighed in LOL...a gain of 4.1 kilos LOL now im pretty damn positive i wont have that gain...i hope its not a indication im not gonna lose tho =[

I finished that book...a million little pieces...sooooo good...but he kinda wrapped the ending up to fast i thought. But he has another book out my friend leonard which is about one of his friends he met in rehab, so mite try and get that. Ive been enjoying going to bed and reading for half an hour or so before sleep...altho the other nite...went to bed at 12.30am,,,,read for it bit...next thing looked at the clock and was nearly 2am LOL goddamnit !!!!

So tomorrow is the big weigh in day i so hopeeeeeeeeeee i get a good result. i see in the target catalogue they got a fitness ball with arm weight thingies...biggest loser brand so i mite go check that out.

Am eating my slightly burnt home made pizza LOL...tonite im gonna get the ingreditents to make low point scones mmmmmmmmm

Okies off i go enjoy ya day....everyone keep ya fingers n toes crossed for tomorrow !

Well went to my letter box today and woot a couple of surprises. The first being a letter from foxtel telling me i won $22.22 on there tv1cash prizes which i knew id got 10 out of 10 but i really wondered if id ever hear from them. Then also flybuys sent me my statement and i could redeem a $20 voucher for target.

I did 50 reps again with the soup cans and 15 minutes of kicks...so yay me !!! I made all good choices today so im really feeling confident of a good loss this week. I am feeling quietly confident of getting under 150 kilos (lawd hope i dont fall on my face) LOL

Oh that book i bought a million different pieces...im getting close to the end...so good...if u wanna good read (in my best molly meldrum voice) "do yaself a favour" and get it !!!!

okies off i gooooooooo ni ni !!!

Well its been a interesting 4 or 5 days. I ended up going to the docs friday afternoon for him to tell me i had pinched a nerve in my shoulder and basically i needed to not lift anything and rest it and to not go to the gym for a week or so. Initially i was very frustrated after just getting into the exercise routine. Saturday and Sunday i did rest it. Sunday night I decided it was time to exercise a lil so while biggest loser was on for 30 minutes i did front kicks...omg my upper legs killed and my heart rate was up and i was tired but i sure as hell lasted for 3o minutes. Today i did the same thing but i also did some resistance stuff for my arm. i havent been using my left arm as much (it feels like a dead arm) so i did 50 reps with 2 x 500 grams of soup. Whilst i dont think i could do a full curves session at the moment i thought it was important to start to get strength up in my arm. I also last nite had the worst cravings for pizza...so instead of letting it building up n then having thick pizza with chocolate brownies and garlic bread etc...i ordered a thin style and pepsi max and then of course did my exercises after. Which i think was a really good way to deal with things. And even though i had the pizza i still feel like i can have a good loss this week. So with luck i will be under 150 kilos. weeeeeeeeeee which would be great and would also put me at a loss of 21 kilos or more...so we will see how it goes. But its funny now how its getting more in my mind about being healthy then just numbers on the scales. The fact i can do 30 minutes of exercise feels a real accomplishment in itself. I am even starting to think about what exercises in the future i wanna do. My exercise goal is when im under 100 kilos i wanna do dance classes again (just once or twice a week...modern dance or something) id also like to take some tennis lessons or play netball. Will depend by the time i get there and what i can work in with work hours.

BTW Airlie so good to find ur site again and ty so much about my 20 kilos loss =]

Okies off i go...oh and omg so sad jillian isnt on biggest loser still...lil spunkee thing she is and woooo hoooo kelly got eliminated !!!

