Well with a big sigh of relief im happy to say i made 20 kilos !!! yay !!! So happy and relieved. So now i have 3 new goals. by January 2 id like to lose 700 grams...by march 29 lost 10 kilos and by nieces birthday in july another 10 kilos !!!! okies ill be back later to post more - in the middle of a backgammon tournament lol

oh yes nearly forgot...i lost1.3 kilos...so total loss now of 20.3 kilos =]

Well 3 days to go till next weigh in...i really havent focussed on it as much this week. My friend emmy messaged me on msn yesterday and was saying i hope you make the 20 kilos this week and as i said to her....right at the moment i just want a loss...but i do feel a lil confident of meeting it too.

I have realised while i have lost a lot of weight from my face and and upper body...i havent lose as much as i would have liked from my hips, stomach and upper legs, which makes me realise clothing size wise i was probably a lot bigger size then i realise (i suspect 2 kilos now) and what im finding is that tops that fit me around my hips and hugeeeee around my boobs ugh !!!! Which is a pain. I bought this pretty a line top...fitted me on the hips but was huge up top and cos it was sleeveless and the arm holes relatively big when i wear it anyone standing side on could see directly inder the top and see my bra n stuff lol so thats not a good look....so back to target that goes.I also bought 2 pairs of 3/4 jeans...neither fit me and i got 2 different sizes so the bigger size ill keep but the smaller size i will return...damn pain in the butt. I suspect by the time i lose another 10-15 kilos things may be better. So im not gonna worry about new clothes at the moment....i will get by with what i have and then right before i go to the gold coast (in march) i will then buy a few new outfits.

im working today...started at 8am and am sleepy. Cos i am acting team leader these 4 days the staff have to call me if any are sick, a hour befor their shift. So someone who started at 7.30am today called in sick...so my damn mobile was beeping away at 6.30am !!! so the last hour or so of my sleep was disrupted.

But another 90 minutes i will be off home for a nice relaxing evening, and tomorrow i dont start till 9.30am which is a much more civilised time to be starting.

i worked on my resume today. There is a part of me that thinks i should look out for other jobs. i dont think this job as it is now will exist forever...and in one sense i think i should try and get another job before i get much older...but another part of me thinks...no way till you reach your long service leave (which is in may 2008) and then another part of me says wait till your all slim n trim and then try. Which im sure id have more luck getting a good job when slim. That or look for a job with my current company. i really have found i like working day shift...so the temptation to find a 9-5 job is really there.

okies not much else to say...have a good weekend all !

Well christmas really is close eh? i realised how close today when tania emailed me to figure out a date to catch up over xmas/new years. i have only 6 working days left wooo hooo then i got 10 days off. Last day i work is the 22nd and thats the day my sis and her hubby and kids arrive in Adelaide. Havent seen them since ummm july i guess? Anyway very much looking forward to them, the way its turning out it will be a nice relaxing but people filled break i will have - and this is all a good thing...my sis and the kids are down to the 26th...hopefully catch up with tania i also have a work dinner...the aim is to lose another 2.7 kilos when i weigh in on january 1, which is do able...i am still gonna weigh in over xmas. This week coming i will go to the morning tuesday meeting...i love those meetings all the staff their are lovely and this week as its my day off ill stay for the meeting, the following week ill pop in to Adelaide and weigh in on the wednesday.

I had a lot of comments about yesterdays post so thank you all who replied...im still mulling it all over in my head i think LOL i actually decided this week i will join pink sofa maybe meet some adelaide gurls i could at least catch up with for coffee etc.

Okies thats enuff for today i think !

Okies well i think this may to a degree be a lengthy post....so be warned...

Last night I got thinking, and was wondering to myself "what defines me"....i came to the conclusion that there are 3 prominant things...being a lesbian, being single and being overweight. And then i started to wonder how these all relate. You know ive read and watched dr phil and oprah and others saying whats the reasoning behind over eating...i always thought well hell its cos the food tastes good ! But im now starting to realise for me its not cos of that...being excessively overweight takes the question of "when will you settle down/marry/have a partner" etc out of the equation...when someone is single and weighs 170 kilos other people are not going to wonder if they have a partner its highly unlikely they do...and being single and excessively overweight and no one expecting you to have a partner in some ways makes it easy. i get comfortable...there isnt that expectation...or questioning (altho my parents questioning me on this pretty much stopped when i came out lol), it was funny the other day Michael was doing my 6 monthly review and i guess he can tell im happier and healthier and he said "have you met someone" then he kinda apologised and said...i just wonder cos when someone is with someone they get happier in all parts of their life. And i thought at the time wow thats the first time in a longggggg time anyways asked me that...and i guess to a degree when someone asks it in the past ive felt like a failure cos i am single. But starting today thats gonna change...im gonna embrace being single at the moment because that is NOT how its going to be forever. Right now is a great time for me to be focusing on me...my health...my weight loss...and slowly getting a social life back. But one of the goals of this year is to hopefully have gone out on a few dates by the end of the year. i think its important i do this not only cos a relationship is a part of living...but also cos i really need to get out and meet people and do more things then work, eat and sleep, which i am slowly starting to do. i think i went off on a quandry but its all part of the same deal. Anyway this week i will rejoin the pink sofa...its a online australian website for lesbians and bi women...