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Well the news is i lost...the other news is i didnt lose by lots. But i am happy. i mean a week ago i was thinking i couldnt do this after having a bad week where im sure i prolly put on half a kilo...so i lost 400 grams this week which i am pleased with. I have been waking this week with a sore shoulder and taking pain killers to get thru the day,,,but today i woke and its a lot worse (after using a heating pad) the pain is all down my arm and also my neck a lil so this afternoon im off to the docs (great way to spend a day off with this stinking heat) but i need to get it checked out...depending what he says i may not go to the gym this week...i may just do my exercises to biggest loser each day...and OMG did u see? a lesbian on biggest loser,,,,yay !! about time. LOL. Although i did read rumours that jillian is gay. She apparantly owns a gym in NY with another woman who is supposedly her partner...no wonder i thought jillian is spunky LOL that was my gaydar going off LOL but then again thats never been too accurate so who knows...okies off i go

OMG so hot today...gawd this heat is horrid ill be so glad for winter. Well tomorrow is it...weigh in day...hope it goes well my jeans feel looser so i need to remind myself even if the weigh in doesnt go as good as expected im sure when im measured again on the 28th. Its great how loose my jeans feel...and surprising cos i havent had any muscle pain in my lower half from the gym. Altho my upper half seems to be achey a lot LOL Okies just a quick post...wish me luck tomorrow - toodles !!!

omg another post who woulda thought it LOL im actually really pooped...i know ill sleep like a baby tonight but my posts are usually so rushed at work so thought id do one from home tonite.

I went to the gym...was nearly tempted not to go as i got off a call late from work and had to dash out to make the bus and omg this is the lamest excuse ever....but i was busting for the grrls room...yup u heard it right i was doing the PP dance LOL as i had a bbq to go to after the gym i was so tempted to go home...GO TO THE LOO and shower and change and go to the bbq...but i thought no im sure theres a toilet there...and yes of course there was LOL so then i did my workout and man i was pumping those machines...no twiddling my thumbs and my upper body and arms ache LOL by the time i finished and got changed i was feeling it and i was sweating. And in the middle of the circuit they have this table theres always signs and stuff on it well today as it was valentines day they had a selection of beaded bracelets, some were pink, some were blue and we got to keep one, anyway i grabbed this multiculour one...rather cute...see pic below lol





Then i went to mums for dinner...i went over my points by 3.5 points...but had earnt 8 points in exercise which i could use 4 of so i still have .5 left. So I ate turkey with baked potato and light sour cream and pasta and egg salad and 3 nuggets LOL

Was a nice dinner but by that point i was tired and just wanting to go home. On the ww site there are 3 of us very close in weight...we are having a lil competition to our next goal...BUT i may be in trouble depends on fridays weigh in...i really really hope it goes well...ill be disappointed if with all this exercise i dont lose a lil bit at least

Okies my bed is really calling me...hugssss ni ni all =]

Well last night didnt quite go to plan. I was home 5 minutes when the phone rang and mum was having problems with her nortons and as she has crappy nortons 2007 which im not familiar with i had to go around and in the end i had to uninstall it and reinstall it...and finally by this morning everything was done. But of course i was starving...and ended up having dinner over there which was far from points friendly...was sausages, chips, a egg, and these pastries filled with spinich and ricotta - eek. Well whats done is done...nothing i can do about it. Tonite i finish at 5.30pm and then off to the gym...mum invited me over for a bbq after which is chicken roll and salad...but i may not go...see how tired i am after the gym.

Everything else is going good...i noticed under my arms thru to my back so i KNOW i did work hard on monday like i mentioned the other day and i plan on working those machines hard again tonite. Then if i dont go to mums...a nice bowl of pasta.

Tania i forgot to mention in my email for belysimi's website address or however u spell her username LOL...if you see this can you send please :)

That book ive been reading has turned out very interesting,,,,he is going thru rehab for drug and alcohol abuse...and what does he fill the void of the addiction with? yep u guessed it --- food. While its not a book on weight loss really quite interesting to see that.

Okies just about lunchtime so off i go !

yay another good day and i still feel so psyched its amazing. Woke up and treated myself to a hot cross bun, and then in my first break ate a ww cake (has anyone tried these? yum yum) and a mandarin. Tonite I am planning on making tacos yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm and am off to curves tonite as well hopefully be home in time for biggest loser. I know everyone is saying its not healthy weight loss but seeing them working out etc really motivates me. Am reading a great new book...is called a million little pieces by james frey. Was a oprah book club book...and had a lot of controversy over whether it was all a true story or not...but ooooo its good...is about a guy who has a alcohol and drug addiction and he wakes up on a plane all injured after days of a drunken and drugged haze and his family meets him and takes him to a rehab clinic...im only up to page 81 but really really good sofar

I watched a episode of greys anatomy last nite...think i have a new show...LOL okies off i go...and gawd i hope courtney gets kicked off biggest loser tonite !!!!


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Went to curves and as i walked in someone yelled out hello karyn...turned out it was this lady i used to work with in the bank...so ended up chatting to her a lil while working out. And omg i worked so hard i was really pumping those machines...then i raced home for biggest loser...lawd i didnt realise courtney had immunity...and poor alex going home...but he looks good with how much weight he has lost, and OMG i think i could have a crush on jillian,.....she is so damn spunky !

Okies off i go...lawdie im tired tonite

I am soooooo psyched right now. Went out to dinner with my mum & co...had a nice pasta then came home and raced inside for the biggest loser weigh ins (omg i was sooooo happy that courtney had the smallest loss and alex the highest loss on the red time...i hope to god they send courtney home tomorrow nite)Anyway so from8.15pm 8.42pm to be exact LOL i marched and did leg kicks and hip swings. I enjoyed it so much better then walking. The walking hurts the base of my feet. So thats 2 days in a row of exercise and tomorrow nite im off to curves weeeeeeeeeeeeeee maybe this friday i can have a good result. i feel really really good about things. Anyway gonna go eat my ww ice cream and guzzle some more water before going to bed to read for a bit (drank 1.8 litres yesterday !!)

Update ! Update !

Wellllllllllll went for my walk !!! and it didnt take me 40 minutes....did it in 20 minutes ! i walked at a real solid pace no dawdling and my feet hurt but i did it LOL...and thats it...i am going to exercise everyday this week. Then i FINALLY bought my new handbag...and went to the hairdressers LOL my hair colour is even lighter now and next time...she is gonna blonde all my hair lol omg ill have the perfect excuse for all the dumb shit i do....but im blonde !! LOL

Anyway came home....and retried on the jeans i bought from katies at xmas that i couldnt get over my ass and wooo hooo they not only fit over my ass... they do up !!! i think this was just the boost i need. im tossing up whether to go to the movies or not...that movie isnt on till the 14th gawd im duh sometimes..but dreamgirls is on...but then i bought this new book i wouldnt mind reading...decisions decisions !

Thats it !!!

Well thats it ! No more fart assing around...not attending a meeting is just a lame excuse to eat a bit extra. i didnt go to the meeting...i woke up late...feeling like a sloth...and then thought well ill go to the gym..but i fart assed around so much i didnt make that either. Its 12.15 now...and im just cooking a chicken fillet which ill have in a hamburger roll with low fat cheese and tomato for lunch and then with water bottle in hand i am walking from my house to sefton park shopping centre, ive never walked it before and im guessing its a 40 minute walk...by the time i get up there i will then go look for a damn handbag then off to the hairdressers. And heres the deal...i do the walk...i can shout myself out to dinner at fellinis and to see a movie...if i dont...its stay at home and do house work. i cannot even believe i was starting to get into the mindset of throwing this all away. By lunch i will have eat 11.5 points,,,,leaving me with a possible 15.5 points...so a nice dinner at fellinis is completely do able and still have points left over.