On to other things gained 200 grams :(

Also bought some britney spears perfume and new fiorelli wallet set with my wishlist points !

wow not even 9am and i have been up for over 3 hours !!!! who would ever have thought it ! lol it was so warm here last nite...my room was kinda warm too...anyway woke up before 6...got up went on line for a bit and had my breakfast, and now at a minute to 9am the second load of washing is on....dishes are in the sink rinsing...im running ar0und with a honey mask on my face lol...and the kitchen tidy cleaned out...you think i may be getting TOO used to these day shifts? lol i must admit it feels good to be getting so many things done so early in the day. The puter is going to my friend Daves place in the next week or two (possibly tuesday) its been over heating a lot so i suspect the fans have dust on them...same thing happened last year so ill get him to clean them out and do a reformat for me...(gotta love having friends who are computer geeks !) and he said he will get it all done in one night and i told him i will get him a 6pak of beer for doing it for me. So the more i think about it the more i will try and get it done tuesday night. Hopefully i get to play some gammon today...im rarely online when the gammon games are lately...but day off today so hopefully be a few games today and seeing its 41 today no way in hell im going outside

Okies have a good saturday all !

Well today has started off good ! Was gettiing dressed for work this morning and when i put my top on (the one i wear in the progress photos) i thought to myself hmmm feels a lil looser then it did on monday. Then as i was getting on the bus i thought my jeans were about to fall down LOL was a very nice feeling to think they are getting so big and gives me some confidence about monday nights weigh in, but i really need some new jeans LOL...oh well this week i will go shopping for some more. So anyway thats all i wanted to say lol have a good day all !

Well...i think this week...im gonna kick ass. I have been spot on since monday...and havent eaten anything but fruit after dinner (infact last nite had dinner at 7.30pm and didnt eat a thing after it!) i soooooooooooo want to reach 20 kilos this week which i fully expect and i guess in the back of my mind i know if i lose 1.8 kilos i would be under 150 kilos to which is in the back of my mind. Not that i really expect to reach under 150 kilos this week...that will prolly be the week after but would be so nice to reach both of these goals by christmas day. Tonite i am cooking chicken cordon bleu from the butchers with birds eyes oven fries (which are only 2 points for 100 grams) Ive eaten light today so i could have this treat. I love cordon bleu.

Did the kids xmas shopping on the weekend. I keep checking my nieces bratz gurl doll out i bought her lol shes a trendy little thing...and its a princess one - of course ! she has blonde hair which is kinda multiple tones lol reminds me a lil of my hair hahahahahha

Its amazing how this week i seem sooooooooo much more motivated. i think it has a lot to do with my shift at work. i love walking out of work with the sun still out n shining as its been lately. Today i finish in 40 minutes at 5.30pm but tomorrow i finish at 3.30pm ! Will be very nice. I can go home do some stuff at home and then head up to the shops at dinner time so i can have my normal "grocery shopping treat" which is a yiros yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Okies nearly time to heard home....have a good night everyone !!!!

Hey all ! Just a quick update before i go settle down for a bit of tv viewing before a early nite. I lost 800 grams tonite wooo hooo so that takes me down to 151.7 and a total loss of 19.2 kilos. I have decided this week no eating after dinner unless its fruit ... so we will see if i can stick to it....id really like to hit that 20 kilos next week. Not a lot else is going....2 1/2 weeks till im on leave....yay....okies off i go....hope you had a good loss this week Tania. Oh and im gonna say something that will shock anyone who knows me - i loveeeeeeee day shift better then evenings - hahahhah who woulda thought it?

Photo Update

Okies super quick update cos my dinner is cooking. Things here are great ! Had my hair cut and coloured today fitted in the hairdressers chairs fine - another step to normality! And heres some pics....the first 2 pics are from today the last 2 are the one in my red top from 1/10/06 and the other from april !

This one is a closeup of my face and i can actually start to see cheek bones ! The blonde streaks are randomly thruout my hair and its much shorter altho still well below my shoulders...i actually really like this picture !

Okies this is taken today and i can see the difference... i think if you click on it the actual size shows and its more obvious then

This one vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv (below) was taking on 1st october maybe tomorrow i will take a closer shot

This one vvvvvvvvvvvvvv (below) was taking prior to weight watchers in april - blah !@

Well elloz all =]

Its so warm here today ! I wish i could sit outside and read my book and enjoy it but unfortunately i am working both days this weekend =[

Things are going good altho i went over my points yesterday and noticed ive been picking a bit (altho picking at healthy foods) so i think this tuesday i will stay for the meeting (which i havent done since about week 3 lol) So needless to say not expecting a big loss this weekend but still hopefully a loss.

I bought joanne lees book a couple of days ago (the gf of peter falconio) and all i wanna do is sit down and read lol.

Was suppose to go to my xmas show tonite but i have to work till 7.30pm and then be back here at lunchtime tomorrow (and it starts at 7pm down at glenelg) so have decided not to go. Instead i think i will go home and watch one of foxtels box office movies.

Okies not much else to say - have a good weekend all !

Welps YAY me !!! I not only lost TWO KILOS but i also reached my 10% - man i was so excited at the meeting lol. And so that takes me to a total loss of 18.7 kilos. so only 1.3 kilos to lose to get to my 20 kilos which is definitely do able by xmas. Then went and met mum and we had breakfast at a cafe which was nice. Today I work 1-30pm-9.30pm these rotating shifts im adjusting to really well and food wise im having to plan more but its all working out. Okies just a short post today will do a longer one on wednesday or thursday on my days off !!!!

well omg ive barely been here lately lol. i really am not at the puter as much cos when i am (for chat) people i chat with arent...so havent been online quite as much. Friday nite i went out for dinner with people from work. We went to "east taste" which is in gouger street. And we had the funnest nite...omg i laffed so much. And didnt get home till 11.30pm. And today i am working till 3.30pm and then i will go home and i have decided at about 5.30pm i will go into north adelaide and have dinner at felinis and then go see santa claus 3 - its so long since i been to the movies. And whilst id prefer to go with someone ive decided to get out a bit more and do a few more things evening if they are by myself. Plus its a nice nite and will be home by 9.30pm ish and dont work till 11.30am.

Everything else is going pretty good...altho friday nites dinner was kinda fatty and i did have fried ice cream too !!! But i also kept filling my bowl (yanno those tiny lil chinese bowls) with steamed rice. Okies im out of here !!! Enjoy your weekend!!!

Well weighed in last night and had a loss of 300 grams...taking me to a total loss of 16.7 kilos. It is a small loss but I weighed in the evening instead of morning so im not too perturbed. Next week i will weigh in in the morning so that will be the real guage.

Not much else to say...went out sunday nite for dinner and then played the pokies - and won ! YAY me !!! Was only $25 but still a nice lil bonus.

I am actually rather enjoying these 9-5 shifts. Altho tomorrow I start at 8am as i have another day of training. But having the evenings free is really nice. Tonite should be home by 6.30pm (as long as i watch for the bus and dont let it go past without flaggin it down,,,,,as i did last nite lol)

Last nite i went to bed at 10.45pm and was asleep by about 20past 11 and slept thru till 8.30am...so im very well rested ! And making a point to make sure i get enuff sleep.

Friday nite which is my only day off this week i think i am going out for dinner - yum yum - ying chows in the city...okies time to scoot and get back and do some work ~!

Welps been a few days eh? I really have to make myself remember to start posting at home. Worked 9-5 thursday n friday and i coped with it much better then expected. And i really enjoyed having the evenings to potter around...i actually found i got more done. BUT the training....omg my head is agog...the new systems ill be using are quite complex and i am actually quite nervous about tomorrow. Its kinda like starting a new job....new product...new team...new work hours. I will be weighing in tomorrow nite...cos of the change from morning to evening weigh in im not expecting a big loss but still expecting a loss. A loss of 500 grams and i will be happy. Oh i forgot to mention last week when i weighed in the weigher who is always lovely to me and encouraging was like....oh u are doing so well...i can really tell you are losing weight now....which was real nice of her and a lil buzz.

So i work monday to thursday off friday and then work saturday to tuesday BLAH but i will come and post my weigh in result here tomorrow nite and then ill be back again friday !

Hope ur all having a good weekend

Well today is a bizarre day...everything feels out of whack but in a good kinda way. I started work at 2pm...had dinnerat 5.30pm (wow just like a normal person!) and i finish at 10pm tonite....its all very strange being so far into my shift and its still light. Dunno how ill feel tomorrow tho...going to need to be up at 7.30am im hoping to go to bed about midnight and be asleep by 12.30am that would still give me 7 hours and i should be good to go for the day. I finish at 5pm and then im gonna head to north park and pick up a few groceries and then have the evening at home. Which i am actually looking forward too...all very strange for me but i think as long as i keep on top of my sleep i should be right. I have valarian which i will prolly take tonite. The doc did give me a script for sleeping tablets but ill try n avoid them if possible unless i simply am not able to get adequate amount of sleep.