Claudia - thank you for the nice comments you left on one of my posts a couple of posts ago and tania...yes yes gotta catch up again soon. I will email you tonite or tomorrow. And thanks to tania and my sister for sending me messages after yesterdays post...but never fear today is a new day !!! LOL okies the chicken fillet should be cooked...off i go...hugsssss all !!

well im not doing so great with my journey right at the moment, i havent been really bad or anything but have been eating more carbs then i should have. And when i got thinking about it i remembered back a few years ago when i lost 25-30 kilos...and then stalled after 6 months...and what do u know? im at 6 months...as exactly 6 months yesterday and my loss is sitting at 20.1 kilos...so i feel like this could be a real telling time for me...i think also not having gone to a meeting this week has really done me damage .... makes me realise how important those meetings are. So tonite after work i will go and grocery shop...i think part of the problem is i had run out of fresh fruit and so had no bananas or mandarisn which i normally eat for my snacks. And tomorrow morning i am going out to norwood for a meeting and weigh in...on the way back ill stop off in town and buy a new handbag which i desperately need and then come home before going off to the hairdressers in the afternoon. Which is gonna mean i wont make the gym...but i really feel this meeting is important. Tomorrow i will go for a 30 minute walk too tho at some point. Anyway i felt it was really important to get this all down in words.

Popped over to tanias journal today...so good seeing you so motivated !!! Was great to read and i think that can really rub off on to me.

Okies off i go work is busy busy busy !!!

well of to curves i went today. Was rather good...i went at like 9.30am so was pretty quiet when i started was only me there and by the end only 2 other ladies. I really enjoy it tho its hard and tiring. I really push myself tho altho the last 10 minutes i find my muscles feel really tired. Tomorrow i work 10.30am-6.30pm so i wont make it there but i will try and go for a walk tomorrow nite. Then i have the weekend off...YAY !!!

Saturday is kinda busy...go to the gym, do the grocery shopping. I need to buy a new handbag as mine broke, theres this gorgeous shop near where i live that sells handbags but they are like $90 each but they have 25% off so i mite go there and see if there is one i really like. Sunday will be cleaning and relaxing. Dymocks just emailed me that a book i ordered is in so mite be a bit of reading time. Then next week i work 9.30-5.30 most days.

I am loving biggest loser altho i didnt see it the last few days cos of work. i thought sarah was in denial all along...and a big ole baby...i mean crying cos someone else is having a hard workout??? lawdie...i could understand if it was her having the hard workout LOL i like damien tho and hope he goes far....he has so much he could gain from this.

Okies break is nearly over...time to get back on the phones !

lawd been a while since ive updated.

Actually been sick this week...i hadnt had TOM for like 3 months and well it came back and boi did it come back. Ive had the worse stomach & back aches since monday but today seems a lot better and i am back at work.

Have actually come to a conclusion...and that is im removing chat programs from my computer. I have slowly become more and more bored in them...till i realised today i sit in them but i dont pay attention half the time...instead im in my browser reading the news website or ww forum, and they are really counter productive to my weight loss. My free time should not revolve around a computer. Thats not to say i wont ever go back but at the moment i feel like i need a break. And i will see how things go i may even cancel my dsl there is really no point to it when work gives me 100 free hours per month on dial up if im not gonna be online much.

I went to curves on saturday and really enjoyed it...and tomorrow ill go back and again saturday. I didnt weigh this week cos of my gawd damn awful roster...but im not too concerned as im really motivated at the moment and expect the first few weeks at curves to gain muscle. But i will weigh in again next wednesday.

This weekend i am having the foils done again in my hair and a trim yay yay and saturday night i mite go to the movies to see the new drew barrymore movie...okies we are busy busy at work so gotta dash =]

Well things been happening again LOL I applied for a new job in the company I work for yesterday. After i finish work today i am going up to the departtment its in, to meet the manager and to look around and to listen to some calls =] Then after that i am off to curves to do a session. This weekend im not doing a lot...saturday morning i will go to curves and its nice to have a bit of free time to clean and do washing and saturday nite i mite watch a movie -ooops gotta move puters bbl