All else is going good...spot on with my food today in fact should be under points by about 3 by the end of the day. Okies off to do some work

well been a few days since i been here eh? i know everyone thinks when im not posting as much im not doing as good with my ww but not the case just been kinda busy !!! Actually i normally do my entries at work between calls but im gonna need to get into the habit of doing these from as from next week my work life is gonna have no spare time. Went out for lunch with tania on sunday...scored one sunburnt arm...yummy food...and great company,......including the adorable mr lachlan ! (7 months old and cute as a button !) the day did have a few mishaps but lol it all worked out good in the end.

This weeks a bit crazy...tomorrow i work 2pm-10pm and thursday & friday i work 9am-5pm then like a normal person i have the weekend off. And the real bonus is for the next few weeks i can do my grocery shopping on thursday night.

Oh and did i forget to mention how i went at weigh in? lol im a tease arent i??? I lose 1.7 kilos !!!!! So that takes the grand total to 16.4 kilos...so 1.7 kilos of my 10% and 3.6 kilos left to lose to get to 20 kilos by xmas day (with 5 weigh ins left) But i am about to be weighing in morning and evenings so my losses may vary a bit and i need to keep reminding myself of this. next two weeks will be evening weigh ins and so next week i wont expect a huge loss.

Okies chickas off to do some work - have a good nite all !

ugh i chipped my tooth. Its my main tooth on the top row right in front...i cant remember doing it but just noticed it today. So Monday i have a appointment with the dentist. I hate dentists all it means is huge bills and pain lol hopefully they can fix it...i spoke to the nurse and she said its highly unlikely theyd remove that tooth but i really do need to go. I also had a crown which fell out in my back tooth...(piece of crap dentists) it doesnt bother me so i havent worried about doing anything about it but i think when i go ill get them to do whatever to fix the front tooth first once thats all fixed and paid for ill then get a proper teeth clean and the back one fixed. I also have a feeling that on my bottom row they need to remove one cos it seems to me like they are too squished. And one tooth is moving cos of it. so yeh fun fun fun !!!!

Food wise ive been very good. Im more convinced then ever that i was retaining fluid as last nite i went to the toilet soooooo many times lol it was ridiculous really.

This bizarre crazy weather its now raining after a muggy morning ugh !!!

Okies off i go !

Well i gained lol was only 300 grams and im laughing cos im really not too concerned. Ill explain why. Sunday night i went to dinner at Bombay bicycle club which must be one of my fave restuarants. Now i did look at the menu before hand but being indian there really was nothing low in point so i decided sunday night would be a treat. So i ended up having a bruschetta...now this was no ordinary bruschetta...it was 4 piece of garlic bread with a bowl of the bruschetta mix with parmassen cheese on top and when u got to the bottom u could see the oil :( But omg soooooooo yummy (tania you would have loved it ! lol) then i had ummmma wood oven pizza which was dripping in cheese and was delishas well and umm 3 glasses of champagne so yep im sure im retaining some fluid right now plus ive had the odd stomach cramp so TOM may be coming.

But everything else is good...i remember what Tania said when she got engaged that events and things will happen and after all getting a social life for myself is part of this journey too ~!

Okies busy busy at work !!

Photos from 29/10/2006

Well here is the latest photos...they were taken oct 29, im back using this journal since myspace changed half my privacy settings and made it hard for people who were not myspace members to see my journal and pics.

October 24th

Well smacks myspace around...hopefully this post will update myspace wouldnt let me earlier. Im sorry i havent posted much the last week to be honest i was so busy relaxing and being lazy i forgot about journal entries hahahahahahah and the good news taaaaaaaadaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!! 1.5 kilos lost at weigh in today wooooooooooo hoooooooooooo taken my total loss to 15.1 kilos...omg can u believe it? 4.9 kilos to lose and i will have lost 20 kilos which is my christmas goal...imma gonna do it !!! And its funny cos its today ive realised wow im really doing this not just playing around. After i weighed in i ran over to target and spent $83 on make up ! lol that was my 15 kilo reward and of course last week i bought myself a gold bracelet for losing 10 kilos. For my 10% reward i wont spend big...but i will buy a nice make up bag that day.
Not much else is happening....count down is on till i go on that damn rotating roster - oh can u hear the glee in my voice at the thought of it?
Sunday night this week i am going to the bicycle club for dinner mmmmmmmmm indian its a beautiful restuarant....ive decided i will have 2 or 3 champagnes and i will have whatever meal. I wont look at the points (altho i wont go silly) but i wont order dessert. ohhhhhhhhhhh and i will take photos before going out for dinner sunday night ! Jody calls them my prison shots but i will take new ones lol